i see no point to this life i have
Set at 21:25 on June 30, 2009

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Birthdate:  January 1, 1984
Age:  40




Bite nightstalkervamp

Stalk nightstalkervamp


Born In Night, Raised In Night



* my name is Phil.

* 38 years old.

* brown hair (but i do dye it).

* Blue eyes.

* im bout 5,7.

* 135lbs.

* Shoe size 8.

About Me

i work by day (against better judgement) i work in a factory, in charge of the stores and I drive a forklift. its money after all lol.

*UPDATE* I'm now in stores permanently, ive been there for over a year now just never updated this part lol, oh well.

consider myself to be ugly, but dont really care.
girls say that im sweet and kind, and i make them laugh sometimes to.

im a hopeless romantic, ill go to any length to make my g/f happy, i dont care that much bout sex, i mean if i get it then thats all good but its not the most important thing to me in a relationship.
my dream date wud be to either sit on a cliff or on the beach at night with a clear night sky, the stars shining and the full moon out.

people think im insane lol, just cause i have a morbid sense of humor, so what i know im mad and out of it but thats me, and if girls dont like that bout me then i guess ill just have to be alone, but ill have my friends on here, well i hope anyway i dont wanna lose contact with any of the friends i have made here.

i dont get annoyed at things that matter lol, i get annoyed at stupid things like when im playing a game and cant do a level or when my comp fucks up (that does matter).
when people get into debaits with me i dont raise my voice or anything like that, i mainly laugh and try and annoy them lol, but its still fun.

live for the night, hate the light.

Im the quiet type, i dont talk that often to people unless its a topic that i want to talk about with them, i am a very oppinionative person, i have an opinion on nearly everything, if its a topic that i feel strongly about then i will argue it time and time again, for now its just been bout the way that people always say things behind ur back and how they will never tell u what they got to say to ur face, i get that often cause the place where i work is full of those sort of poeple.
i would describe myself as bein anti-social, i dont mix well in a crowd of people unless i can relate to them on some level, i do go out with people from work, but mostly keep myself to myself, although i do interact with them on basic level.

I am the type of person that finds peace in my surroundings, i go out for walks either at night or the day but to places i know noone else will be so i can just sit and stare out and think, to have peace and tranquility. I think my favourite spot would have to be up on a high cliff or mountain looking out into the open sea, that wud be my ideal setting, or on a high hill back at night, just to lay back and look up at a clear sky to see the stars and moon.

im the kind of guy that, well u have to ask to recieve, i mean if u ask me to do something or ask for help then ill gladly do it but if u dont ask then u dont get.
its the same where i work if im not told what to do then i wont do it myself cause knowing my luck ill get it wrong but i think that only applies to work really.

My favourite past time would have to be the internet I suppose, it used to be going out at night for walks but since im different to most people the gangs that hang round everywhere would have a field day with me especially since im alone, plus the fact that me being outside my own house did not stop them for beating on me last time I dont really want the hassle cause I got enough to deal with without getting beaten up just for going out for a walk.

I do like animals, but I don’t want anymore pets of my own cause I cant stand watching them detiriate and die like the last 2 pets I had, they were my best friends I told them everything and talked to them about everything and when they died a part of me died with them, I cant stand seeing animals being mistreated, I mean pets are loyal and they give their love willingly so why do some owners think they can mistreat them, its just wrong and another reason why this world is so fucked.

The career I always wanted was to become a fighter pilot, but cause I wear glasses that’s impossible but I suppose I could always get laser eye surgery but that costs money which I aint got at the moment, the problem with where I live is there are very few jobs but there are loads of people who live here, I have a job and am thankful for it even though I might not like it, its still money.

As u can tell from my portfolio I like collecting weapons, swords and knives I have some really nice ones so feel free to check out my pics of them I have put up.

I live near the sea so that’s good cause I love walking along the rocks right next to the water so when waves come in they spray over the rocks its really good sometimes to just sit out there and think, I just think of my life and stuff and try and imagine a future I look at past events and try and reflect on them, I go into deep thought sometimes.

I would like to move from here but I don’t know where to I want somewhere peaceful, but that kind of place is getting harder and harder to find each day due to the human race reproducing and spreading at an alarming rate, taking up land and turning it into yet another industrial site or something like that, I believe that the human race is this worlds biggest cancer, I think the dinosaurs would do less damage to this world if they hadn’t been wiped out.

ill put some more info up when i think of some, in the mean time ask anyhting u want, ill answer anything u want to know.

I dont want any children in the future, i dont really like them they look at me and im just there looking back thinking to myself no way in hell am i havin any of them.
i know that no one can say for certain whats going to happen but i can say for definate that i aint havin no kids, none, none at all lol.

Trust is another thing that is important to me, i will trust everyone but once they have given me a reason not to trust them then that is it as far as im concerned they have lost my trust and will never get it back, i mean ive been hurt before and everything by issues of trust and i gave the person chance after chance but i was always let down and though i know not all people are like that it still stands that once u have lost my trust u will never get it back.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||| 26%
Stability |||||||||||||| 53%
Orderliness |||||||||| 40%
Empathy |||||||||||||||| 70%
Interdependence |||||| 23%
Intellectual |||||||||| 36%
Mystical |||||||||||||| 56%
Artistic |||||| 23%
Religious |||||| 23%
Hedonism |||||| 30%
Materialism |||||| 30%
Narcissism |||||| 30%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 50%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||| 56%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 63%
Need to dominate |||||| 30%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 70%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 50%
Wealth |||||| 30%
Dependency |||||||||||| 43%
Change averse |||||| 30%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Sexuality |||||||||||| 50%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50%
Physical security |||||||||||||| 56%
Food indulgent |||||| 30%
Histrionic |||||| 30%
Paranoia |||||||||||| 50%
Vanity |||||| 30%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||| 56%
Female cliche |||||| 30%
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* Listening to music.

* The internet.

* Playing poker (mostly online).

* Going out for walks at night whatever the weather i dont mind, my fav is a clear night sky with a full moon and stars out for me to see.

* Animals.

* Collecting swords and knives.

* Practicing with my swords and knives, always practice with them.

* peace and quiet.

* Coming on VR.

* Making websites (aint done in ages though).

* Playing on my ps2.

* Playing darts and pool.

* Sitting in either darkness or candle light.

* Swimming.

* Whisky, Vodka and Baileys.

* Paintballing.

* Archery.

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* The way people always backstab and how i have to listen to it, why cant people just say what they mean for fuck sake.

* Football (i'd rather watch paint dry).

* People who think they are better than others.

* Work.

* The Sun.

* People who just judge on looks and then class u as a certain person without knowing a thing about u.

* People who mistreat animals.

* R&b, pop, rap and techno music.

* People who pretend to be something they are not.

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* After forever.


* Aiden.


* Arch enemy.


* Avenged sevenfold.


* Arvil lavigne.


* Billy talent.


* Bullet for my valentine.


* My chemical romance.


* Children of bodom.


* The corrs.


* Cradle of filth.


* Deathstars.


* Disturbed.


* Ensiferum.


* Entwine.


* Gladiator soundtrack.


* God forbid.


* H.I.M.


* Iced earth.


* Kamelot.


* Killswitch engage.


* Kittie.


* Korn.


* L'ame immortelle.


* Lacuna cil.


* Linkin park.


* Lordi.


* Muse.


* Nightwish.


* Panic at the disco.


* Papa roach.


* Paramore.


* Rammstein.


* Serj tankian.


* Slipknot.


* Soil.


* Spineshank.


* Still remains.


* System of a down.


* Trivium.


* Within temptation.


* Xandria.


* The Veronicas.


* Rise Against.


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By Nightwish

* Sleepwalker.

* Nemo.

* Dead Gardens.

* Dark Chest Of Wonders.

By Killswitch Engage

* Arms of sorrow.

* Holy diver.

* This fire.

* My last serenade.

By After Forever

* Energize me.

* Emphasis.

* Monolith Of Doubt.

* Equally destructive

By Kamelot

* The Shadow Of Uther.

* Call of the sea.

* March of Mephisto.

From Gladiator soundtrack

* The Battle.

* Barbarian Horde.

* Honor Him.

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* Van Helsing.

* Underworld.

* Underworld evolution.

* Queen Of The Dammed.

* The One.

* Rush Hour 1&2.

* The Scorpion King.

* Shanghi Noon & Shanghi Knights.

* Twin Warriors.

* All the die hard movies.

* 300.

* lost in translation.

* war.

* V for vendetta.

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* Ace Combat 5.

* Ace Combat 4.

* GTA San Andreas.

* Call Of Duty, Finest Hour.

* Medal Of Honor, Frontline.

* Time Crisis 3.


About Me Personality Quiz

Created by jeffq1985 and taken 42070 times on bzoink!

What is your name?phil
How old are you?22
When is your Birthday?jan 22
What is your zodiac sign?aquarius
Where were you born?in hospital
Where do you live now?at home
What color eyes do you have?blue
What color hair do you have?red/black
How tall are you?5,8ish
How much do you weigh? (Be Honest Ladies)122 lbs
What is your race?white
What is your worst fear?getting old
Do you smoke?no
Do you drink?yes
Do you cuss?oh yes
Do you use drugs?no
Have you ever or will you ever steal?no
Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?yes
Do you play in a band or play an instrument?no
Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?3 tattoos
If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be?jason
Do you suffer from depression disorder?sometimes
If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be?just collapse dead
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?no
Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?yes
What subculture do you belong too?
Are you evil?can be
Do you believe that you can be possesed?not as such
Are you a paranoid person?sometimes
Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?not really
Are you obsessive and/or compulsive?can be
Are you a violent person?no
Do you take your anger out on other people?no
Do you blame other people for your mistakes?no
What is your favorite game?ace combat
What is your favorite movie?underworld
Who is your favorite band?nightwish
What is your favorite song?numb / sleepwalkers
What kind of books and/or magazines do you read?none at the moment
What is your favorite color?black or blue
What is your favorite food?rice
What is your favorite drink?whisky and coke
Do you own a pari of converse?no
Do you own a pair of dickies?no
Would you ever kill yourself or someone else?dont know
Are you a virgin?no
Are you kinky?yes
Do you like biting?sometimes
Do you masturbate?who doesn't
Do you watch pornography?did with my ex
Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?yes
Have you ever shaved your head in a socially unacceptable way?no
Are you hyper active person?no
Are you religious?no
Do you have any self inflicted scars?no
Does pain turn you on?yes
Do you stand for originality and creativity?in some ways
Do you like meeting new people?sometimes
What do you like most about life?aint found that out yet
What do you dislike most about life?being alive
Do you believe in love at first fright?aint happened yet
Have you ever pierced a body part yourself?no
Have you ever had to beg for dinner money?no
Do you own a car?no
Have you been to jail, yet?no
Are your clothes held together with safety pins?no
Do you have actual scars from punk rock shows?no
Have you ever vomit while making out?no
Have you held a job for less than a day?no
Do you own more than two pair of jeans?not at present
Have you ever had to fuck stuff up for no good reason?no
Have you ever been kicked out of your parents house?no
Have you ever been fired from your job because of your attitude?no
Does the world piss you off?yes

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this is one of my fav songs, numb by linkin park

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take

become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

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