Introduction

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Scribbles, Rambles, Ravings and Rhymes by a deluded child with a heart from an exotic era, now suppressed by a ridged world. Whist dancing though the realm of thoughts and emotions, please gaze at my twisted workings. To be precise my writings and drawings are what I wish for you feedback on, you can find my drawings in my Portfolio and my writings in my journal. If you are not new to my pages then the most recently updated works are in my ‘stories’ and ‘personal section’

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syntheticdarkness

Who Are You?

When is your Birthday? 8th Feb.

What is your zodiac sign?: Aquarius

Where were you born?: Too young to
Remember..

Where do you live now?: England

What color are your eyes?: sea blue

What color is your hair?: Blonde.

How tall are you?: 5ft 8.5

What is your worst fear?: being completely and utterly alone

Do you smoke?: no

Do you drink?: yes

Do you cuss?: yes

Do you use drugs?: no

Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?: yes

Do you have any tattoos and/or piercing? Not yet, I plan to wait untill I am in a job so securely that they won't kick me out for looking funky

Do you suffer from depression disorder? I used to I think i am over that.

Have you ever tried to commit suicide?: yes

Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?:Yes, yes I have

Are you evil?: ask someone else, I don’t know what makes you evil I could go into a whole long sinario about that but I won’t

Do you believe that you can be possessed?: Any thing is possible

Are you a paranoid?: I can be..... Who said that?

Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?: I try not too but its natural

Are you obsessive and/or compulsive? I don’t know am I?

Are you a violent person?: Either playfully or only if they like it...

Do you take your anger out on other people?: when I snap

Do you blame other people for your mistakes?: Not generaly

What is your favourite movies?: Requiem for a dream, Interview with a Vampire, The Secutary, The Hannibal films.

Vampire: Claudia, from the interview with a vampire

Who is your favourite band?: Cruxshadows

What kind of books do you read?: Not much right now but generaly non fiction occult, a few intersting reads, vampire novels and Angela Carter.

What is your favourite color?: blood red

Would you ever kill yourself or someone else?:already tried

Do you like biting?: yes

Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?: Pink

Do you like to write poetry?: yes I also write lyrics and prose, see my journal

Do you like to do your own photography?: yes

Do you have any self inflicted scars?: Yes

Are you religious?: Agnostic

Do you believe in vampires?: yes, anything is possible

Have you ever played an Ouija board or used tarot cards?: I have used tarot but not an Ouija board. They are not to be taken lightly.

useless information

Coke was originally green and contained cocaine thus it was called coke

The cast on star trek eat there own recycled poo 2 save money

Leonardo da Vinci spent 12 years painting the Mona Lisa's lips.

The tip of a bullwhip moves so fast that it breaks the sound barrier; the crack of the whip is actually a tiny sonic boom. Oi Oi ;)

Marilyn Monroe had six toes.

The electric chair was invented by a dentist. (DUH!)

Jim Morrison (of the 60's rock group 'The Doors') was the first rock star to be arrested on stage.

In ancient Egypt, killing a cat was a crime punishable by death.

When Bugs Bunny first appeared in 1935, he was called Happy Rabbit.

It's impossible to sneeze with your eyes open.

It is estimated that millions of trees in the world are accidentally planted by squirrels that bury nuts and then forget where they hid them! Go Foamy www.illwillpress.com

Pigs don’t sweat, hence why they like the mud, to cool off.

There are 119 grooves on the edge of a quarter.

In trucking circles, a "bumper sticker" is a tailgater who is following another vehicle too closely.

There are 18 different animal shapes in the Animal Crackers cookie zoo.

There are 42 dots on a pair of dice.

Should there be a crash; Prince Charles and Prince William never travel on the same airplane as a precaution.

The king of hearts is the only king without a moustache on a standard playing card.

There are 640 acres in a square mile.

The kings in a deck of cards each represent a great king from history. The king of spades is King David, the king of clubs is Alexander the Great, the king of hearts is Charlemagne, and the king of diamonds is Julius Caesar.

There are about 3,000 hot dog vendors in metropolitan New York.

There are more than 40,000 characters in Chinese script.

The LEGO Company was founded by Ole Kirk Christiansen in Billund, Denmark, in 1916. Today it has over 9,000 employees worldwide. The Danish words Leg and Godt were put together to make "LEGO." Later, it was discovered that in Latin, the term Lego" means "I put together" or "I assemble."

Some Persian rugs may last as long as 500 years before wearing out.

There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos.

The little bits of paper left over when holes are punched in data cards or tape are called "Chad."

Some toothpaste and make up contain crushed volcanic stone.

There are odour technicians in the perfume trade with the olfactory skill to distinguish 20,000 doors at 20 levels of intensity.

Taking a toaster that is plugged in into the bathtub with you is bad for your health.

The man who did the voice of Bugs Bunny was allergic to carrots

Dry cereal for breakfast was invented by John Henry Kellogg at the turn of the century.....But it was invented as a way of lowering the libido of the populace to reduce sexual activity.

Did you know that eating the box is healthier than the cereal?

Coca cola will eat through an iron nail in under a week

The last man on earth sat alone in a room, there was a knock on the door is the shortest sci-fi story ever

Coke is used in many machine shops as a bolt loosened when bolts are rusted shut

In Florida, if a man watches a woman undress in front of a window, he can be arrested as a peeping tom. On the other hand, if a woman watches a man undress in front of a window, she can have him arrested for indecent exposure.

Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when woman make love they produce double amounts of the hormone oestrogen, which make hair shiny and skin smooth.

Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.

Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner.

Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tunes up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps and you don't need special sneakers!

Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases the body endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being.

The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones. These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!

Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. It is 10 times more effective than Valium.

Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.

Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.

A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever!

The origin of the English word "orgasm" derives from the Greek, "orgaein," meaning "to swell" or "be excited or lustful."

Humans are the only species on earth that have face-to-face sex.

Gun owners are among the most sexually active Americans.

Most elephants weigh less than the tongue of the blue whale.

The word "pornography" comes from the Greek meaning the "writings of prostitutes."

Your tongue is the only muscle in your body that is attached at only one end.

Someone paid $14,000 for the bra Marilyn Monroe wore in some like It Hot.

The average bra size today is 36C. Ten years ago it was 34B.

A lifespan of an eyelash is approximately 150 days.

A human eyeball weighs an ounce.

Over in Missouri anyone under the age of 21 who takes out the household trash containing even a single container of alcohol can be charged!

A cat has 32 muscles in each ear

Women blink twice as much as men

Right handed people, on average, live 9 years longer than left handed

Almonds are a member of the peach family

The world's youngest parents were 8 and 9, lived in china 1910

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour ouch

You can't kill yourself by holding your breath

Your foot is exactly the same length as the distance from the bottom of your palm to the crook of your elbow.

All of the clocks in the movie Pulp Fiction are stuck on 4:20.

Winston Churchill was born in a ladies' room during a dance.

Did you know you share your birthday with at least 9 other million people in the world? Who would a thunk

Every time you lick a stamp; you're consuming 1/10 of a calorie

Babies are born without knee caps. They don't appear until the child reaches 2-6 years of age

You know that you are more likely to be killed by a champagne cork than by a poisonous spider.

Hippopotamuses actually sweat blood. Their skin contains a great amount of an oily substance that exudes from the pores, and when the beast perspires a little blood gets mixed in.

Bats are the only mammals that are able to fly.

Dolphins make love as we do for
The pleasure

Male orang-utans are sometimes raping the females

The animal responsible for the most human deaths worldwide is the mosquito.

People who drink coffee are less likely to commit suicide than people who don’t.

Women who went to college are more likely than high school dropouts to enjoy both the giving and receiving of oral sex.

The average weight of a giraffe’s heart is 12kg.

A swan has 5000 feathers on its neck only

The outdoor temperature can be estimated to within several degrees by timing the chirps of a cricket. It is done this way: count the number of chirps in a 15-second period, and add 37 to the total. The result will be very close to the actual Fahrenheit temperature. This formula, however, only works in warm weather.

Did u know that a catfish has over 100,000 taste buds?

Vampire Bats live solely of blood. Based upon food consumption of captive bats, a single bat will drink approximately seven litres of blood per year. The only thing life-threatening from the bite of the vampire bat is exposure to rabies.

Over 40% of the women in the U.S. have been a Girl Scout.

Leave a coin in coke for a few days and presto! Clean coin with out harsh abrasive cleaners

Dolphins also use rape as a form of territory defence, males rape males

Did you know the pig orgasm last 30 minutes?

The average chocolate bar has 8 insects' legs in it.

On average, people fear spiders more than they do death

Cat's urine glows under a black light.

Most toilets flush in e flat

Nutmeg is extremely poisonous if injected intravenously.

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

If you fart consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb

If Barbie were life-size her measurements would be 39-23-33. She would stand seven feet, two inches tall and have a neck twice the length of a normal human's neck.

A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.

Polar bears are left-handed.

Donald Duck comics were banned in Finland because he doesn't wear pants.

More people are killed by donkeys annually than are killed in plane crashes.

A goldfish has a memory span of three seconds

Peanuts are one of the ingredients of dynamite

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain

Starfish haven't got brains.

In Virginia, there is a law that you can get arrested in your own home and sentenced to a maximum possible 10 years in jail for having oral sex.

John Le Mesuiers last words were "Its all been rather wonderful"

On Spike Milligan’s grave it says I TOLD YOU I WAS ILL.

Animals can have the Parkinson’s syndrome.

There is no such thing as a true black rose. Rub the petals on a piece of white paper, it's purple. Dang it!

The aquatic animal, the Red Sponge, can be broken into a thousand pieces and still reconstitute itself.

Bamboo can grow three feet in twenty-four hours. Imagine heaving that our your ass

Average speed of Heinz ketchup from the mouth of an opened bottle: 25 miles per year.

Carnivorous animals will not eat another animal that has been hit by a lightning strike

It takes about 142.18 licks to reach the center of a tootsies pop.

Goldfish can suffer motion sickness.

The US government will not allow portraits of living people to be placed on stamps

It's estimated that more bullets were fired during New Year's celebrations this year in Texas then in the Gulf War.

David Hasselhoff's great uncle was the inventor of the inflatable sheep.

The longest recorded flight of a chicken is 13 seconds.

And you wanna know why theres no clocks on the gambling floor of the casinos? because if you're aware of the time, you'll probabally gamble less..

A pregnant goldfish is called a twit. As is a pregnant teenager

During WWII, a German U-Boat sunk due to a malfunctioning toilet.

The microwave was invented after a researcher walked by a radar tube and a chocolate bar melted in his pocket.

Hippopomonstraussusequilibdophobia is the fear of big words.

Here’s some ones explanation of vampires I don’t particularly like it but hey

Vampires:Hollywood is pushing them...But are they real?

By William Schnoebelen

Many people today, even Christians, balk at the idea of vampires walking the earth. They relegate them to the category of horror films, or else they ask, how does the discussion of such a subject edify the Body of Christ?

As one who is a former "vampire," now set free by the power of the Cross of Christ, I have a certain vested interest in this issue which goes beyond the academic. Before we answer these questions, let us briefly define what we mean by a vampire.

As with most things spiritual, you can immediately ignore almost everything you have seen from Hollywood. Vampires are NOT undead corpses who turn into mist or become bats. If there are such beings, we have never seen them. That is not to discount their possibility, but only say that they are beyond our experience. No, vampires are people who are often severely disturbed (Biblical translation: demonized). These people get relief from stress through either drinking their own blood or the blood of animals or other people. It is more common for women thus afflicted to drink their own blood and for men to take blood from others. Many survivors of abuse report incredible pressure to cut themselves and then drink their blood. Once they do this, they feel great release of tension. This can be a demonic compulsion.

It is also important to note that while the vampire legend is nearly universal, it reached its most epidemic proportions in heavily Catholic (or Orthodox) eastern Europe. Most cultures have taboos against drinking blood. This can doubtless be traced back to the command the Lord gave Noah after the flood forbidding the drinking of blood (Gen. 9:4). It is ironic that both the Catholic and Orthodox religions feature as their central superstition the idea of drinking blood and eating flesh (under the sacramental appearance of wine and bread) against the specific commands of God. That these religions are dominant in cultures where vampirism (both in legend and in practice) runs deep is significant. People seem to know instinctively that without the shedding of blood there is no remission of sins (Heb. 9:22), yet Satan will do anything he can to keep them from the one kind of blood which CAN save them - God's own Blood (Acts 20:28). The psychiatric literature is full of cases of people who drink others' blood, often to the point of murder. Such people report an incredible "peace" after such an experience.

A surprising number of these people perform their vampirism in a religious context of some sort, quite frequently rooted in Catholicism. Such was my case. I was introduced to the vampire cult by members of the Orthodox clergy, who led me to believe that they were the ancient custodians of the true secret of resurrection: drinking the blood of the living! (For a full account of my descent into this nightmare world, see Lucifer Dethroned chapters 1 & 18.)

Their claims to me were verified by initiations which I experienced that ultimately produced in me a marked aversion to all food except for human blood, communion wafers and sacramental wine! I developed a genuine addiction to fresh blood - more powerful than bondage to any drug! Only Jesus could subsequently heal me of this, and to Him goes all glory and honour and praise! Satan obviously knows what he is doing. The prohibition of drinking of blood is one of the few commandments of the Lord which cuts across the time of Noah (see above) the Mosaic Law (Lev. 3:17, 7:26) and even into the New Testament church (Acts 15:20, 29). God did this because He knows that there is something compelling and darkly exciting in vampirism, for "the blood is the life." (Deut. 12:23).

True vampirism is not a joke, nor is it a ghost story. Christians need to understand that this is a real (albeit uncommon) affliction, just like drug abuse or child abuse. Sadly, it is getting more common. Because of the universal taboos and biblical commands against blood drinking, many newly saved Christians, whose past included vampirism, now struggle with serious issues. "Can I be a Born Again vampire?" "Can God forgive me?" "Will the church ever accept such a monster as I?"

This has come up in our ministry because on numerous occasions we have prayed with people who could not get set free from spiritual oppression. It was evident to us that they were keeping something from us and trying to keep it from the Lord. These people were terrified to reveal that they had consumed blood and enjoyed it. It is a powerful "access point" for demonic attack if it has not been confessed, and thus Satan fed their fear.

Pastors and prayer counsellors need to know that vampirism is real. If a person has genuinely come to Christ, they need not be afraid of confessing that sin and getting set free of oppression. If they hide it out of shame, it may only prolong their oppression. We had to gently pull it out of the people, after all other options were tediously exhausted. They were so relieved that we did not condemn them, and they were even more relieved when Jesus set them free of this sinful compulsion. It is a sin like any other. It can be forsaken and renounced with Jesus' help, but it does have to be acknowledged.

Snippet from Dracula
By
Bram Stoker

"I took the sleeping draught which you had so kindly given me, but for a long time it did not act. I seemed to become more wakeful, and myriads of horrible fancies began to crowd in upon my mind. All of them connected with death, and vampires, with blood, and pain, and trouble." Her husband involuntarily groaned as she turned to him and said lovingly, "Do not fret, dear. You must be brave and strong, and help me through the horrible task. If you only knew what an effort it is to me to tell of this fearful thing at all, you would understand how much I need your help. Well, I saw I must try to help the medicine to its work with my will, if it was to do me any good, so I resolutely set myself to sleep. Sure enough sleep must soon have come to me, for I remember no more. Jonathan coming in had not waked me, for he lay by my side when next I remember. There was in the room the same thin white mist that I had before noticed. But I forget now if you know of this. You will find it in my diary which I shall show you later. I felt the same vague terror which had come to me before and the same sense of some presence. I turned to wake Jonathan, but found that he slept so soundly that it seemed as if it was he who had taken the sleeping draught, and not I. I tried, but I could not wake him. This caused me a great fear, and I looked around terrified. Then indeed, my heart sank within me. Beside the bed, as if he had stepped out of the mist, or rather as if the mist had turned into his figure, for it had entirely disappeared, stood a tall, thin man, all in black. I knew him at once from the description of the others. The waxen face, the high aquiline nose, on which the light fell in a thin white line, the parted red lips, with the sharp white teeth showing between, and the red eyes that I had seemed to see in the sunset on the windows of St. Mary's Church at Whitby. I knew, too, the red scar on his forehead where Jonathan had struck him. For an instant my heart stood still, and I would have screamed out, only that I was paralyzed. In the pause he spoke in a sort of keen, cutting whisper, pointing as he spoke to Jonathan.
"`Silence! If you make a sound I shall take him and dash his brains out before your very eyes.' I was appalled and was too bewildered to do or say anything. With a mocking smile, he placed one hand upon my shoulder and, holding me tight, bared my throat with the other, saying as he did so, `First, a little refreshment to reward my exertions. You may as well be quiet. It is not the first time, or the second, that your veins have appeased my thirst!' I was bewildered, and strangely enough, I did not want to hinder him. I suppose it is a part of the horrible curse that such is, when his touch is on his victim. And oh, my God, my God, pity me! He placed his reeking lips upon my throat!" Her husband groaned again. She clasped his hand harder, and looked at him pityingly, as if he were the injured one, and went on.
"I felt my strength fading away, and I was in a half swoon. How long this horrible thing lasted I know not, but it seemed that a long time must have passed before he took his foul, awful, sneering mouth away. I saw it drip with the fresh blood!" The remembrance seemed for a while to overpower her, and she drooped and would have sunk down but for her husband's sustaining arm. With a great effort she recovered herself and went on.
"Then he spoke to me mockingly, `and so you, like the others, would play your brains against mine. You would help these men to hunt me and frustrate me in my design! You know now, and they know in part already, and will know in full before long, what it is to cross my path. They should have kept their energies for use closer to home. Whilst they played wits against me, against me who commanded nations, and intrigued for them, and fought for them, hundreds of years before they were born, I was countermining them. And you, their best beloved one, are now to me, flesh of my flesh, blood of my blood, kin of my kin, my bountiful wine-press for a while, and shall be later on my companion and my helper. You shall be avenged in turn, for not one of them but shall minister to your needs. But as yet you are to be punished for what you have done. You have aided in thwarting me. Now you shall come to my call. When my brain says "Come!" to you, you shall cross land or sea to do my bidding. And to that end this!'
With that he pulled open his shirt, and with his long sharp nails opened a vein in his breast. When the blood began to spurt out, he took my hands in one of his, holding them tight, and with the other seized my neck and pressed my mouth to the wound, so that I must either suffocate or swallow some to the . . . Oh, my God! My God! What have I done? What have I done to deserve such a fate, I who have tried to walk in meekness and righteousness all my days. God pity me! Look down on a poor soul in worse than mortal peril. And in mercy pity those to whom she is dear!" Then she began to rub her lips as though to cleanse them from pollution.

Gothic love®

By Syntheticdarkness

Pluck my heart from my flesh
And keep it
Call my name from the grave of our rotting love

Clasp your arms around me
Let me know your there
And I’m not alone
Your arms open the doors to home

If you smile I smile with you
If you cry I cry for you
If you die I die with you

I was all alone, in the world
I asked you, you took me home
From this world
Our hearts the beat in union
We breathe together
We move in concert

If you smile I smile with you
If you cry I cry with you
If you die I want to die with you

I opened my heart to you
And you took a few, memories
We laughed
We cried
You smiled, I tried
But my heart was bleeding

If you cry I try to cry for you
If you die I want to die with you

You broke my heart,
Took it and tore it a part

Love is a treturous feeling

Soft and mild sweet and true

I thought that I was in love with you
You threw my feelings to the wind like so many lost hopes binned

Your arm use to take away the pain
Now I know they left a blood red stain
I breathe for you
My heart beats for you, yearns for you
My life, I live for you
Help me I don’t want to be alone

I used to love you
I used to watch you, want you
But now I’m alone in this world

I made this grave. I choose to lie in it.
Live with my Regrets, Sleep with What I Said

All that matters is that I’m with you
That I’m loved by you

But I’m not and I fall,
Into the pits of despair
Falling,
Dying
My faith is gone.

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