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Do you ever lay in the dark wondering if the pain will go away? If everything will be ok just like people say? Or if maybe death is the only way? Is your nly friend a sharp blade? This is me......Is it you?

All my sorrow built up by the brutal physical and mental rejection by my peers hast been washed away by love.

Who would have thought all that it took was the love of a good woman?

well spoken excelsior....well spoken
and yes..I think we have all sat and thought about the pain at least once....
but always remember...everyone has the pain.....high low rich or poor..we all have to fight our demons.....and it is the fight that truly matters....not the deciding blow.

i sit in my basement daily and try to find a new way to deal with the pain, but i never really find a way to deal with it, just a new way to hide it for a little longer.

Pain is an illusion created by your mind. The severity of pain depends on how you decide to measure it.

Never forget to choose another angle of perspective.

Is it truely "pain" if you see it as something you have to endure to get to a higher level of consciousness?

ritenourgoth....this one is for you
USE the pain....get creative.....it is fuel
let it be a source of power.....pain is what fuels my creativity....my drive in life
do not let it use you...you must use it.

There isn't a day that goes by that I dont relive my pain over and over again. THe pain I have makes me who I am. It is apart of me. I have grown to use it as my drive for life. Either in writing or just living. Pain is what I hold.. therefor pain is my comfort.

I have the worst way of dealing with what i have been through and what i'm still going through. I bottle it up. i hide the pain and sadness behind my big brown eyes and everyone thinks i'm ok. I finally let my anguish go and spoke about it in my journal and i feel like there's been a weight lifted off me. i take comfort in the fact i have found a place where i am not alone.

I take my pain where ever I may roam...it is a part of me that I can not leave behind...
Everything wil be ok?!? No one ever could make me belive that...exept me, myself & I...if I may add, the thre of us are not so good at it...Wright now, I have a new pain that just started to rage in me, and will join the others in my backpack, so I think that i am totaly pesimistic about everything...
About the razors and bleeding away the mental pain, it does the trick sometimes...
still i hope...that is the only thing we can do...isn`t it?

as I said...filter it...we all have some level of creativity in us...be it paints, sculpture, dance, writing, or something else....all you have to do is find it.....the razor......is at best only a momentary release.....and an unconstructive one at that.

pain can be a cruel master be it emotional or physical you just cant allow it to controle you life becouse if you do it not worth living and many take the easy way out

For me emotional pain is much harder to go trough...or I`m a masohyst...hm, never tought of it that way..lol...
I am trying to filter it ,i play guitar,paint,wright, read...it can go for a certain period of time...but once a wile i think that i must snap, explode into peaces, cry like an idiot and than go on, to the next time.I think that the pain is always somewhere in my head,and the question is how near to the surface is it.
I am boring...enough

Mine friend used to be a blade.. and i wish i had never made friends with it... its addictive and does not make me feel much better after ...

pain, gosh the pain, good subject

I have to argee pain is a ! I think the proper placement of all feelings can be burned as fuel. Pain, anxiety, anxious, dawn unsteady legs, sadness, etc. With pain, I used to bottle it up and wait for a person to unleash the rath on. It was not healthy for myself and the subject that was unlucky enough to give me the comment that my taste in beer sucked! I was holding a lot back and one night I tried to meditate, and imagine a face that comes to me when I have pain. Almost like a demon in my thinking coming to bring his pain to me. So I drew it ! Looks like Michelangelo's Demon (not trying to polish my nuts) but when I have that pain I picture that face as a person that can tilt the feild in my favore!

Hmmmm, someone once told me that "Pain is weakness leaving the body" and though I think he ment physical pain, the statement can work for any type I think. Once you know what causes you pain, you can use it to see the weaknesses in yourself. You can better yourself then, and make yourself stronger.

What do u think of this? im putting it maybe in my journal. Its still a work in progress and im only an amiture. But i would like to hear what you think of it. please be honest.

When I will I see the light? When will this cold night fade? When i close my eyes to the darkness, will it be replace by something more. My eyes are red because I cry myself to sleep every night. It seems that nothing wants to go right, no matter how hard I try. My room is cold as the air out side, my heart if frozen into ice. Held high above a sold surface by a string so thin and so weak that all it would take was a light breeze to break it. Sending my heart crashing down and shattering it into pieces so small that this time i wont be able to put them back together again.

Every person makes their own mental reality. If a man is dangling off a cliff, hanging by only a single finger, he doesn't have a problem unless he thinks he has a problem.

Learn to re-work your mental processes and you'll be able to overcome anything.

Thanks for the advise

I can't help to think how edge'e your words are. I thought it was beutifully composed! However edge writing seems like a cry out. Maybe you need to stop and ask yourself- amI wanting the pain because despite what happiness brings, the pain I feel is what I know best. Kinda just like rocking in the angry chair! Hapiness is scary even when not confronted but just a thought if you've dug a hole to deep. The fact you've writtin about your pain in a buetiful sentence is a sign to me that change feels like a desperate attemp. This is just another angle veiw of an idea, The best is to step back a little before your can step farther in your intentions. :)

Who said i was writing about me. i could have just gotten bored and started writing like i always do.

I hope and dream but do not dare to sleep. For what i see when i close my eyes no mortal man could stand to see.

I agree with Cancer. It's not healthy to let it dwell in once place, if you can focus it into different things it can serve as a way to dull it. Atleast it does for me.

On a different note, pain is there for a reason. There are no such things as mistakes, though we might not understand the reasoning at the moment, one day perhaps we will sit back and realize why it came to be. Every occurance happens in your life for a specific reason, and every emotion comes into play based on that, and sometimes alot of pain and confusion is involved, but it's our place to hold out and sort through it and wait for that answer, or atleast realization to hit us right in the face..and that reason is that through so much suffering and confusion and at times seemingly unbeatable odds, we can show remarkable strength and prove even ourselves wrong by pulling through pain..Remember we are never dealt more then we can handle, whether we realize it or not. I'm living proof of that. Oh I hate it when I get so optimistic...

Pain is what has made me into the person that I am today. If it weren't for the different mental, physical, and emotional pain that I've suffered through since my birth I wouldn't be as strong as I am in mind and spirit. Whatever y'r pain is, be it physical, emotional, or mental, wich in reality, I beleive that all three are inter-twined, if you can't figure out the basis of it, you can not over come it.

If y'r in physiacl pain it begins to effect y'r mind set, which then brings down y'r mental attitude, and if your in pain for long periods of time, then that inturn will bring you down emotionally, it's kind of a vicious circle.

But there are ways to turn the pain around, some things have been mentioned here .. but I think the one thing I use the most offten, and it sounds kind of cliché, but when the physical pain gets to be too much, or even the mental, or emotional ... I'll lay down to rest/nap to release stress in my back (where majority of my pain stems from) I'll close my eyes and think of the past few hours, or days and find every good thing that I can think of .. usually I'll drift off to sleep for as little as 15 minutes to a few hours .. but when I wake up, not only do I feel less or no pain, but my whole mental and emotional outlook is different.

If you can't change y'r mind set, then the pain you feel is always going to linger. And only get worse. you CAN control y'r pain ... but you need to first know what the basis is that it stems from, then you need to figure out the best way to overcome it. If you don't then eventually you will get to the point where you feel that it's not worth it at all. I've been there more times then I care to remember ... and still get there sometimes ... but eventually I do, as you and anyone else, CAN pull away from it.

Dami does have a point as well. You have to know the root of the pain to be able to work through it or else, that also plays a key factor in overcoming it. Speaking of things to do to get my mind off of it, I tend not to sleep because I am stuck thinking about it, but I do sit with a pencil and sketchbook and just scribble to get my mind off of things somewhat. A nice long shower and a nice cup of coffee tends to help too. Just think about your favorite hobby and try to use it to help you not dwell too much

The only real pain i ever have is when i am not in control of what happends to me. I go out of my way to try and ensure that no one has power over me but sometimes i fail

pain is simple it hurts for a few seconds and it goes away simple and unfulfilling heartach and death now those r forever

I have and eternal pain that will only subside with the death of a mortal man

Cancer , as always you have the right answer...

this is a subject i feel alil uncomfortable to talk about especaily when something in my life has caused me so much pain and greif, but i will tell u is that a "blade" hasnt been a good friend to me!

for me this is a very sensitive subject . As anyone would say causing pain to yourself like that is not good. But i know how you feel not long ago i was in the hospital for slitting my wrist almost died of blood loss. i found a way to vent the pain with music hope that helped some just want to let you know that someone else knows how it is

music is a great solution to ease the pain instead of an unhealthy habit that is difficult to get out of, forturnitly i have succeed and i take my pain and anger out on inadiment objects(curse my spelling)

i know this is over played, but i believe it to be true...

PAIN IS JUST WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY!

I think Cancer, Mistressnightshade, And Dami all make good points.But Everyone knows that saing pain is your best friend it lets you know that your still alive.But I say fuck that Pain is my worst enemy thats why I live in my own lil world in my head I dont want to know that I'm still alive.

pain, as everything else, is what you make of it. Individuals have the mental ability to determine their emotions. It is far too easy to surrender to such weakness and let it consume ones being. If a person overcomes this train of thought, it becomes a catalyst for strength

My pain makes me who I am and reminds me I'm alive, remembering it gives me my character. My scars prove that my memories are real.