The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

Its been so long since Ive ever asked anyone for help but I feel as tho Im relapsing and if I tell anyone close to me they will only send me back to the hospital..... I never want to go back.. It would kill me more then anything if they force me back.. I will find away to end it...
I dont know what the hell is going on with me... I feel as tho I dont even know myself.. Frankly.. Im becomming horrafide.. Of myself.. Thats deffentaly not right....

*hugs* i really dont know how to help, im going through the same thing right now too, its too hard to deal with now. maybe we can help eachother somehow.

Id like that...:.Smiles weakly.: Its fustrating and confusing and painful...

If there's anything I can do to help just let me know. I'm here if you need me. Just remember that. I may not be that good at helping, but I can at least put forth an effort and try. ^_^ Best Regards--Jay--

if u want you can PM me. i think that better then tallking about things on the forums.

**Have you stepped aside yourself to ponder what it is thats making you feel this way?

**Any idea's as to whats pushing you back into a relapse (of whatever) any way to take yourself from that situation? (even if it means a vacation by yourself out of town just by yourself in a motel room watching dirty movies and munching all weekend long .. does wonders sometymes ya know)

**Have you even thought about phoneing a crisis centre just to talk.

There are many options to think about!
If you just need someone to lissen and not really form an opinion or diagnosis on you .. I'll lissen ( I do it in my job daily at the YMCA and I miss just lissening!)

We can't help you, only you can help yourself! We are not in your situation, and those who are in a similar situation, don't think as you do. We cannot see the world and the problem as you see it and we don't solve the problems the same way you do, we can only help you to help yourself.
What I do: I try to pull out myself out of me and observe me in the problem, what caused it, why is it bothering me and how can I solve it. Then I try to analyze the solutions, all of them, one by one. All the cons and pro's for every solution, what do I gain and what do I lose with every solution applied and will that solution make another bigger problem...

Lose your pride, cry if you need to cry, but think after crying, don't think how helpless you are, think what you can do to not be helpless, don't pity yourself, be brave, be above yourself... think of your situation as a wave of darkness, something will happen to bring a wave of light, but it will not happen if you don't try to make it happen!

PM me if you want...

Aye, thank you guys alot.. Im not the type to ask for help.. but I needed it.. I was really losing myself.. Once more meny thanks to those whom helped me. In each own way it has helped..

you know i understand... sushisan was my split personality.... so now people will either hate me or not care... you can talk to me kiwwy ^_^

Thanks Nic :o)

Bye bye thread

MM