Ok, so a little explination here. I apparently need my own thread to slap up random comments and my little short stories.
Several muses have presented themselves to me here on Vampire Rave.
While talking to them I see little flashes... visions if you will... of these people.
Not all of the actual, get down to the bottom of it topics in these stories are sexual in nature...
Some are as simple as passing them on a street...
Though you may feel like you had sex after you read the story/vision. THIS is my intent.
To take something as simple as a smile and make it the Alpha and Omega of your afternoon...
Some of these take indeed some time to write, so bear with me. The full story in its whole one piece if a bit of a pain to read.
So you may find them broken into sections. You will know there is more comming of the same story when there is an appropriate "To Be Continued..." at the bottom of the post. Please give some time with these specific posts, as I derive them from personal conversations with the afore mentioned muses.
Anyway... to explain the titles to the stories...
I title them after what song I had in my head that brought the thought out.
So... feel free to download and listen away whilst reading.
Sooooo... on that note, I do so hope you enjoy these...
Please feel free to PM with what you think about them.
Untill Next Time, Darlings...
Random Thought that isnt really random for those of you i talk to on a daily basis:
I tried to post the first half of the first story today just before i left work. Apparently SOMETHING thought i was idle...and logged me off the site, therefor the story did not take...
Lets try this again shall we??.....
"Electrical Storm"
(as written and compsed by U2)
Christ this apartment was huge. The exposed brick and beam swallowed her whole and she loved it for that. It was the top floor, southwest corner of the old tobacco warehouse. The best for blocking out the morning sun. Perfect for watching that sun SET. The windows were just the way she wanted them. Following the origional design of the building they made up the southern and western walls of the apartment, which was really just one big room. Combine all of that with twenty foot ceilings. In a word? Perfect.
Her sense of decoration was simple, really. Cover everything. Cover it all with satin and velvet. Did it matter that her favorite chair was ugly as sin? No one ever saw the damned thing! It was promptly swallowed in crushed black velvet upon delivery. The king size bed in the middle of the floor was drenched in a sea of silver and midnight blue satin. These colors best suited the skin enveloped in them as she stood by the windows. She was glad he was asleep. He hated her smoking. At this point she didn't much care, really. You simply cannot look at a body like that and NOT want a cigarette.
"Just not possible," she thought to herself as she looked at him.
"No man that looks like that has ever been in my bed."
She stood there in the corner windows for the crossbreeze. Not that it matter much, the smoke would wake him up either way. She took another drag.
"God bless menthol," she thought.
She could see the night air curl around her naked form as the exhaled the smoke into the room. The air was cool, yet sticky. It had been raining all day in the city and the storm had finally drained itself dry. The clouds hung around through the night. This was her favorite part of storms. They hovered over the city like a great cat about to pounce on an unsuspecting meal. The city lights, in all their glory, shined upon the underbelly of the cloud to give off a soft silver glow.
Only the occasional flash of electric ballet gave away the true nature of the beast.
Screams and voices from the streets below gave rise to the time... midnight.
Her body lied to her and said no later than seven pm. She took the last deep drag off of her cigarette and pitched the butt out the window.
"Yo, bitch! Watch what you're doin', huh?! Like she owns the streets and shit..."
The young woman below stumbled on her words about as badly as she stumbled on her feet. A night cap is one thing, she always said, but blatant stupidity due to overt intoxication was an entirely different story.
"Actually, I do. Fuckin' idiot..."
She hated drunks with a passion.
He stirred in the bed behind her as she shut the windows. She stood there, quietly watching the lightening dance across his body. As if he wasn't well off enough in that catigory the shadows played with by the night fire caused utter torture. She let her eyes gaze over his body for a few minutes. Smiling at the realization that she suddenly was in a very 'oral' mood, she decided to wake him up. Evil grin in place, she sauntered over to the bedside and disappeared underneath the covers...
**To Be Continued...**
I love your musings, girl. I second the motion for you to continue writing.
oh my gaw...draw drops...wow...your right i am reaching for my cigarettes....oh yeah i quit 11 yrs ago...but i think i will have to start back...
Ok, lovelies... here's a random thought for ya.
And Im sure some of you will agree as this is a common occurance in pretty much all public places... especially those including alcohol on the bill....
I was out at the neighborhood hangout with my brother and his girlfriend (affore mention technical support staff..hehe).
A good friend of ours was there. There were also a lot of new faces there that we'd never seen before.
On of said new faces proceeded to hit on Jasmine.. the good friend.
The new face was female and relatively unattractive.
Rather sloppily dressed, right true to Jerry Springer, back alley hoe style.
OBVIOUSLY trying to be the one noticed in the bar. Whilst us chick and brother were chillin at the table... Jasmine, with the help of some Capt. morgans... proceeded to rant on said female.
This would be a good time to mention that Jasmine is black, as she found it a pertinent point herself, I dont mind mentioning it here.
The rant was generally about how woman, thin or overweight... dress line a "nine-dolla hooka" ad proceed to flaunt themselves throughout the bar.
Her rant was based on what is considered sexy. It is her point of view (and mine as well, come to think of it) that what is sexy is what comes from within. Everyone (men and women) has their own thing that makes them sexy. Weither they like it or not.
Personally I used to think what was sexy is being thin and girlie and ultra-feminine. For those of you that have read my profile or spoken (or even met me) *I*...am certainly not Ultra-feminine.
I am feminine, yes, and in my own unique way. But what *I* was told what makes me sexy (by my darling Jasmine) is the fact that I could frankly give less than a RATS ASS what people think of me. I found a style of dress that suits my personality (gothic-mafia i was once told).
And I play it to the hilt when Im out in a very gracefull way. These comments were very flattering to me and i QUICKLY proceeded to by that girl a drink.
But everyone needs to find what makes them sexy. It has nothing to do with clothes... or labels ON them..
An awful lot of people like to go out and be what they see in magazines.
Personally i think.. honey... Sexiness is a persona.
Some people obviously have technical difficulty figurin' this shit out.
*I* know *I* dont wanna go out and see a woman sloberin on everyone and HOPING to get some ass by the end of the night by god knows who.
You find your persona. You find what works for YOU.. and still involves social grace and tact.
If you can't do that, sugar... you keep your ass at home 'till you master the art.
'Course thats just MY oppinion... I could be wrong.
**Rant Ended**
**Rant begins**
Amen!
I, not slender by the stretch of any blind monkey's imagination, believe I am a sexy woman. I have been told I am sexy (affirmation is pleasant *wink*), and that a key point in that ... that presence, that allure, is that I view myself as alluring.
To steal a line from Khayman, I don't "hoe it up" on the make-up, I rarely dress dressy, but I damn sure know how to put on my metaphysical "woman coat" and wear my sensuality with class and taste.
It IS all in the attitude and self respect; it IS in knowing yourself and what makes you feel sexy, because, ultimately, that is the font from which your grace, charm and allure flow.
Ok. My turn to **end the rant**
P.S. Heh. Sorry, Khay, had to mumble my own two bits worth. *wink*
we too, meaning the male species, do not have any respect for someone that does not respect themselves first....I look at it as a sad desparate act on the affore mentioned nine dollar hooka...and the only ones that actually go home with someone like that have no respect for themselves or her either....
I have met in the short time here some very interesting women most, such as the ones posted here that aren't trying to impress me, just relate their thoughts or feelings...it is as if, and i hate to use the word because it has nothing to do with age but, maturity some have others need to get it...no one will take you seriously without it...
I like to see you guys..and gals... post your random thoughts and Dennis Miller-ish rants. This is the forum for rants that don't really need a reply. Just say it...get it out..and rock on.
Also, eventually I'm gonna finnish the above short. Though at the moment I'm in the middle of something that's taking a lot of my energy. I'll finnish it when I get back in the mood...
Smooches, babies.
*wink*
ok to explain the above comment i direct ANYONE interested to my profile. follow the directions and read the letter if you like.
It helps me a lot when other people know whats going on in my life. Kinda feels like everyone carries the weight. Not just me.
So... for those of you that I talk to on a regular basis...and even those I dont but still ask if they can help... thanks guys. Y'all are the ones who make this joint feel like home to me...
Hugs and Sloppy kisses...
Khayman
This thread is one of the best on the Rave. Keep it coming Khayman. I enjoy reading about your life and thoughts.
//Andie
Why, Thank you, Andie.
Sorry, guys, I know its takin me for friggin EVER to finnish that last story. Been a long week, ya know? ANYWHO...
My Lunch Break Thoughts for today...
I was aimlessly wondering around downtown Richmond this afternoon while on my lunch break and a thought came to me. I dont think Im in the right place.
City, state..hell for that matter even the COUNTRY. Dont get me wrong.. Love the states... Ohh-rah and all... But I am seriously starting, as of late, to think that my place is not here. I know someone else like that... but he'll find his way soon enough. I've seen it. But me? *sigh* I dont have any clue where Im supposed to be but i know it aint here.
Im not very book smart. I dont like school. In fact I detest it. Its probably good then that I have no money for it, otherwise it would be nothing BUT out of my family all damn day long. I tried it once... didnt work out for various reasons. S'all good though.
I do know what I like though... I like music... I like acting. I'm a fabulous liar and an OUTSTANDING mimic. Im not entirely proud, persey, of the former of the two... but it's saved my ass many times. It's a trait I hold onto for situations where that needs done=) But I think Im supposed to be in the public eye somehow. Tv... movies... music... I dont know. Music suits me, but I cant play any instruments... I sing (so im told).. but I dunno 'bout all that now.
I dont know... England.. Japan... Australia... SOMEWHERE other than here would be nice.
I just kinda got to walking around and found a good cigaratte spot so I stopped and lit one up... Looked around.. cold day.. bright blue skies... brisk winter wind and the sun on my face. I looked around the city and suddenly felt so... empty.
More and more here of late I find that Im feeling like there is a hole in my soul... it needs to be filled soon. If theres one thing I know about myself is my soul-habbits". It gets like this... and sits for too long it will just lay down and wait for my mind to do something remarkable with it. Something worth while. If it goes too long at the winters edge... it soon turns to waiting for me to do something or waiting to just fall off and disappear. Whichever gets here first. Thats not a place Id like to be again. Its dark... cold... and it just plain sucks.
I like to be seen. I dont mind my picture taken. But i hate to look at them. I like people to pay attention to me. Tell me nice things. Who doesnt. Some people like it, sure.. others could care less. I think I may being turning into one of those poor wretches who actually need it to live. Which is gonna suck... cause if I ever get my fifteen minutes... when theyre up? Ima fall off... roflmao.
*heavy sigh*
Christ... i gotta get outta here...
Khayman! I am here to rescue you! I go away every summer, spring break, and fall break. I go to other countries and help out at different locations with medical needs and such forth. I know, I know, you are thinking, "why the hell would I want to go to 3rd world countries and help their sorry asses" Well my dear, that is where the slacker in us all comes out. You get the company you are going to work for to pay for your trip and agree to help them out, you help out and then spend your nights, galavanting around to all the local witches houses, clubs, bars.... I LOVE it. You get away from daily life, while exploring new life, and it is free. The cultures rule. Vamprism is everywhere, as well as the gothic nature. Just need a sponsor, and they are easy to find. ::winks:: If this doesn't appeal to you then sowwy for wasting your time ! ::blows kiss::
Danielle
interesting prospect, darling... note to self... lemme ponder that for a bit.
i'll get back with ya on that....
I fear I may be suffering from a mild form of writers block... once I get the latter half of that story in my head... as soon as I grab a pen and paper... I've forgotten it. I must have written it about 15 different times now. ::sigh::
Oh well... I'm trying kiddies...
sorry... :(
In the mean time Im gonna yap for a few minutes while I wait for my lunch to get here. This is generally a dream I had the other night. It's very wierd. But hey... feel free to lemme know what you think of it.
It's rare I remember my own dreams. So I feel the need to post it/write it down before I forget it...
I had done something wrong, what it was I don't know. But I had the distinct impression that I was being punnished for SOMETHING. And I recall knowing that my particular form of punnishment was a very scandelous (sp) one.
Some of you are aware of what happened with Epic and I these past few weeks. The main part of that situation I am getting to are the photos she used. Camui Gackt, Japanese rock star. He was in the dream. He was a friendly person to me. It's strange though, for a while we were two separate people... and I was being punnished because of something involving him. At the end of the dream we were in fact one in the same. Not two separate people. In the same body I guess you could say. I was still myself, as was he... but we were BOTH in HIS body.
Which ain't a bad bod to be in if you've dug him up on google.. *pant*
ANYWAY..
My form of punnishment was what stood out so much from this dream.
Put yourself in an on gymnasium pool. Or maybe your local YMCA. Whatever. Big rectangular room, covered floor, walls and ceiling with and off white tile. At one end of the pool is the door to enter. Sliding glass door... double paned glass. Air tight sealant around it.
There are several people there watching me as I am thrown into the pool... clothes and all. The pool is not filled with water. But it feels the same. I just know it isnt water. Im aware the substance is part of the punnishment. They are all standing there at the end of the pool, including Gackt. I'm about shoulder deep in the "water". They "guards" or whatever are yelling at me in a language I've never heard before. But i understand that they are telling me to get under the water surface...
I'm sure you can understand I had to break that up a bit...
ANYWHO...
They were telling me to get under the surface of the "water". I did not want to do this. I was afraid of this... but not deathly afraid. The kind of afraid when you are claustraphobic and have to ride up one or two floors in an elevator. You know shortly the ride will end... get it? Anyway...
I argue with them... Gackt is crying...
They throw a sword at me just as i go under... its a katana and it lands into my right shoulder blade. But it only goes in maybe half an inch..and it still sticks...which is wierd for the size of the weapon.
I take it out of my shoulder, all the while BREATHING this liquid (i can honestly say now i know what it feels like to breathe liquid. its awkward but it can be done).
I look up. I see a strange multicolored crust has formed over the pool. I know I am ok breathing this liquid in... that is it's intention, but survival instinct tells me this is not normal and i should break through to air.
I do this.
When I break through I damn near choke to death...
They have replaced the air with AMONIA!!
This is the point in time where Gackt and I are the same person. Two spirits in HIS body.
I go back under the crust... it closes solid immediately.
I remember hearing his vioce... deep and clear... telling me I am ok... and he will come for me soon...
Then I wake up.
Told ya it was wierd... >:)~
I can actually see that happening in reality... The greater question is... Who threw the katana?
I didn't see. at the time i was under the 'water'... i looked back just in time to see it enter the 'water' and into my back.
Zi! Wah, woo, wah...poooosh, poooosh!
Breath, baby. heheh
You know... Im right glad I left what was left of my Dr Pepper in the truck... WISE ASS... i dont think the library would have appreciated it being snrk'd all over their keyboard.
Well, I thought that was appropriate quip considering the reperatory nature of your dream...
Don't snrk your soda, hon. It'll wicked hurt!
Yesterday I spent my entire day at 2 airports. I got to be the lucky individual to pick up all of our family members for the great Christmas reunion. Whop de dee. So of course, the planes are all delayed, most likely from all of my fat ass family weighing down the plane. ::laughs:: Anyways. I am sitting in the middle of O'hare airport the largest airport in the states. I must admit, I am a big "people watcher." I like to just stare and look at different people. So am sitting in between a smelly old drunk and a nun about 3 feet tall. This alone was enough to ruin my day ::rolls eyes:: What my random thought of the day is though is why in the hell do people start up conversations with you, and when you seem not interested, continue to talk... I mean the little nun sat there and lectured me that I shouldn't wear makeup, which all I had on was a bit of gloss for the eyes and lips, nothing dazzling...She lectured me on brandname clothing, asked why a lable had to be upon my shirt. Why the lable was across my breasts, was I trying to draw attention to them? Then she proceeded to ask if I had a Bible with me. I said no, and that I didn't carry a Bible around on a daily bases. So she begins to rant on about Jesus Christ and how Christmas came about. I sat there like an idiot and took the bitching...then the drunken man chimed in and asked if I had 10 bucks to spare. I said no and he used the bloody nun against me saying "What if I were Jesus and you didn't spare me 10 bucks" Well after about 15 more minutes of this bullshit I excused myself and the nun told me to "I hope your path in life is not the path to hell" . Oh man that did it. I went home like what the fuck is wrong with people. So that is my random thought. Summary is, when at the bloody airport by yourself, hang out in the bathroom stall until you absolutely must leave. ::winks:: Just remember that.
My comment plays off from crouchingtiger's from a while ago... I too wonder, Khayman, who that katana belongs to... Any ideas...?
Could have been the 'warden'... a guard... Gackt... hell, as phukt up as this dream was... it could have been me...
Any analysis is welcome, babies....
Course is coulda been Epic... considering thats the name/person I'd been putting with that face for so long.
*sigh*
I dunno... Speaking of Gackt... anyone up for a trip to Japan? The man really does have a fabulous voice... aside from the fact that he sings like a lounge singer now that he's out of Malice Mizer...
(try to imagine Marilyn Manson leavin' the boyz and starting a career singing like Frank Sinatra...).
I think that'd be worth a look see... considering what is entailed with his face for me..../:)
Japan! Let's go! ::giggles like a little german school boy::
You have NO IDEA, Mortal...
I have a serious affinity for Oriental men (no matter how un-p.c. the word oriental seems to some of you).
That guy? HOLY SHIZZLE. His speaking voice is like a bass drum... and it courses through your entire body.
Mm-mm-mm...
:: shiver ::
Khay I will mail you the Oriental husband's catalogue. You know how in Russia us women auction ourselves off to American men to be brides..well the Oriental men auction themselves off as husbands. Sex slaves if you will. I once bought the catalougue to display it on a shelf. I couldn't resist!
YOU ARE SHITTING ME..
::jaw drops to the floor ::
Mail that shit to me... I will give you my address... I dont think ima "order anything", persey... I just wanna see that shit...
ROFL ROFL ROFL ROFL
I'm trying to look it up online for ya, so you can see, if that dont work, i'll surely mail it. ::laughs:: It's too funny
Catalogue? Mail order male? Mail order female? Is the shipping high?
Well I know for the small price of 25 dollars you can purchase me! C'mon going once.....
Wait - do you do windows?
(Just kidding! Put DOWN the cleaver!)
Now now! I also wash cars...naked!Start the bids again! ::evil giggle::
maybe=)
if i can get a little dream analisys (sp) goin on in here....??? Cause that one was just WIERD.
Well have you watched the movie "THE Abyss" lately? The breathable liquid could be related to that. I am just throwing out randomness here to try to help.
hehehe... liquid air. Yeah, Ive seen that.. but not in about a year or so. and the 'water' wasnt pink. roflmao
that shit tastes like shoe polish.
::Throws hands in the air:: I have no clue what that dream means then. I am puzzled as you are.
geez *shoe polish* Khayman? your dream is just as weird as your diet, giggles!
hehehe...nah... the shoe polish, Emmy, is the liquid O2 that Mortal is talking about. Ive tried that stuff... ment for deep sea dives.... THAT tastes like shoe polish... but once you start breathing it and your body adjusts to breathing liquid again... you dont taste it... cause you have no actual AIR.
Did that make sense?
Aaaah.. penny drops, well girl I AM glad to hear your diet has a bit of something liquid in it heh!
Actually I believe I seen liquid O2 being used in a movie once...it was rather like a red fluid he had to breath in. Not sure but I think the movie was the, "Abyss"?
Ok, go back and read like the last fix or six posts, Emmy....
OK... that first story is takin a while...
so Im gonna give you this one to suffice your libidos untill i get back into the swing of "Electrical Storm."
So I leave you with this one....
Actually Im not gonna leave you with that one. Not here anyway... Ima have to be a dick and not post it to the general public. Its a little too descriptive to be putting up in front of people that are young enough to be my kids...
That just makes me squirm to think young'ns would read that... Entirely unnecessary.
I'll find a spot and letcha know=)
SORRY!
hehee
Sorry, kids. I hadn't read that story through since I'd written it. I didn't realize the exact terminology used untill I'd begun to type it here...
*ducks from public back-lash*
I SAID... MY BAD!!! Christ almighty...
rofl rofl rofl rofl
I can understnad where you're coming from, though, khayman. There is no way to control or monitor the ages of those who would read the stories here.
You better damn well put them somewhere, though. *grin* I want to read 'em.
So my random thought of the day goes as such... I have noticed that along with the ginormous vampire rave population burst has come a big increase in idiots. I am getting a little sick of the pointless posts showing nothing and putting forth no information. Bleh. -morty