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rather or not I am searching for my own soul, I soul search. Only most recently have I been doing inner soul searching for myself. I have learned a few things about me I never realized.
I now know I have always believed in the elements and as I was growing up wore a mask to hide my beliefs in family issues. Now my family hardly talks to me. Only my mom and sometimes my dad.
I found out that I am Pagan after doing some religion/spiritual searching. I realized that I connect most to them and most to their beliefs and I feel most comfortable doing my magick and not having to do it in the closet so to speak. I have done spells when I was younger and they worked. But now that I'm older I truly realize what I was doing back then.
I have learned I connect to others very much so. But I'm still soul searching.
Does anyone else know what there is to soul search or how long it takes before you are fully content in yourself? Maybe it's companionship, maybe it's settling, finding the right place? Something I can't control? I don't know. But I still feel incomplete.

I actually am asking, if anyone has any further advice on what I can do. I have done some traveling, have lately been talking to new crowds of people, and been more active...but still I feel incomplete.
Perhaps you are soul searching and need to connect with others. I am trying to further my connections so I can gain more knowledge and wisdom so I can have more friends. Maybe I will never be complete all I ever truly crave is knowledge.
But still. Soul searching, how far can someone go, before their search is done?

Well me personally when I do go out for some much needed soul searching especially when it is for an answer that I need to make sure is the correct one, I have a special place up in the hills that I go to. Sometimes I get the answer right away, sometimes I am up there for hours.

I guess it would depend on how deep you want to search, are you trying to fill a void ? Or is it just a feeling of incompleteness ?

I guess it's both. I feel a void and at the same time that void makes me feel incomplete. I'm trying to figure out what it is. I've been meditating over it. I've been thinking, I've been keeping my eyes open for an answer. But I don't know. I think I'm more incomplete then anything.

Another great way to try and figure out what it is that is making you feel that way is making a list. Take a sheet of paper fold it in half on one side write what you want to accomplish then on the other side with out looking right what your accomplishments are. hand that to someone to read back to you. Sometimes hearing it from someone else can be helpful.

I felt incomplete fro a long time and never ever thought I would ever not feel that way, but that all changed a year ago.

Set time aside each and every day to meditate and reflect on each days events this way you come in contact with mind, body and soul and obtain inner peace. This is a prime method of soul searching.

I relate to you something I learned while hitch hiking, rather Zen.

It always seemed that the more concious I was to desiring a ride, the
less prospective traffic I would see.

When I was least cognative of getting a ride, I would get " snapped to" by a car pulled over ahead of me.

Well one can not mirror the soul as its the core and thinnest part of us as supreme self, it lies in over of macro - physical body and air and space, micro - energy, mind thought waves and lastly the conscious.

you have to meditate and can see self while trans (astral trans) as layer of energy coz soul of self can not be seen and only felt. but spirit budled in aura and energy can be viewed in astral trans. when you fly in the space with very high velocity in the vehicle of fire, you can clearly view yourself going speedily as fire ball.

Well what I learnt about supreme self is :

Its beyond physical body
Its beyond its activity such as breathe and living
Its beyond active gross mind
Its beyond subconscious latent mind
Its supreme self beyond your self visible and its body features.
But its felt and when felt, you become part of universal one ness. And that time you will earn mastery in the causal effects.

I will to track this in my exercises from 45 onward at present in october I will be 42. still to gain more knowledge and test it before startng reguler exercises.

But this is sure that you can trace only via meditation and can feel it via meditation only.

The realization comes to a concept that everything - and one, is Brahman. Get your hands on a copy of "The Upanishads."

Don't know how helpful this would be but....

Whenever I have felt lost or incomplete...I journal it all. I find a wooded or open area of nature where I can be alone, and I vent EVERYTHING on paper. No one to judge it, to criticize, or bother me. Just my thoughts.

I wish you luck in your journey.....

thank you guys. and actually I didn't really think of the journal idea. I will have to keep that in mind. I'll see if it works.