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I know of many people on this site alone that would have, what you call, schizophrenia... but they've never honestly recognized it as such... but as just housing other SEPARATE entities within their bodies... Some would call them alter egos... others call them imaginary friends...

It's incredibly surprising the number of people that are like this... In my own group of friends ALONE, I know about 8 people who are like this... I've met countless numbers of people online who have said they were like this... It's truly surprising just how common it is...

My question is... do you believe these people are crazy or that they're experiencing something completely real?

And if you ARE one of these people... are you afraid of "coming out"? If not, will you tell me your story?

You see, I'm one of these people myself and I find it so intriguing how many others out there are like me... And I honestly think we should make this more known... or... at the very least... Accept it within ourselves as society may not be quite ready...

(Sorry in advance for any spelling errors or misconception on MY part about what schizonphrenia really is.)

Schizophrenia isn't the same thing as Multiple Personality Disorder, though there are some similarities.

Schizophrenia literally means "split brain" but it merely means that the mind is separated from reality.

Def. -- a psychotic condition marked by erratic behavior, withdrawal from reality, and intellectual and emotional deterioration.

Developing alter egos is commonly accepted as responding to extreme infulances, abuse, or even neglagence at young ages.

The "characters" are developed to " act" out alternative scenerios.

insulating the abused persons personality, and entertaining/ socializing the neglected child.

I'm not sure if your asking for help, or just wondering aloud here. If you're schizophrenic, you're obviously under some kind of care...I hope.If you're not sure, the symptoms of schizophrenia vary from one person to another, but most people have a combination of positive, negative, and cognitive symptoms. Some of the
positive symptoms include: hallucinations: hearing, seeing, feeling, tasting, or smelling things that are not there. Delusions: believing things that are not true. Paranoia: unusual suspiciousness. Disordered thinking: when a person has difficulty “thinking straight.” Thoughts may come and go quickly. Or it may be hard to focus on one thought for very long.
And here are some of the negative symptoms:Flat emotions: showing little emotion or speaking in a voice that sounds flat, with little or no expression.Social withdrawal.Lack of motivation. Symptoms that affect the way a person with schizophrenia thinks are called cognitive symptoms. They generally include slow thinking, poor memory, and difficulty expressing thoughts. I'm no doctor, and I have only a students grasp of anything remotely psychological or physiological, and I would suggest seeing a professional if you aren't already. Theres no cure for schizophenia, but it can certainly be treated.

Everything that has been posted is correct. I am a professional. I agree with coolleyhou if you have Schizophrenia then I assume you are being treated. Perhaps what you believe to be schizophrenia is something else.

my aunt has schizophrenia with deluisions of grandeur and she doesnt have any alter egos but ill tell ya this even with meds shes way out there we love her to pieces but reality is completely different to her and her perceptions of that reality can be quite scary so i am not sure you are talking about the same thing.....

There was a period where I was absent from VR August through October last year due to hospitalization.
I snapped and landed myself in the "nuthouse".
It's a pretty scary place. I was taken from the Military Wing and put in the Patient Intensive Care Unit because I couldn't stop screaming and it was doing a number on the other patients.
I've always heard and seen other things that other people couldn't and the doctor says it's because of the extreme abuse I suffered as a child.
They've steadily been getting louder and louder and more vivid the more stress I was put under until I couldn't handle it anymore.
There's always been more than one of me and everyone has always been able to see it. They know which personality not to mess with and which one needs help coping the most....
I've been officially diagnosed with bi-polar class 2 with "psychotic features" meaning I have extreme homicidal ideations/plans. They've also diagnosed me with split personality disorder and with PTSD from my childhood.
No big surprise there. I always told them something wasn't right. That I didn't feel right inside my head.
I don't think I'm crazy, I'm just a little bit different.
Things happened in my life that made me the way I am. I can't help that and I certainly never asked for it.
It makes me act funny and think weird thoughts.
My friends always told me I was a bit psychotic and a little too demented when angry and when I couldn't cope with a situation I would, and still do sometimes, hide inside myself. A lot of times, my friends would say that little Rai Rai would come out.
Apparently, if things get to be too much, I go inside to heal and the outer me actually believes she is 8 years old.
Like I said, though, I don't think I'm crazy. My mind just wasn't able to keep up with my body. It was forced to grow up too quickly but still stuck with the underdeveloped and misinterpreted ideas of a child so it grew up funny. That's the best way I know to explain it.
The doctor told me that because of that, my mind separated into different personalities to deal with different types of situations to save itself.
I'm on all types of medications to try to stabilize and for the most part, it's working.
But they don't get rid of the voices like the doctor said they would. And I still see things.
My other personalities still come out every once in a while, just not as often.
He said that once I'm completely stable, they should, more or less, work together if they don't meld into one, and we'll be able to see how I'm "supposed" to be.
I don't know about that.
Maybe I'm supposed to be the way I am now.
I don't think I'm crazy. Then again, I've also heard that crazy people don't necessarily think they're crazy.
Food for thought?

Schizophrenia is being diagnosed in younger and younger people. Most of those I know are Schizoaffective for some reason of late. You could have the delusion you had many personalities in your body. Most often multiple personality is now called disassociative identity disorder and it still is considered a rare disorder but like many of the disorders that are associated with perception of the brain it is becoming more common.

The otherkin community has a branch they call Nosselinfea which means House of Many Souls. There are those that believe they host in one body, more than one soul. Many of them have been diagnosed as schizophrenic but then that is relative isn't it? The souls could be of human form to elven or anything else mixed or matched. There are people who are called aspected and a multiple which can be influenced by memories of past life incarnations intruding or they are hosting others such as walkins or a combination of things. I cannot explain this well because I am not otherkin really but here is a link where you can read. I have read about this in passing awhile back. I also met someone online, who was involved with a prominent person in the vampire community who stated they were Nosselinfea so it's out there but I don't think commonly heard of by most.

http://www.astraeasweb.net/plural/cris-multiplefaq.html

There are other places that may have slightly different ideas so read in various places to get the full picture.

Thank you SteelIndigo for the link.

I would like to say that, no, I've not been diagnosed as schizophrenic and nor have I ever been to see any therapist or psychiatrist.

I don't believe myself to be crazy though I swear to the Gods, I DID at first... This didn't happen to me as a child... I was 15 years old when I had a dream of someone that I could NOT let go... So I spoke to him in my mind... Honestly, I'd thought it was a made up person that I'd created to fill a void in my life because I was very lonely at the time... It got to a point where I would cry every night because I had this immense fear that I WAS just crazy because I loved this person (Tobias was his name) so intensely...

So I told my friends about him... I'd first told a friend Cat and she thought that maybe he was real... Then I told Izzy... she said I wasn't crazy... then later she told me that she housed many souls herself... Though they didn't spend every waking second with her... they had another world they could visit and stay in...

The older I got... the more I kept thinking... there's just no way... NO way that Tobias COULDN'T be REAL. And it hurt... I never told my mother or anyone in my family... I don't really expect to either... My mother already has another child (my half brother) who HAS been diagnosed as bi-polar schizophrenic. He's been in and out of medical institutions for a while... The older he gets, the more you can tell his mind is slipping... And it scares me because I've HEARD that THAT is somewhat hereditary...

A few months ago, I had a dream of another person who's name is James...


Maybe I really AM crazy but I don't think so... I think these people truly exist somewhere and somehow in the universe...

I suppose a lot of it can boil down to personal beliefs...

But I'm NOT asking for help here... I'm asking if there's anyone else out there who has experiences somewhat like these and believes these people are REAL...


Please, if you think I'm crazy, don't be afraid to say so. It's your opinion and you have every right to that. I truly won't be offended. I can think quite clearly and I'm a very smart girl. I actually intend on going to school to be a psychologist.

The fact that you THINK your crazy rules out insanity - thats general knowledge; insane people can't differentiate between whats real and whats not, whats right and whats wrong, so when you say to yourself, "I'm crazy", you are in fact, not. You can be crazy like the devil and be VERY aware of that because its a conscious choice (we're all a little crazy in that respect), but someone who is clinically insane does not realize they're insane; that would take rational thought, and insane people are void of rational thought. But to be aware of something amiss, i.e., seeing things, hearing things, etc, that no one else can, would not neccessarily denote insanity, but a mental malady nevertheless that can be treated. Again, I would suggest seeing a professional.

Can you tell me why you suggest that?

an evaluation, may make you eligable for benifits that may offer options you have not considered in managing your episodes.

One reason for suggesting a person consider professional help.

I am just now starting to arrange appointments for treatement of depression.

What episodes? I honestly don't have these "episodes". I speak to James and Tobias all the time unless I feel the need to be alone so I send them away. They can't "take control" but if they have something they wish to say, I put it in quotations and type it for them online...

I will say again. I'm not asking for help. I'm asking to see if there are others like me that aren't afraid to speak of their experience.

I will not get help because I don't believe I need it. Though I will consider it again. But I'm not sure I'm ready to explain it to my mother... Which, is honestly, the only reason I didn't ask for help before...

I know I'm not alone... If anyone else experiences this and you don't want to say so on here... then private message me and we can speak...

When I am party to such information, I am compelled mention the options I am familiar with, you are a friend, and not being certain if this matter disturbed you, I fufilled my obligation by stating my concern, and presenting suggestions.

I have learned in the past hard lessons by not responding to friends that shared such personal information regarding their emotional, or mental concerns. My suggestions are reflex.

I thank you kindly for the suggestion, I really do. I just... I've already got it figured out for myself... It's the only reason I am so confident of speaking about this. I know my own beliefs and I'm reaching out to others...

Schizophrenia is a psychiatric disorder that displays symptoms such as auditory and visual hallucinations, delusions, and flight of ideas to name a few. What you are describing sounds like dissociative disorder, or as it was called, multiple personality disorder; however, this is a rare disorder and usually comes about as a result of extreme childhood abuse.

Schizophrenia is a chemical imbalance in the brain and requires medication to "stabilize" the chemicals. Some people even though they have tried many different medications continue to have symptoms. It can be extremely difficult for those people who are diagnosed with it, and often requires hospitalization.

There are a variety of personality disorders such as borderline, narcissitic, histrionic, dependent, and antisocial that displays various symptomatology. I work with borderline personality disorder patients and the main symptom is self-injury. However, some can have periods of brief psychotic episodes, such as hearing voices and seeing things that are not there.

I understand. I shouldn't have used schizophrenia in the title.

I was never abused as a child. I had a very easy life thank you.

I'm not asking for a definition here people. I'm asking about your personal experiences. If you don't have any, then please don't bother posting.

I would suggest messaging a dominar, and requesting an edit of your forum marque.

I personally don't consider schizophrenia necessarily means insane. There are different levels of it and types. Now the person who asked the question states she has never been diagnosed as such. If there is no harm in what is happening to her or anyone else, I see no problem really.

"Insanity, craziness or madness is a spectrum of behaviors characterized by certain abnormal mental or behavioral patterns. Insanity may manifest as violations of societal norms, including becoming a danger to themselves and others, though not all such acts are considered insanity. In modern usage insanity is most commonly encountered as an informal unscientific term denoting mental instability, or in the narrow legal context of the insanity defense. In the medical profession the term is now avoided in favor of diagnoses of specific mental illness such as schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders.[1] When discussing mental illness in general terms, "psychopathology" is considered a preferred descriptor." (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Insanity)

In my personal opinion I wonder if there could be other reasons someone is interacting with other personalities we yet do not understand. The person who started the thread is very articulate and doesn't seem to me delusional but of course I am just a lay person but I have dealt with many schizophrenics and I have a friend with DID. It is a disorder of the brain. If it was the liver no one would think anything about it other than hope they recovered. Science still doesn't understand all of this.

She is not requesting information on the signs or symptoms or different branches of schizophrenia.
She is showing a relation to delusional schizophrenia or split personality disorder. She is inquiring along the lines of "are people who have voices in their heads and see other things, are they seeing something their mind created or a spiritual deity?"
Even then, without that question. Having any other being besides your self is considered you have a problem. I personally know I personally know 9 people, myself included, who have these beings inside their heads and they are quite sane.
When most people are young they have an immaginary friend to play with. This friend keeps the child company and gives them advice. Also, if you are akind to certain religions, everyone has a guardian angel. Think of what she is asking about as a diety like a guardian angel and an immaginary friend combined. A spiritual advisor, be them friend or enemy to the body they inhabit, to accompany the person in life.
I have had these "egos" since I was about 5. I remember seeing my guardian angel's wings and being alarmed in the sight. I was also alarmed his wings were a dark grey/black rather than the pearl white that is portrayed in so many paintings... I remember seeing and hearing people in my room... horrible creatures... and they left physical marks on me, bite marks, scratches, large injuries I could not make myself... and what better candidate for a spiritual experience than a small child? Or even a thirteen year old child who had just moved to a new home that reeks of foul spiritual activity...
The beings we scorn and mock people for, lock away in chambers, may be spirits reaching out to us. They could be past lives, future lives even. Dead relatives, friends. They could truly be anything at all.
Since then I have acquired near 50 of these beings. I can speak with the earth and her glorious creatures. I can read the clouds and the trees, and I can see other realities beyond the skies. I can do all this because of my egos. I'm very aware that I am not insane, nor am I anywhere near insanity. People would assume I was because I am a normal person. If homeless man hears god speak to him he is insane. If a pastor hears god speak to him he is a hero, an inspiration. Therefore, if I see something I am delusional. If a medium sees something they are a true medium and not a crock.
Another way to think of the egos is as the muses of the arts and sciences. There to inspire and assist you in your intellectual endeavors.
I could ramble on and on about this, to be honest. If you would want more information please contact me.

The maker of this thread has requested that it be closed so that she can replace the word *Schizophrenia* with more appropriate wording to open a new thread in regards to the subject.