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I also did painting not seen on here. It was one for office lady live down street. It was secret painting. I did it for her old time sake. that is her husband parkinson's disease and he pass away. I did to cheer her up. I feel bad for her. A uncle had it too. I never meet. My family is dysfunctional in that away when relative

Something strange is going on. No signs of William. He is usually here. He is usually in break room. I find it odd. He is usually going on about my cherry slushy. Either because after I drink it stains my teeth. It makes look like I drink blood or about my painting. Which is pretty strange. He barely take a day off. His day is Wednesday is off. I wonder if he sick. I loss many coworkers to covid and I was only one left during covid thing. I then looked at my pto and took bunch day off out of fear getting it. I could see stuff happening and none good. Each day another coworker gone every day during covid and they had mask.

Halloween is drawing near. People dress up and go party right. Normally I am quick to decide on it. I remember one year i was Lizzie borden. It was all in in good fun. But this year it is different. My mom all about me being wednesday adam. I just don't see myself as wednesday. My sister i had would made better wednesday. But me no. I honestly don't see it. Even my personality is opposite of wednesday. I just have hard time seeing it. I thought of Medusa, poison ivy or queen of forest. If they ever get ophelia flump costume maybe I'll be that would be more thing. Yes I could put it on. It just not my go costume. Or if you have other suggestions feel free too?

I know some of you like my art which amazing me and shock me some. Like vincent van gogh. I do health problems such hypoglycemia that or low blood sugar. I have eat sugar or have food that up sugar because my body will shut down. Yes I could it could get serious . But yeah one issue with me. Yes I realize most people tell me I look young to have serious condition like that. My mom has it to so it in are genes. There is no cure for it. I also have high blood pressure. So I thought tell you that. So I have to be careful.

I am surprised how many comments I have got with 10 rating. Mostly because when I was younger most people never saw me. I was most invisible or seem like it. Or bully most of time. I had low expectations on rating system. Maybe 3 or 4. Wow you all surprised me. When I was elementary school I was student finished stuff and would draw on blank paper. I would get bored. I did have disabilities when it came to number was something I wasn't fond of. My math skill were bad. I knew how paint with color or blending but when it came to number I was terrible at it. I love to paint. When I finally got to do year later it was like putting magic wand or something in when it comes paint bushes. I use different sizes for each painting. I would give credit a artist I watch year ago bob ross. He was just amazing to watch.

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whowho
16:45 Sep 29 2025

Ah Bob Ross! May he rest in peace! I used to love watching him years ago - ages ago! I found out much, much later on that he had already passed away around the time I was watching his 'Joy of Painting' episodes. That was a real good person. He IS sorely missed. :(

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I am horrible at figuring men out. It not that i don't like them. One time I thought was interested in me. But I was wrong. For example I thought wow he interested in me we like do the same thing such as painting and then one day he ghost me. I don't know what I did to get cold shoulder. Maybe it was my age that turn him off . Well since then I keep people arm length from me. I be friend but that is.

I am painting again. I am covered in paint yes but I am happy. I will show you results later.

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Cadrewolf2
03:52 Sep 28 2025

Good

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Well were i work it always interesting. My coworker are always interested. We can't keep big boss because it is like trap door and then they are gone. I don't like big manager because they are like high school in school with group . And of course pick on on who are not on level with them. For example there red head one i know she hate me. Because I can't do everything she want me do like pro wrestler. Maybe that's why we can't keep anyone. I did have people on my side say look at me. I don't have muscle. If she worried about me not doing stuff she should do some work herself if it is so easy. I mean try friend with people but she so fake about it. I can tell she doesn't like them. I mean she up lie to my face about team lead say stuff. Then we have william he is such great coworker. He has adhd or something. He is so hyper. He call me Mrs . Van gogh. Oh my god . I am not sure it complement or good thing because vincent had problems. I do love to paint on canvas . Not gonna lie. I guess take it. William seen some painting. Can I married someone dead and bury. Well it is something funny to think about. Even though they he off himself. It would be interesting conversation with theo van gogh if we did. Oh this girl married to who was born in 80s . He be a lot older older then me. I couldn't find anyone here. It is like needle hay stack.

Well were i work it always interesting. My coworker are always interested. We can't keep big boss because it is like trap door and then they are gone. I don't like big manager because they are like high school in school with group . And of course pick on on who are not on level with them. For example there red head one i know she hate me. Because I can't do everything she want me do like pro wrestler. Maybe that's why we can't keep anyone. I did have people on my side say look at me. I don't have muscle. If she worried about me not doing stuff she should do some work herself if it is so easy. I mean try friend with people but she so fake about it. I can tell she doesn't like them. I mean she up lie to my face about team lead say stuff. Then we have william he is such great coworker. He has adhd or something. He is so hyper. He call me Mrs . Van gogh. Oh my god . I am not sure it complement or good thing because vincent had problems. I do love to paint on canvas . Not gonna lie. I guess take it. William seen some painting. Can I married someone dead and bury. Well it is something funny to think about. Even though they he off himself.

Did you know that cypress the name. It is reference to vincent van gogh painting. He inspired me as well bob ross. I learn so much from bob ross show. It was also very relaxing to watch him. Because sometimes ner during the day got me.

I was ask one time about children and dating. I gave her typical silly response unless he look like tom hiddleston and that British accent. I am not interested. We laughed again men can be childish at time and difficult to deal with. I enjoy being single. At one point when I was living with my grandmother I was adult and I was married to her or she was child because I was always telling no to cigarettes and no alcohol. Because she had problems. I have no desire to take care someone else. That was it for me. But of course I didn't say to my cousin I didn't want to upset her or bring up past issues.

I been thinking about my past relationship. When I was younger I had this guy . I thought he was my friend . Well we went to be more then friends. But I was young at time and so I was. I start to break it off with him because I didn't like the way he kiss. It was so bad I thought of reason not to kiss him. Of course a guy not taking hint of of no. He started to stalk me in school. Yes he went same school as me. He was younger then me. So when I graduated it was relief to get away. Of course he knew where I live and stuff. So when my grandmother pass away I was living grandmother I disappear because the house was to sold. He truly couldn't find me. He was just weird. I don't date much because of it. I prefer friendship over relationships mainly because it is so much easier then relationship in general.

I was thinking of the past. In theory i did something similar to vincent van gogh once. I took sisissor to my hair. At least it wasn't ear. He gave his ear to lady of night. I cur my hair because I was having mental breakdown and because my grandmother wants to control how my hair look. She want to do perm but I never like how my hair look with result of it. I hate the burning sensation that came with the tight curls came with it. But because of what did with my hair. My hair was uneven and would look weird the hair salon could not do anything with because one side look long and one short. Do I regret doing? The answer is no. Because I desire control over my head. My aunt had control over what I worn feet which was Ked white shoes I got dirty ever time i had it on. Now I am happy with my hair and can do what I want. I stay away from perms.

I think sometimes my brother wife is a psycho. Sometimes she is like character in afred hitchcock hours at times. My mom never know what she is going get when she goes over to house. Sometimes stuff happens and can't go over there because my step father has doctor appointment. She want my mom over there to watch her son. I am thinking this maybe she should just give him her son. I mean she not paying my mom. My cousin ask me do go over there. I am like no. I mean she not giving more money or walk in closet. It not how world work for me. I go work collect paycheck. If she want over their paycheck. I mean it would save on gas.

I couldn't really answer it on trick or treating thing. I am too old. Well handing out candy is no because we don't children on my street. And what i am planning to do on halloween. I am going to do another painting. As for dressing up we do stuff before halloween. When I completed that painting I might watch a movies and go bed.

You all probably wonder why I wrote why I wrote poem called the stary stary night Goodbye. I read about vincent van gogh history. It is not pleasant history. I thought i would take what he was know for painting wise and put it in poem. It was song with piano . I just didn't think i have right voice for it. My voice being soft not high. I thought need more musical instruments. I just don't know what kind.

I might do poem later. I should say it is a song I wrote. I know I don't fit the mold on being vampire or such thing on here or something.
I mean some vampire rave profile. I am blown away by some graphics and the music. Sometimes I seat there on vampire profiles and listen to some music is soothing to nerve. I do watch movies about vampire and goth. I know some expect dark clothes and dark painting. I like being different then most. I hope my different doesn't bother you all too much. I like who I am. I just like doing stuff different i can show you why I paint bright colors and stuff it reflects the darkness from light. Without bright colors you not see darkness.

You all probably wonder why I paint so many pictures i put up profile. In my younger day I was told no. You can't do do that. I was told so many time by my grandmother I thought lies on how to still do it. I told no I can 't join band in school. I finally told her when they had art club in my school. That it was requirement for me graduation because I want to do so bad. I wasn't doing anything bad. She want me to stay in house so much she had alcohol problem. She let me go. Yeah she pass away and I was able let loss with my painting and stuff I enjoy doing finally.

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Cadrewolf2
22:41 Sep 22 2025

They look Great, keep painting

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