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If you have read my Profile then you know about the writing of loving someone. I'm not in Korea anymore, now I'm in Texas. I'm waiting on surgery and I met someone here that I care about deeply, but she has her own problems. I have been there for her through things that most can't imagine including suicide. Tonight I was hurt by her more than I could have ever been and this is how it went. and if you think it's stupid then you can fuck off. I really really care about her more than she knows, and she knows that I like her. But we don't date or anything. we went out to a club tonight and she had promised me that we would have a good night and drama free. then she lets 2 guys grope all over her right in front of me and is sitting there telling me how she want to take one of them home. Now put yourself in my situation, you like someone really really bad and they know it but are still telling you about taking someone home and fucking them. Well not only did she take him home, But I had to drive them back together. Fully knowing what was going to happen. What kind of a person is that? why do I do these things to myself. What is it that I ever did to anybody to deserve this kind of treatment? If you know that someone likes you, Don't hurt them by flaunting someone else in there face. It's cruel. But I guess that's what I deserve for being an idiot. Lesson learned and a friend lost. I guess that's life's little ways of letting you know that shit happens.