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Some one I was once family with, I guess we where still family in a way. Killed herself the other day. I just found this morning. She shoot herself once and just hit a small part of her head and then shoot herself again. That one did the job. She left behind a 5 year old girl. All this over a guy. Oh stupid.



Now I'm wondering if should feel bad for not caring. Or for thinking that she was stupid for doing. I guess I'm a hypocrite. I think about that shit almost ever day. I know I would never do it. But still.....I don't feel bad for what I think. How stupid and selfish of her. I did not know her that well. I do feel bad for her little girl.

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Sinora
10:53 May 30 2008

Your feelings are yours. Nobody can tell you how you should feel about anything.

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vampfan2009
21:49 Jan 15 2009

survivors guilt is one of the hardest to beat, it's part of the grieving process. Even if it doesn't help, remember that those confused feelings are completely natural.

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I failed the acolyte test AGAIN! I hate tests. :( Oh well I guess I will just have to keep trying.

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Tinnu
04:17 May 26 2008

Keep working at it, I'm sure you'll pass it soon!

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My post score went from 577 to 540 in an hour. And I had less than 30 posts to go to hit a new level. Oh well. I'm a bit bummed about that. I understand that posts scores go up and down all the time but I have been sitting at 571 for the last 4 month or so. And all of a sudden a big change. Blah.



I am enjoying the new forum boards in the Covens/ Houses though. I have been waiting for that to happen for while now. Yippy!



I posted a poll on the new forum boards today. It was approved so go check it out if you read this. :)

Today I re-added Radu to my friends list. And he added me too. :)

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Oceanne
04:23 May 18 2008

oh gawd not radu!!!!!!!!!!



jk

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BloodySophie
10:32 May 22 2008

cool. =)

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How pathetic. One can't even express them selfs within their own journal with out having people be judgmental. How very sad. Oh well leave all the stupid, nasty comments you like. Enjoy trying to make me feel bad for my own thoughts.

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xxNIGHTMARExx
03:43 May 22 2008

I Agree With You My Love

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I used to be a great writer. At least that is what I was told. Yet I have not written anything for over 6 years. That's one hell of a writers block. I used to write about love, hating love, wanting love. Now that I have love I have I nothing to write about?



Writing used to be my life. I needed it. And Now I feel.....Hell I don't know. Perhaps lifeless is the word I'm looking for. But every time I try to write nothing comes out. Is it fear that stops me?

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Angelus
15:08 May 06 2008

fear of what? failure? success? or, what .. ?

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just, express yourself.

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