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I’ve been staring at people’s profiles here for a while, wanting to message someone, but every time I think about it, I freeze. My thoughts take over and tell me I’ll just be ignored, or that no one will want to talk to me anyway. I keep replaying those voices in my head and they get so loud that I give up before I even try.

Typing a journal feels easier. At least here, I can put the words down without the fear of someone instantly judging me or pushing me away. Maybe someone will read this and maybe no one will, but at least it exists. At least I exist, even if it’s just in these words.

The truth is, I’m very shy. I don’t know how to talk to people. I don’t know how to start a conversation without feeling like I’m bothering them. And because of that, I stay quiet. I stay invisible. And the more I do, the lonelier I get. It’s like a circle I can’t escape from.

I don’t really know why I exist at all. I don’t know what my purpose is, or if I even have one. Most of the time, it feels like I was put here just to be empty and forgotten. But a small part of me still wants to believe I could matter to someone, even just a little.

So, this is me. Hiding in a journal instead of reaching out directly, because I don’t know how. Maybe one day I’ll find the courage. Until then, this is all I have.

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Cadrewolf2
21:23 Aug 17 2025

Try is all I can say, friends are here.

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immortalxkiss
22:50 Aug 17 2025

I get this, as I'm horribly shy as well. It's never easy to just start conversations with strangers. However, the beauty of the internet is that it's far easier to strike up a conversation here than it would be in real life. Find people who have similar interests as you and reach out. If they ignore you, it's okay, just move on. Someone will respond. It does take a certain amount of courage to send that first message, but I promise you, it's worth it.

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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
01:04 Aug 18 2025

Anyone that would just ignore a simple message and be unkind to you for saying hello, isn't worth your time in the first place. You don't want to socialize with cruel people so if you reach out and that happens, look at it more as, you dodged a bullet. There are friendly people that are here to just make a friend... not everyone of course but they do exist. I agree with immortalxkiss, find someone that seems to have similar interests or just someone that to you seems someone you might want to get to know and say hello. :)

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Neowise2020
04:41 Aug 18 2025

Well I doubt you were staring at mine not appearing on my last 10 even after we exchanged private messages and I rated you. As I said privately it takes me a while to trust people on the internet.

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FallenRose
20:03 Aug 20 2025

Most of us are friendly here. And the ones who are jerks (there are some) screw them. But I'm here to say hello and welcome to VR 😺😊

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I don’t know why I’m writing this. Maybe because it’s easier to spill words into emptiness than it is to speak them out loud. Nobody’s listening anyway. Nobody ever does.

Every day feels the same. I wake up, exist, go through motions, and fall back into bed wondering if anything I did mattered. I don’t really have friends… not the kind who check in, not the kind who care if I vanish. It’s strange how you can feel more like a shadow than a person, like you’re here but not really here.

Sometimes I wonder if anyone would notice if I just disappeared. Maybe a few days later, maybe longer… maybe never. That thought scares me, and yet… it feels like the truth.

I try to tell myself I’m strong, that I don’t need anyone, but the silence eats at me. Nights are the worst. The world is quiet, and all I hear are my own thoughts asking why I’m even alive. And I don’t have an answer.

If you’ve read this far… thank you. You’re proof that, at least for a moment, I wasn’t completely invisible. Maybe that means something. Maybe it doesn’t. I don’t know anymore.