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Sitting in a room

No windows or doors

Painting the walls red

As i fall to the floor



I drift to a place

With unmarked graves

Searching and hoping

That i will see your name



You are dead to me

Have been for a while

Your heart bled for me

But that, too, was a lie



I smile at your memory

For you will never change

Your destiny in life

Is to cause nothing but pain



You made me stronger

And now i can fight

I am not scared now

No more running to hide



Thank you for the pain

Thank you for the lies

Thank you for everything

You have bettered my life.



I don't need you anymore

For my soul has gotten dark

I'll wait here in the shadows

Waiting for your heart to stop



Don't beg me for mercy,

For I will show you none.

With your blood flowing

I drink you and I'm done.



©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), July 11, 2008

I look across the velvet sky

And feel your soul so near

I hear the words "I love you"

Floating in the air...



I watch the desert skyline

In hopes of signs of life

When I need you most

I'll see you standing there



Forever lost, with out you

My soul is calling out

I feel your arms around me

It melts away my doubt.



I am your's forever

You're mine as well.

We live forever, day by day,

With our love we aren't alone.





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), May 01,2008

Lost in the shadow

Of your unmarked grave

I lay here bleeding to death

Waiting for your touch to comfort me...



I see your soul before me

Telling me its not my time

My blood is all around me

Why are you so blind?



A stranger takes my hand

Leading me away

I know it will be okay

I'll die another day.....





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), April 24, 2008

Souls, dancing on the moonlight

Love, playing by the firelight

Breath, falling off of summer's breeze

Sweat pouring from the pleasure of our sins



A shared laugh, in the dark of night

A knowing glance, flowing to a lover's eyes

A hungry touch, gracing both our skin

A deep love and passion, rooted in our hearts



A sudden sound

And the dream ends

The tears flow

Just a memory



He's gone now

His spot is cold

Her heart is dead now

For her soul's alone.





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), April 15, 2008

There's a hole in my heart

Where you are meant to be

That space is empty now

For you are away from me



You are the heart and soul of me

Your quiet touch lingers

The sweat of your skin

Leaves dew drops on my memory



Half of me is missing

A huge void in my soul

My side is bleeding

From what was taken away



I sit in this quiet prison

Looking at the moon

Your voice on the wind

Telling me its time to come home.



I'm fearful without you

Your memory keeps me sane

I'm never truly without you

As long as I can remember your name



©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), March 15,2008

The warm breath of you

The lingering touch from you

The quiet smile from you

The hidden blush of you

The slow dance of us

The secret pleasures from our love

The cherished memories with you

The beautiful gift from me

The beating heart from my chest

The quiet confession of love

The breath of fresh air

The sigh of relief

The shared moonlight

The dreaded good-bye

Then dawn comes

And we both turn to dust

Our love dances on the wind

We are but a fleeting memory

In the eyes of man





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), April 15, 2008

Trapped in my day-to-day

My thoughts never yielding,

I can't find solace in anything

I lack my sanity,

My words my only friend

Even they aren't kind.

Living hour by hour,

Nothing is guaranteed.

His smile sustains me...

Liquid gold on my lips

Thoughts fly out my finger tips

My brains all foggy...

Miss my Care Bear like crazy...

Can't wait to be back in the 803

Don't know when that will be...

Finding a job in MI

Is as easy as winning the lottery...

"When you're gone...

My heart is missing you

When your gone,

The face I came to know

Is missing, too..."

Keeps playing in my head...

Sometimes I feel so dead...

Fear full of loathing

Heart full of dread....

tap tap tap

and my thoughts are dead...





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), January, 24 2008

I can remember

The contours of your body

But not the shape of your face.

I can remember

The touch of your fingers

But not the heat of your hands.

I can remember

The Smile on your lips

But not the sound of your laugh

I can remember

The feeling of your whispers

But not the words that were said

I stumble around

Searching for what's missing

The part of my soul

That was ripped away

Why won't the wound heal?

Why won't the pain disappear?

Why do I still need you?

The memories hurt so much

I just want to forget

But part of me is gone

The hole will never go away

The part of you that I remember

Is what haunts me the most

But despite the pain that you have caused

I forgive you, still





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), July 2007 (Exact Date Is Unknown)

I'm lost inside

Can't find my way out of the maze

He was waiting, at the finish line

Now, he's another demon



He makes things worse

In trying to make them better

He smiles in desperation

Hoping I'll reach for his hand



I need more friends than lover

Open minds, hearts, sins

To reconnect to my past lives

To know that I'm okay



I scream in frustration

No one hears it, but me

Drowning in the light

Wanting someone to save me

(not sure who)



Pick a number

Wait in line

My insanity is my only attraction

(that's just my insecurity talking)



I only want myself

Smiling...

Is that my true desire?

Maybe you'll know



A wrong turn, now

Another obstacle to overcome

A whispered laugh, now

Is somebody watching me?



Fall flat on my face

Fail, with another wrong turn

Closer to the center

Instead of the finish line



Come find me in your hidden nightmares

Drown me in the shadows of your life

Wipe my blood-stained tears away

And lick my blood from your fingertips



I see the finish line

A figure stands in the darkness

Calling out my name...

Can you tell me who he is?





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), June, 2006 (Exact Date Is Unknown)

I'm over you

I'm over the sight of you

The touch of you

The breath of you



I'm over the pain of you

The tortured spirit of you

The hurt inside of you, I cannot fix



I'm over the drug abuse

The fact I can't save you

The fear for your life



I'm over your love for me

You took so long to admit



I'm over the fake you

The real you

The somewhere in between



I'm over the Italian side

The hateful side

And the hidden sweet side



I'm over your love of God

Your loyalty to sin

And your desperation for forgiveness



I'm over your chef side

Your creative side

Your lazy side



I'm over your love for The Misfits

Your love for 'Halloween"

And "She"



I'm over your eyes

The smile of you

The quiet laugh from you

I'm over the heart and soul of you

And I am not afraid to love again





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), 2005 (Exact Date Is Unknown)

Gear God, my death amuses me

Why should I care when

Your touch abuses me

Death is a much nicer friend

Can you ask him to come out and play?

I rather have him, then be your friend for a day

Dear God, Death took my pain away

Do you exist? I'll find out in an our or so

Dear God, the poison is in my veins, now

(oh wait, that's you)

You and death gave up on me today

Its not funny how you play

You left me standing here again today

Alone in my solitude

I'll have to find another friend to play





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), June 24, 2004

In a world where your fate is somewhat twisted

Doing what you're told

And what they've insisted

Life without unblinking eyes and cookie cutouts

What, in this life, is worth living for?

What do people really care for?

Life without meaning, or progress, or sound

No real life to actually be found

No music, no love, all deaf-toned ears

Emotionless hugs, and meaningless kiss

Children being born

Not knowing what love is

All crime's screams

Are fully ignored

Blood on the sidewalk

Just stepped over

Fighting for your own gain

Instead of the greater good

Individuality is lost, as conformity takes over

The world is a stage

No one's putting on a show

Walking through the meaningless day-to-day,

I am your break from reality

I am your acid trip

I am your dirty little secret

And I am here to stay





©Andrea Edwards (GothicRavenGoddess), June 24, 2004