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when you read vampire fiction and watch vamp fiction on TV one of the traits that stands out to me is most of them have very little self-control. hmmmm... got that part covered... I need a little of Edward & Carlisle Cullen's superhuman self-control.



One of these days I'll be a big girl and I'll be able to walk away when I should instead of always going for instant gratification.

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PandorasBx
03:38 Nov 30 2009

*smiles*, sounds like me...

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So it’s been an OK day. A little melancholy in some parts, but that might be because I went to see “New Moon”. However, I’ve managed to tie on my buzz and am now sitting in a food and beverage super watching Dogs 101… all by myself and all good with it. Happy Turkey Day one and all!

Yesterday I was the recipient of a random act of kindness. A gesture that was completely unexpected and unsolicited that just rocked my socks. It also reminded me the importance of paying it forward and doing unto others as you would have them do unto you.



So today I'm gonna go pay it forward and do something nice for someone who is not expecting it.

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PandorasBx
05:24 Nov 26 2009

When you do something nice for another and it makes them happy it really feels like you yourself was the recipient, good feelings all around, can't go wrong with that now can you *smiles*.

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I hate losing friends, I hate when I expect more from a friend than they are willing to give, I hate when I'm the one who cares the most. It just breaks my heart when I realize that it's a one way street.

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IcyRayne
20:04 Nov 23 2009

I hate losing friends as well,lost 3 of them in a matter of oh 5 months but regardless I had the time of my life,always remember that..not the hate or anger...cause frankly its childish and patheic and signs of whoever trying to up themselves when in reality they are the ones who are the losers.

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IcyRayne
20:05 Nov 23 2009

oh and Touche'

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Inspiration is a slippery substance slipping through my fingers yet refusing to leave me alone. So I check out, I check out of life and reality and hunker down in solitude. I allow my soul to die a pathetic death and cannot move to save it. I move through each day because I must and bide my time until I can just go away.

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IcyRayne
20:01 Nov 23 2009

You say the words I feel,very insightful

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Finally after MONTHS of waiting and waiting the VA has managed to get their shit together and set my GI Bill benefits to rolling!

A woman in North Carolina was charged with human trafficking, child prostitution, child pornography, child endangerment and a few other charges. She reported her five year old daughter missing on Tuesday after she had sold her daughter to some pervert on Monday. They found the child's remains today.



What kind of awful mother does that! I wish so much pain and evil on that woman that I can't even see straight through my rage.

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Morrigon
17:40 Nov 16 2009

Evil.

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IcyRayne
04:18 Nov 20 2009

Kinda like the 14 yr old here who had 25 felony charges from the time he was 12,robbed a mobile home in a 55+ community,as the police were looking for him he was blocks down robbing and stabbing a 55 yr old wheel chair bound man who had been homeless for 25 yrs,it was his first home,he stabbed him with a large knife 30 times,amazingly the gentlemen lived but the and I say this firmly 14 yr old deserves the same fate,sorry but it would seem my county has a weird sense of justice.Humans are evil and will do without conscience.Do you blame him,or his mother and father?,or do we blame society who go after the people who don't deserve but let the people who do free?

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PandorasBx
05:26 Nov 26 2009

Yeah, we have a thread about that in my Coven Forum, I hope to God that she gets whats coming to her along with the guy that killed her as she is just as guilty.

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Lolita
23:12 Nov 26 2009

She isn't a Mother, she is a monster. How extremely sad. I hope her child has found some type of quiet rest.

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So a stray dog showed up at our front door... so now we have a dog. My son insists that he'll take of her. We'll see.

"Smitten with Mittens" "Glove you so Much" just a couple of the OPI polish names...



Who comes up with this stuff?

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PandorasBx
05:26 Nov 26 2009

Someone that gets paid too much money.

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Lord, lord, lord... You know those girls who just have to have all the men be totally into them? Well I work with one of those, and she's a total hoot, but she found out I was gay and now has added me to her list of people she must get to like her... It's funny, but kind of annoying too.



I don't know... some people really just need therapy. What did she not get as a child that makes her obsessed with wanting anyone interested in woman to "want" her too?

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Morrigon
04:06 Nov 10 2009

Hellooooo....

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IcyRayne
06:39 Nov 11 2009

Your hot

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So I was cruising craigslist to find another cat as a companion for Capella, since she was quite lonely when we moved. I saw an ad were a woman was advertising a litter of kittens she had rescued. It caught my eye because there was a picture of a grey one that looked just like a kitten we used to have named Hiku. So I take Patrick to go check out the kittens and here's the story behind them.



The woman's teenage daughter had been telling her mom for two days that she could hear meowing in the dumpster. At first she brushed it off figuring somebodies cat was probably getting in the garbage. On the third day, which was the day before the trash would be picked up, the daughter insisted her Mom help her check it out. They couldn't see a cat and realized that if there were a cat it must be trapped in the trash somewhere. So they climbed into the dumpster and dug down toward they sound. What the found was a box taped up with a young female cat and her litter inside.



Some ASSHOLE had put the cat and it's kittens in a box, taped it up so they couldn't get out and thrown it in the trash! There were six kittens in all, one was already dead and two more died that night. The other three lived and they nursed them and the momma back to life.



The kitten that looked like Hiku was not very friendly but her sisters, two grey and black tiger striped tabbies, were adorable and super friendly. The looked exactly alike and I just couldn't bring myself to separate them so I took them both home.



Patrick and I have named them Comet and Blitzen. Comet is very cuddly but has runny eyes do to allergies, Blitzen is on crack and runs around like she's possessed until she finds a warm body to curl up with and go to sleep. Cappella seems to enjoy mothering and playing with them for the most part, although every once in awhile she hides in my room for some quite time.



They both have no problem using the litter box and though tiny, seem healthy and I'm sure will be big fat cats, just like Capella, in no time.

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birra
17:31 Nov 07 2009

I'm no fan of cats, but... people suck.



Glad they were able to rescue the four they did and now two have a good home. :)

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We all say we'd die for the ones we love... I'm sure many of us would, but it's such an abstract line that we may or may not have to cross. I find myself wondering about other moral compromises. What WOULDN'T I do for the ones I love? Where do I really draw that line?

Me: I don't like you and your writing sucks!



Myself: Now, now that wasn't very nice.



I: I don't care if you don't like me and my writing is just fine.

Having set a ball in motion it is terrifying and liberating to find out where it goes, especially since I can push it along as far as I want.



Where it stops... only I knows.

I'm cold, so freaking cold! Just moved... again and the stupid freakin' gas man hasn't been here to turn on the heat yet. :-(

I'm slowly but surely coming back to life. I sit here and stare at my medication. The one that is supposed to make me happy and nice. The one that works wonders, but kills all that is creative inside... I want both. I want to be content and in control of my emotions... and I want to retain my creativity and passion.



I've forgotten to take my medication for three days now and I feel the darkness creeping in and the emotions boiling up, I also feel creativity and inspiration awakening within me and I know I'm waking up and coming back to life. But me alive... not necessarily a good thing. Me asleep... don't know if I can stand not knowing me any longer.

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IcyRayne
06:41 Nov 11 2009

regardless,I feel the same way..just need the medication cause I do believe I have went purely insane.

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