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I have been afk....or more specifically, afr. Though, still, mostly afk. Still a balance thing to take tend to. Course, I have also had things to work on here, and my pc was down about a day and a half. My photoshop was fucked and I was working on it all night one night.



Going to mom's this weekend. Getting ready to walk out the door now. Big ass storms in the state have been pummeling us today. Knocked out the power and shut down my pc. Mom has internet now, so I will stop in here and check messages this weekend.



♥

It's survival of the cutest, in one of these. Think about it and it sure makes sense. Funny that we do that.



This shows a host of end of the world scenarios.



http://www.exitmundi.nl/exitmundi.htm

Do You Give Off A Sexy Vibe?



Subtle Seductress



You know that sexiness is all about being secure in your own skin -- whether it's covered in a full-length coat or only massage oil. Sure, you enjoy wearing enticing outfits and indulging your sensual side when you want to, but you know you don't need to flaunt your body to get noticed. Why? Because there's so much more to you than meets the eye -- and you expect men to grasp that fact just as well as you do. Besides exuding friendliness and a dash of leave-it-to-the-imagination mystery in your dress, gestures and flirty grins, your autonomous allure is a turn-on, too. "You adore attracting the attention of men but don't feel life comes to a screeching halt without them -- the satisfaction you receive from your family, friends, career and hobbies is just as important," explains Hallie Potocki, author of What Do Men Want? "It's that engaging sense of self-worth and independence that makes you all the more desirable."

Daily Hindu Wisdom:



Of all duties, benevolence is unequaled in this world,

And even in celestial realms.



He who understands his duty to society truly lives.

All others shall be counted among the dead.



-Tirukkural 22: 213-214

"In a few Latin America and Middle-East nations, such as Venezuela and Saudi Arabia, oil is produced by a government-owned company and local gasoline prices are kept low as a benefit to the nation's citizens, he said. All prices updated March, 2005."



Nation | City | Price in USD Regular/Gallon



Netherlands |Amsterdam | $6.48

Norway | Oslo | $6.27

Italy | Milan | $5.96

Denmark | Copenhagen | $5.93

Belgium | Brussels | $5.91

Sweden | Stockholm | $5.80

United Kingdom | London | $5.79

Germany | Frankfurt | $5.57

France | Paris | $5.54

Portugal | Lisbon | $5.35

Hungary | Budapest | $4.94

Luxembourg | $4.82

Croatia | Zagreb | $4.81

Ireland | Dublin | $4.78

Switzerland | Geneva | $4.74

Spain | Madrid | $4.55

Japan | Tokyo | $4.24

Czech Republic | Prague | $4.19

Romania | Bucharest $4.09

Andorra | $4.08

Estonia | Tallinn | $3.62

Bulgaria | Sofia | $3.52

Brazil | Brasilia | $3.12

Cuba | Havana | $3.03

Taiwan | Taipei | $2.84

Lebanon | Beirut | $2.63

South Africa | Johannesburg | $2.62

Nicaragua | Managua | $2.61

Panama | Panama City | $2.19

Russia | Moscow | $2.10

Puerto Rico | San Juan | $1.74

Saudi Arabia | Riyadh | $0.91

Kuwait | Kuwait City | $0.78

Egypt | Cairo | $0.65

Nigeria | Lagos | $0.38

Venezuela | Caracas | $0.12

Someone sent this to me. I thought about writing George Anderson. He has tons of books about the other side, and people passing. This is about our animal friends passing.



I heard once that the way one treats an animal is indicative of what's in one's soul/heart.







"In thousands of sessions that George Anderson has done, the souls have spoken about pets as the "eyes of God" on the earth. So important are these animals to the Infinite Light, that they are prized as the closest thing to heaven on the earth. Our pets love without condition, see without judgment, and care without expectation. There are so many stories of how pets bring joy to our lives, and their passing is every bit as important as their human counterparts. These are some of the stories from our visitors whose lives were touched and changed forever by the love of a precious pet. If you would like to contribute a story about the life, love, and passing of your pet, please send it to us at stories@georgeanderson.com. Be sure to put in the subject line "eyes of god." "

I spied in Daire's journal about how he may have to pull out of Burning Man. That reminded me of how I looked into it, a mere day ago, to see what the chances were, that I could go. That quickly plummeted to a big 0, none, zeelch, when I read the prices for tickets. $250 each to get in. Jeez....what a load of shit. $250 to get in the door, to hang out in the blazing heat, in the middle of nowhere for a week? *sigh* I was thinking, "Eh, what could it be? $10? $20 bucks to get in....walk around a bit....go to a hotel.". Haha....



Will be putting that money instead for the Colorado trip in June, for Danny to go to Slayer and then to the Mesa buildings around Manitou and Colorado Springs. I can't wait to go exploring there and ghost hunting. Plus, I may meet Renshai....and spookyrat. Both know some ghost people that can hook me up....but I may not be able to do that this trip. I am not the only one making plans and it is a short weekend jaunt. Hell, gas here is $2.72 and up here now, a gallon! That is insane.

This past weekend was pretty full. Friday night we went to OKC to see my brother. He actually lives in Norman. We all went over to his friend's house. The guy's name was Shunu. I kept wanting to call him Shununu. :P He complimented me on my outfit. I thought, "Very impressive!". I am always impressed when a guy notices an outfit. One that can really appreciate it.



He was a fellow photographer and wrote poetry, which he would recite at a local bar. I am told that he has it recorded and it is very professional. I saw some of his photos and they resembled what I take, mainly of people. I wanted to show him my photos from my portfolio here, but he didn't have online service. Shunu was very sweet.



We walked around the square area, right by his apartment. He lives in the Paseo Art District. How cool is that? I hadn't met anyone in a long time in outer world. I had to sort of break out of my little circle. Snap out of it, so to speak.



My brother was short on cash from being shorted on his check, he said, saying he only had $100 for the next two weeks. We sat in silence a moment, and then I said, "Hey there is a Wal-Mart. We should go by there on the way back.". This was on the way to Shunu's pad. Danny said something like, "Ok", and I asked if he knew why, and he said yes. We are on the same page a lot. He knew I wanted to get my brother some groceries. And so we did.



Saturday, we decided to go to that old abandoned church that I had found a few months ago, while crusing around the country one night. Danny was so mad at me for going out alone.



So we grab our cameras and go out to the old church. It had a cemetery across the street from it, but I was more interested in the old building. I love old buildings. It wasn't dark yet, so we had a chance to scope out the place, make sure the structure was sound enough to go inside. It was made of brick, but the roof didn't look so great. Holes....etc...



The floor on the inside was cement, so no problem there. In one of the rooms, was a loud buzzing sound, and we found that it was full of bumble bees!! So we stayed away from there! Occasionally birds would swoop in through the broken windows and fly through. They even had a nest in there, along the basement stairs.



We took lots of pictures while waiting on night to fall. I wanted total darkness and a later hour for the ghosts to come out. We did capture lots of orbs though, and big ones, at that! Something was there, definitely. We sat on the outside steps while waiting on the later hour. It was quiet out there, except for the buzzing of bumble bees and birds swooping by us, various other creatures of the wild. I took some pics of Danny from afar on the steps and got an orb right by his head. It moved too, slowly in the pics I took. Way cool.



Danny ran out of room on his memory card, so I said I would get him another. It was getting dark and we needed to be ready. The car was parked by a tree and there were bumble bees buzzing all over this the place! I was worried that they would get in the car. If that happened, I would be diving out, moving or not. I've come close to it before, when wasps have found their way in!



So he moves the car and we sit inside changing out cards, when a truck starts coming at us in a field. Great. I turned off the light but I knew it was too late. A fucking redneck was coming over to check us out. He asked us to leave. At the time, we were like, yea, ok whatever. But afterwards, it kept playing in my head. "Who the fuck does he think he is? He doesn't own the place. He is just some dumb cowfuck. I should have told him that we were doing some paranormal research.". Would he have even understood? Pfft....The whole place had graffitti all over it. We certainly weren't doing that shit. I should have asked him who to talk to then.



We did get many pics, but not enough and not to my heart's content. The plan is to go back one of these nights. Late nights, when cowpokes are fast asleep. Now if only they wouldn't put up an electric fence. Note to self....take stick. So chased away by a cowpoke. But, have some cool shots of ghost orbs.



Sunday, Easter/Bunny Day! We did yard work. Mowing, planting flowers, etc. I planted some petunias where the baby Tibbs is buried. Danny gave me a gold pendant, with sun/moon in the middle of a circle comprised of all the astrological symbols. I have the whole world around my neck. I told him that and he said that was a pretty heavy load to be carrying. Yea, but that's what I do.



I love Goonie adventures. What will come next weekend? There is a ghost town about an hour from here. I want to go to that. A friend had come by Saturday and told us of several places that he knows of that is haunted. I want to go.

I just watched the movie Conspiracy. It is a good movie, though hard to watch. Interesting, but such a dark subject. It is a movie about the Nazis sitting at a big table together, talking about what to do with the Jewish people. Apparently this is basically true, taken from the records keeper in the room.





On a lighter note....saw Fun with Dick and Jane the other night and it is hilarious. Also be sure and watch the deleted scenes. The toy store is the best I think, though the bedroom scene is funny too. Especially when she says she got scared.



Still watching Sopranos. That new show Big Love gives me the creeps. Still watching that Simple Life-Interns with Nicole Ritchie and Paris Hilton. Funny. Nicole is quite witty. Still lovin' my Andy Griffith and Family Guy. We watched Robot Chicken tonight. I have watched it one other time and not all the way through. It was great! Really witty. They had a part in there with the band that was in the Muppet Show. A sort of VH1 Behind the Music/Where are they now? thing. Apparently that blonde muppet singer chick acquired Hep. C.



New Family Guy episodes on April 29th? 28th? One of those two.

Poor WillowshadowfoX! She has been suffering from blood poisoning! That is why we haven't seen her on much. I finally saw her on last night and wrote her. This is her message back.





"Thanks for saying HI! I indeed have been suffering from blood poisoning.. from all things- sticking my finger in my ear because it was itchy.. pulled it out.. busted my ear drum.. got an earache- thought no problem, few days later was feeling feverish and queasy.. thought maybe it was a spring cold.. went out to cut the horns on my goat, and my fingers got caught vetween the horns and two fingers on my lefthand got broken.. went to the hospital.. they took my temperature it was 102 degrees, they took some blood samples.. asked if i had any recebt injuries.. i told them other than the fingers .. no but i had an ear ache.. they looked and told me i had a raging infection from a busted ear drum.. and the tests came back I had septicemia..( which is blood poisoning.. i felt stupid asking but didnt know that septicemia was blood poisoning lol) they gave me some shots.. rebroke my fingers and set them.. splinted and gave me antibiotics and sent me home.. 3 days later I went out to check the mail and woke up at the hospital in ICU 2 days later.. found out the blood posioning was too far gone for regular antibiotics and went into over drive when they gave them to me.. so I spent almost 2 weeks in the hospital.. 8 of that in ICU . So i was happy to get home.. but now Im not healing as fast as they thought... Im just not healing like I should and the hospital was a very close call for me.. I greatly Miss having you as our leader.. and truly value your friendship, I hope you stay in touch, and it was great to hear from you, I hope things are going well for you,

~Namaste~"

DrkEnchanterRS wrote me about his lady love dying. It is very sad. He has it in his journal about how she passed. On here she is alwayswanting. I hope she now finds peace. She was a Pisces.

"same old shit seeping from new mouths, most of it dried with age but still visible"

Continued from my neurosis facts page. I had started thinking about it and the paragraph started growing in size.





I know men love it when they first wake up...but me, I would rather foo-foo a bit before doin' the do. So I prefer sex at night, but before I get tired, so it can't be too late. I like ambient lighting too.



I like it a bit soft at first to get everything in it's place and then I like it fast and hard, to finish up, and I like to hear it when a man is about to cum and while he is. I like quickies. I get bored with slow, groovin' sex. I don't really care for doggie style. Yea, sorry folks. ha...



Remember when we used to roll around on the floor with people, grinding for hours, just kissing? I miss those days. The days when you don't know the person very well and it's all so bitter sweet, and exciting as hell?! Remember when you had a good buzz on and wanted to press yourself against another so hard, you became one?



Whew....is it hot in here?



I lost my virginity when I was 16 to a guy named Dick Welch. I was drunk on Gin and Jack Daniels. I had been after him for so long. He was real cute. I was obsessed with him. I am quite a determined chick and I had decided he was the one I wanted. So we had sex in the back of a maroon Camero late one night. He wasn't gentle. I bled all over the back seat.



That following Monday, a friend of mine, Alan, that hated Dick because he was a rival for my affections, came up to me and asked if I "had heard about the chick that Dick Welch fucked Saturday night, and bled all over the back seat of the Camero?". "Oh yea?"....He saw my face and knew it was me. He squealed like a girl, throwing his hands to cover his gaping mouth. Alan was bi-sexual, so we all knew that squeal. I can still smell Alan now....he bathed in Polo. I still have one or two of his empty bottles for my nostalgic heart. I also have the earrings he gave me years ago, in perfect condition. They are the heated metal ones that changed colors. The real ones, not the fake ones. You still see them around today.



This is the month that all that happened, back in 1986. Oh wow, 20 years ago? Dear Lord....And next month I am going to go to Independence, Kansas and see those guys again at their 20 year High School class reunion. Mine is next year, in 2007. But I have lots of friends in this year, so I am going back to meet up with them. I will be meeting up with Alan. Wonder if Dick will be there.



Years ago, I saw Dick again at the Halloween festival in Independence. I said, "Dick!". He said, "I go by Richard now.". I said, "You'll always be a Dick to me.". My friends cracked up. Ironic thing, was, that a few years after High School, Dick and I were still hanging out, but he was chasing me. I gave him sex for the old times, and it was not good. I realized that he sucked. I knew it wasn't me because I got compliments on my shit. *laughing* I still remember him trying to give me his class ring to wear. The very one I coveted years before. He was the first guy I french kissed. Which is another irony because I taught Alan how to kiss. And a few more, actually.



It is still hot in here....What was the question again?

On 06:31:07 Apr 18 2006 Jamie wrote:



Sorry, I was trying to get through my messages and helping someone. ;) I am behind on my messages.



On 06:46:34 Apr 18 2006 j2thasmoke wrote:



is it cool if i can get your number here my number 1580-421-9569 just ask 4 me josh



On 06:49:16 Apr 18 2006 Jamie wrote:



Well babe, I would, but I just hate the phone. I don't talk on the phone really. I am an online chatter more. So that's why I come here. =)



Btw, it's nice to meet you Josh.





On 06:50:29 Apr 18 2006 j2thasmoke wrote:



that cool so do you have a cam that i can see you



On 06:54:51 Apr 18 2006 Jamie wrote:



Actually I don't have a cam that is hooked up. I have tons of portfolio pics though for you to take a gander at, if you wish. I just put one in there from Sunday before last and some NIN pics, The Cult....Seether...etc. ;)





On 06:57:20 Apr 18 2006 j2thasmoke wrote:



kool would you want to meet some time if you want to



kool



On 07:08:56 Apr 18 2006 j2thasmoke wrote:



sorry am just looking for new friends





On 08:26:56 Apr 18 2006 Jamie wrote:



I gotcha. ;) I understand. We all are. =) I am catching up again on messages...

We just buried Tibbs. We were quite "cried out" when we buried her. But reading an email that my friend Dee wrote with a beyond the grave message from Tibbs, brought back the tears.



I wanted her close to the house, so she is right by the steps, under a small tree that has started growing there. Actually it has gotten quite big for the area it's in and I have to trim it so it doesn't get so big by the house.



Uncle Vic wants to cut the trees down that are by the house, because they will ruin the foundation. But I was thinking that if I keep them smaller and cut back, they won't do that. Well, that is my thinking anyway. They have started growning all around the place. I love trees and would love to have them engulfing the house, hiding it from the world.



Mom was going to come over this weekend, but she couldn't because she couldn't afford it. She was almost in tears talking about how she is losing herself out there in bum fuck egypt. It is hard for me to hear that because I can do little to remedy the situation. She needs to rent a small place here to hang out here awhile and then go back to her pad for a few days, check on things. But she is afraid dad will blow up about it ranting about how they can't afford it. Meanwhile, she has nobody to talk to but us kids and her dogs. No friends, nobody....She is very sad and lonely and it makes me very sad to think about it. The gas price hike to $2.70 a gallon has pretty much put a stop to all of us going over there twice a month now for weekends. Ugh...It is expensive going over there!



I have the same Bath & Body Lotion that Khay was talking about.....that Japanese Cherry Blossom. Hey, guess where I smell like Japanese Cherry Blossoms? Also, the regular Cherry Blossom is good too. I got the shimmer lotion last weekend.



My great Aunt and Uncle are going to be moving at the beginning of next month. We will most likely never see them alive again. We are going to go over and up to their place at the end of the month sometime to see them a last time and see what they are auctioning.



It is so nice outside tonight. The wind is blowing lightly, making it a bit chilly, but you can feel the warmth in the air, and especially in the house. I love having the windows open. It is around 82 degrees in here. I like it that way. I get cold if it is lower than that. The humidity is making it a bit sticky. We have that Southern humidity.



There are ants that have taken over the front yard. They work nonstop on moving debris from "their" area....aka, our yard. We fuck with them and put stuff over there to move....and they do! Well, they have killed all the grass and it's only dirt now in most of the front yard! Not cool and this is the second year now. So, dad, Mr. Gardener himself, says to put a path of chili powder down in a path from the hole to the neighbor's yard. ha....Um, ok, I have some chili powder because I make wonderful chili. And the neighbor is a crank head, so she won't even give a shit.



So I took the chili powder out to the ant hole and carefully poured it around the hole, and two sidelines to the neighbors yard line, making an easy path for the ants to leave peacefully. I thought it was funny because one could clearly see the path outlined in the dirt, going to the neighbor's driveway. HA...



Today we look at the ant hole and they are as busy as ever, but not leaving, but making chili. We were invited for dinner and thanked for the flavorful ingredient they had been missing.......bottom line....no more chili powder out there and ants galore working feverishly to finish a big pot of chili apparently.



Ok, is chili one or two L's? I put 2 L's in after writing that and it didn't look right.



Anyway...we are going to go to that old church I found in the country one dark night, by a cemetery this weekend, to do some ghost hunting. I can't wait.



Also, there is a place in a town not too far from here, Guthrie, Oklahoma. It has a few haunted spots that I would love to go check out. One is The Stone Lion Inn. I read just the other week about how Ghost Hunters was just there and it will be on their show!! How crazy is that shit? And I missed them! Ugh...I have been wanting to stay there for the longest time too, for a night and check it out. It has been logged as haunted. Can't wait for that.



There is also an old Boys Home in that town and an old hospital that are both haunted. The old Boys Home is owned by someone now I think and the hospital is watched carefully and they will arrest, I read. Damn....I wanna go. But they have some unkind spirits there. A nurse abused lots of boys at that home. I am not sure about deaths that were a direct result of the abuse though.



There is a place in Bartlesville, Oklahoma that went to. All the kids go there to check it out. I went there once when I lived there. It is called Gravity Hill. The rumor is, that there were some black people hung in the trees on that hill, during the Tulsa race riots way back when. Now, if you sit at the bottom of the hill and put your car in neutral, you will go up the hill as if you are rolling down a hill. It is the ghosts of those black people that are pushing you.



Now I jumped out of the car that night as our car rolled up the hill, to walk along side it and take pics, looking for any strange pics or orbs. Caught orbs around the car...as it rolled up the hill! We had a full car too.



May go to garage sales today.....I miss my baby.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slOQw3EYXoQ&search=brokeback%20mountain%20parodies



And I love the bunnies' parodies:



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tlccwGCBM48&search=brokeback%20mountain%20parodies



Brokeback Mountain, Christian edition:



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wcK8GhPh-I&search=brokeback%20mountain%20parodies

My precious baby, Tibbs the 3rd, has passed away, only a bit over an hour ago, at 3:30pm.



I woke up out of a sound sleep, sitting straight up and thinking, "The baby!". I ran over there and saw her laying on her side and I knew something was wrong. I took her in the living room, under the ceiling fan, but she was almost gone. I ran in and told woke Danny and told him, "Danny, I think this is the day that the Baby passes. There is something wrong.". I had a hard time holding back the tears but at the same time, this was all too fast, too much to process yet. I am still in shock.



Danny and I were there for her as she passed. I have no doubt that my guides woke me...or me (my intuition), I mean, I knew something was wrong. If it were my guides, they woke me right in time. She passed maybe 10 minutes after we picked her up. We held her and talked to her as she was passing.



She was almost 2 1/2 years old. She outlived many that were bigger than her. And I've read that the smaller ones don't live as long as the bigger ones. I know it was meant to be. She was so sweet.



I felt this coming. I knew time was short. It always seems to take me by surprise at THAT moment though. Since she was running around last night, I didn't see it happening today.



*pausing, looking outside, listening to the blowing trees and windchimes*

It is so pretty outside. *forlorn*



We took Tibbs everywhere with us. She has traveled all over the place. I miss her so much already.



We can't bring ourselves to bury her yet.



So, we are in mourning as we send our beloved friend, Tibbs, on to her next plane of existance. I love you Tibbs. We celebrate your life! Oh how such a lil, gentle soul has touched so many.

No, not short little guys.



This is so cool! I want some of these! ;) Fun!



http://www.coasttocoastam.com/gen/page1372.html



Sorry, copy and paste, peeps!



Oh yea, and this little gem. Ugh...





Btw, this site has tons of way cool stuff on it!

1. I don't like to eat out because I don't like to eat in front of people.



2. I don't like to eat the whole piece of fattening food, so I sometimes leave a bite or two, so that it will seem that I didn't eat the whole thing, therefore, cannot be that fattening and couldn't possibly gain weight from it.



3. I wear a bra to bed. Some women do not.



4. I don't like morning sex. I like it at night, but before I get too tired. See new entry for the rest of this.



5. I love to smell things. I love the way men smell. I love the smell of the bed on them. I smell everyone and everything. Actually, I guess it's all of my senses that I love, and make full use of.



6. I carry around a little furry mouse (one of those you buy at the pet store that is real fur toys, the size of a tater tot). She is a friend of mine. Her name is Louise. Everyone in my family knows her too and talks to and about Louise. She has her own traveling case and goes with us everywhere. I make her outfits. She is the hamster I couldn't take in my purse. Ever see Castaway, with Tom Hanks and his ball, Wilson? That is me and Louise.



7. I don't talk on the phone, except with a very select few. Otherwise, I just can't bring myself to answer it. I prefer texting. So if you need to get ahold of me, you will have to text me. People expect you to entertain them on the phone and it wears me out, either dancing for them, so to speak or listening to them ramble on for hours. I just decided to stop answering the phone. Danny says my cell is just a caller ID.



8. I do not suffer fools gladly.



9. I quit smoking weed a long time ago, because it started to feel like every time I was high, I had to really go to the bathroom....but I wasn't sure. But I used to really love to get high and listen to music...especially Floyd. I still love Floyd.



10. I have danced on tables when drunk. Once I danced nude in front of several teens. I fell over a chair, but they didn't seem to notice. It was to, "You can leave your hat on", from 9 1/2 Weeks. I have since danced to it and was fine.



10 1/2. Made $20 dancing on a bar.

By the way, I have added the THE CULT pics and the rest of the NIN pics to my portfolio for those of you waiting on that. =) Sorry it took a bit. Hell, I had to resize everything and add them...it was a slow process.



This story explains why he was so bushy at the concert. We were all wondering about that! Ha...wondering what happened to his beautiful long, black hair that he is so known for and had thought he looked more like Jim Morrison! Well, now we know!



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IAN TO FRONT THE NEWLY-REFORMED DOORS

It's official: the Doors have reformed with original members Ray Manzarek and Robby Krieger, along with Ian Astbury on vocals and Police drummer Stewart Copeland (oops see Update 2). Astbury seems the logical choice to replace the legendary Jim Morrison, as evidenced by the 2000 VH1 Doors reunion/tribute special. The new group has played a few gigs and Manzarek has said "this is the permanent Doors lineup."



Whether this new band will last or not, and what impact it will have on the Cult's future, time will tell... although it has to be noted that Billboard describes the new Doors singer as "formerly of the Cult".



UPDATE: Original Doors drummer John Densmore has filed suit against Manzarek and Krieger about the new lineup, but the band continues to play some LA dates including a performance on "The Tonight Show," and Ian was interviewed briefly on "Extra" and "Access Hollywood." If nothing else, all this exposure may introduce some new fans to the Cult's music.

Daily forgiveness



"As long as you don't forgive, who and whatever it is will occupy rent-free space in your mind."



-- Isabelle Holland



We cannot avoid daily resentment and thoughts of guilt. They are a part of human nature. What we can do is release their grip on us. We can forgive others and ourselves daily.



Forgiveness requires nothing in return. There are no conditions. It gets rid of old baggage and clears up unfinished business. It leads us to a life of authenticity, lightness and directness. Forgiveness is the highest form of letting go of resentment and ego.



True forgiveness is more than an apology, understanding and acceptance. There is an element of recreating and re-imagining. There is a need to envision ourselves as more loving, interdependent, courageous and compassionate. Forgiveness requires honouring the sacred journey of learning about life - our life and others'.



"Whatever we have done, we can always make amends for it without ever looking back in guilt or sorrow."



-- Eknath Easwaran

00:32:47 Apr 13 2006 VampireSiren wrote:



rolf!!!



I love you :) I can honestly say that your one of the few people i admire and look to as an example of how they live thier life on VR.



On 05:16:45 Apr 13 2006 Jamie wrote:



Man, I just want my periods to come later! hahaha....hell, in a few years, they will be stopping! egads!



On 21:17:58 Apr 12 2006 VampireSiren wrote:



Pure Abscorbic Acid (Vitamin C) can make your uterus unfriendly to potential fertalization.



it can also make your period come a bit early.



On 08:28:50 Apr 12 2006 Jamie wrote:



Hmm, overdosing on vitamin c is hard to do, if not impossible! I mean, since it's water soluble. I wonder what it is that you had to take. ? Stress, as you know, is hard on the body...boy, do I know! ha....and it stops periods, as you know, for a bit. Hope you can get back on track soon. =)

http://www.freewebs.com/eagledancer/jamie.htm



It is a work in progress, but my page is real close to being finished for the time being. Dee is doing her page too. ;) Need to set up my paypal account again.

"Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as if you'll die tomorrow"





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HOW MUCH DOES A

PERSON LACK INSIDE

WHO FEELS THE NEED

FOR SO MANY THINGS.

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THE MOST ONE CAN HOPE FOR IS IF ONE IS PROVED WRONG IN A FASCINATING WAY.



- Guenter Waechtershaeuser

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If the government has no knowledge of aliens,

then why does title 14,

section 1211 of the code of federal regulations,

implemented on July 16th 1969,

make it illegal for U.S. Citizens to have any

contact with extraterrestrials or their vehicles ?





YEA, AND WHY CAN'T WE? = Fuck that.

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OVERCOME SPACE AND ALL WE HAVE LEFT IS HERE.

OVERCOME TIME AND ALL WE HAVE LEFT IS NOW.

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IF WE KNEW WHAT WE WERE DOING IT WOULDN'T BE CALLED RESEARCH,

WOULD IT ?



- ALBERT EINSTEIN



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IF YOU LOOK TOO DEEPLY INTO THE ABYSS,

THE ABYSS WILL LOOK INTO YOU.



- Friedridh Nietzsche



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WE BUILD OUR FUTURE THOUGHT BY THOUGHT FOR GOOD OR ILL AND KNOW IT NOT.

THOUGHT IS ANOTHER NAME FOR FATE.

CHOOSE THEN YOUR DESTINY AND WAIT,

FOR LOVE BRINGS LOVE AND HATE BRINGS HATE.



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And remember!



NOT ALL WHO WANDER ARE LOST.



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I took a few days off. Been here for hours tonight. But I am hungry and my wrists/hands hurt from typing and need to leave.



I am really digging this weather!! It is in the 80s this week, and supposed to hit around 90!

"Hi Stranger. I'm glad to see that you're part of our house now. I felt really bad when I saw what was happening with Eternal. So how are you? I had the chance to speak to your daughter a few times and all I can say is that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. You are both wonderful.



Not a problem. I've always thought you were a great person and you've always been friendly and helpful to me. If there is anything you need to make you feel more comfortable in the house, feel free to message. And for the record, I don't thiknk you're neurotic at all."

I wrote a message to someone on Reiki, and thought I would post it for anyone interested. ;)



You know, when you are a Reiki Master (or student), you learn where they are, and the hand positions when you work on someone. You can also learn which ones you work on with certain ailments. But really, in that area, is where you do it..like stomach aches...etc...doing it at your stomach. Common sense stuff.



You direct the certain light at those areas, along with the white light, seeing the chakra getting brighter.



You have your 7, of course, starting with the base one, and your life force, being red and work your way up...orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and purple. Some prefer to see a white on top. Some don't. You may or may not know it, but each of these chakras spin. All the same way and the same speed.....unles something happens, like a physical or emotional accident or incident. Then the spinning can be "off". This causes your chakras to be out of alignment and can cause disease or physical problems. This can be remedied with realigning the chakras and Reiki treatments. =)



Like you mentioned, you can deal with tears and rips in the etheral field. You can lose energy through these holes. Some Reiki Masters don't like to mess with them as they think you need to have them to get rid of stuff.....but they can also remove the toxins in a certain way too. I have done that twice for people. Then you can close up the holes, and even charge the aura. It is quite a process for all of this. People that are tired a lot could have gaps/holes/tears/rips in their auras.

I have been away for a few days. I have needed the break! I wasn't ready to come back yet, even tonight, but felt I needed to get back with my friend's messages. =)



I have been trying to get my mind off of this place, keeping busy with other things. Trying to, that is. The place still doesn't leave me. I mean, it is not at the point where I can simply forget it, yet. But I am hoping for that. =) Then I can come and go without all the bullshit.



Friday, we went to garage sales. That is the summer/spring/early fall fun on the weekends. So we were up all night Friday and then went to the sales. Got to bed around 1:30pm, got up at about 6:22pm. Got around, ate, went to the cemetery in Bethany, and took some ghost pics. But there wasn't much activity that night, for some reason. And, it was cold! How could it be so warm and get so cold within hours? Well, it happens in the desert, so....Last time we went, I got some great orbs. But, that memory card went kaput, so I lost them all.



Was up until Saturday morning, went to bed around 6am, and woke up at 10am. There was a sale at JC Penny's on their gold jewelry. I want one of those Omega gold necklaces. But they had one marked at over $800. I'm like, "Yea, fucking right!". Even at a supposed 70% off that would be more than the same shit at Wal-Mart or a pawn shop. :P I did get a tennis bracelet though, wth a gold crown dangling from it. ;) I love sales. They had such cool dresses there, so unique and ME. But they were still $50 and I couldn't get jiggy with it. So...



After that, we went to the Corvette show. There were some really kickass cars. I love the really old ones, in the late 50s best, and especially if they are convertibles. My dad used to have a convertible Corvette....1963 I believe? Not sure. Then we had 2 Porsche's when I was growing up. I used to love riding around in those things. I didn't understand the prestiege of them until people started staring and freaking on them. Then, it's, "Oh, I see!". I was especially thrilled when the snobs would notice. I learned to drive a stick in those cars. I didn't drive them enough though to get it down.



We went crystal digging after that. The day was so pretty and the sky was so clear....and we were up! If we had sat down very long, it would be night night, so it was to the crystal digging area. April 1st was the first day it opened for digging. It was great, though a storm was coming towards us and my blood sugar dropped hard and fast, so I had a panic attack. The place is about 45 miles from home, in the middle of nowhere! But, digging in the earth, finding "her" precious gems rocked! =) There were these tiny little birds running all around us. They had tiny little legs and we could barely see them when they were running. It was so cute! The birds looked like miniature seagulls, and according to the sign upon entering, they are endangered. So most of the salt flats were roped off from digging, so they could study the birds. Thing is, I never saw one bird in those areas on the way to the digging area.....they were all right by us, while we dug! HA...I threw them some of my crackers....which, in hindsight, maybe I shouldn't have, because of my blood sugar incident. But we left, and I ate what was left of a few crackers, and a Xanax, hoping my blood sugar wouldn't crash too much more, and layed down, hoping the car ride would end soon.



The sky was dark by then, and not just from a night sky, but from the storm reaching the area. Lightning filled the sky occasionally, showing the clouds all around us. We got home just as it was about to hit. I checked my doppler (I have a huge doppler) and it showed a big storm on us, with a line of storms spanning the length of the state. In the line, were tornados, hail and lots of wind/rain. Luckily Danny made it back home 30 minutes later with the chicken tenders and mashed potatoes just as the storm hit. ;)



I found out later that Oklahoma had about 60 tornados and tons of damage. Now I am not sure about 60, but it was a stormy night.