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Why do I even Bother anymore....
21:34 Aug 31 2010
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So ya , dealing with family is never any fun, and I don't know why I think that everytime I come home it is going to be different then it was the last time.
My step monster is a control freak and obsessive, my father is whipped and kisses her ass no matter what she says.
you would think that being I moved way the hell away from them that maybe just maybe they could try and atleast make me feel like I still have a family.
Ah but no, that is not the case. There is Me and Alex and then there is Them. Her and her two spoiled Children. I have always been treated like the extra baggagem even if I am my dad's first kid. My mother and this psycho never ever liked each other in fact that hated each other when they were younger. And because I am my mothers daughter I have always been treated like crap after she married my dad... She was all sweet and nice before they got married but once they did her true colors showed, my dad is blind to it all by my grandparents always saw it which is why i spent most of my childhood with them.
Now all the people that mattered to me in my so called family are gone, My mom, my grandparents that rasied me, my Cousin who was always on my side and all that is left is me and Alex and they have made it so we are the outsiders in their special little family.
Family has always been so important to me, yet I am familyless as it would seem alienated by them.
I came home because I missed my son and I needed to get things in order. They are now in order and I can not wait to leave this cold heartless place. The only reason I will be back up here is to Pick up Alex as soon as the hearing is over and then thats it. All ties will be cut.
I loved the sweet little card she gave me the day i left to leave for TN ..... Please dont be a stranger we dont want you slip away from our family.... well ya know its a bit to late for that...
They are all nothing but Hypocrites and eventually it will come back to bite them in the ass.
I have the oleman and Alex and the other people who i consider family that are friends, but beyond that there is nothing else.
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COMMENTS
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atyourwindow
07:13 Sep 01 2010
at least im in good company *kiss*
LadyDarkRayne
07:17 Sep 01 2010
Yes my dear you are and I can not wait to get back home.... There is going to be some changes.... I Love you
RedQueen
09:20 Sep 01 2010
My poor love- I am with ya on this one. When my dad remarried, I was so happy, thining he could settle down again and be happy. Then when I got pregnant, and she was so helpful after Connor was born, I thought I had found a friend as well as a step mother.
Then daddy died....and the monster that had hidden just beneath the surface took over.
I could fill you in, but it would take hours describing the things she did to me, my ex husband, and attempted to do to my poor 3 year old son.
Just know that I understand, and you are loved and thought about sugar.