Many people view beauty in the form of appearance. Slim waste lines, big lips, full breasts, perfect complexions, always in their prime. Any man who envisions his true love this way, is not the man for me. A vast majority will toss aside the girl with the hair in her face in the corner for the big-titted bimbo at the bar who looks vaguely like Jessica Simpson. People are in the 'now', they are looking for sex appeal. For me, sex appeal is more than a dainty damsel. My sex appeal is my thick arms, which can lift bales of hay or help carry in furniture when you can't afford the movers; their sex appeal is a girl who can't lift an ipod. While they prance around in their faux leather Gucci accessories and stress the importance of vegetarianism, I would not hesitate for a moment in killing and skinning animal if it meant the survival of me and my love. They want a man who can support them, so they can pop out 9 children and never work a day in their lives; I want a man who will just hold me when I sleep and doesn't lack to support my dreams and work habits. They can take their underwear model, 6-pack waxed chested, blonde-tinted men elsewhere, because I want the man with the little extra in his stomach, the one who can take a punch who has the scruff on his chin from lack of a razor blade. I want a man who loves me for the rosacia on my face, the thickness in my legs from treading many miles, the long untamed hair that I could care less is blown dry, the man who hates to see me hide my face behind a mask of foundation and shadows, yet cherishes the moments I take the time to doll up just for him, the man who thinks I look sexy in just about anything, including his shorts which are 5 sizes too large for me, a man who thinks my masculinity is sexy, because he knows I can defend myself, yet never fails to always protect me. My perfect man loves me for my dry humor and my dorky laugh, my imperfections and my flaws, but finds that these things are perfect in his eyes.
I have my perfect man. And he is everything I have ever dreamed up, and nothing I despise. I have not even spent 2 days away from him and I am already becoming delusional. I have trouble sleeping without feeling him behind me and his breath upon my neck. Waking up to see his eyes glisten with lust as I pull my hair up, looking into his eyes and hiding my smile, but not enough for him to tell I am. For hours I lay on a flattening air mattress in the middle of a forest across the country from my soul mate, with no more on my mind than counting down the hours for me to leap into his arms when I see him greet me home from the airport.
Severus, I love you so much. I could write for days were I given the time and finger muscle capacity to do so. But I'm sure by the look in my eyes when you stare at me, and the sound of my voice when the words 'I love you' evacuate my mouth in a desperate yet comforting manor is enough to make that saying more than satisfactory.
When Sev picked me up from work this morning at 6am, he informed me the factory directly behind our house was on fire. We went to sleep and I was woken up at 2pm by a loud explosion. It sounded like a really close thunder noise. Looked outside and the fire was WAYYY worse! Our house is not even 100 yards from this building.
http://www.wkbw.com/news/local/3-alarm-Fire--125474258.html
If you want to know what's going on with me and Emett, just ask!!!
1. Are you Sexually attracted to the Sight of Blood?
You could say that.
2. Do You Cut to drink of the blood because it's needed?
Nobody needs to drink blood. Some prefer it as a form of energy intake, but the blood itself holds no purpose.
3. Do you draw energy from the people around you?
Yes, usually unconsciously.
4. Do you understand more clearly the concepts of vampirism?
LOL better than most I would presume, I do run a house ;-P
5. Do you enjoy watching blood pour from an open wound?
Eh, self-inflicted wounds, yes.. But like, getting your leg chopped off... no.
6. Do you watch Vampire Movies for pure entertainment?
Aren't all movies for pure entertainment?
7. Do you role-play and drink blood for pure entertainment?
Never role-played a day in my life.
8. Have you ever searched for other vampires over the net?
Guilty.
9. Do you encounter burns from the suns rays?
Yes, but I don't blame it on vampirism, I blame it on being Irish and European!
10. Do role-players Piss you off?
Most definitely... Well, not when they acknowledge that they're roll-players, but when roll-players pretend they are actually real and claim to be real.
11. Are you madly in lust with Gory and bloody movies?
In lust? HAH no.
12. Do you Believe Vampires are of Satan?
Uh... most the vamps I know follow God or multiple Gods.
13. Does the thought of people drinking blood make you queasy?
Depends on the blood lol
14. Do you Draw Energy from the intake blood?
When I was a newb.
15. Can you sense what will happen before it does?
I used to have premonitions on a weekly basis.
16. Do you lurk in the shadows during the day, stalking people?
Not really lurk, but if I had a choice between walking next to a building with shade or out in the open, I'd chose the shade.
17. Do you ever Cut yourself to Drink of the Blood that pours?
Newb days!
18. Do you seek Darkness?
WTF?
19. Is life a little too Real sometimes?
Well... I'm real, this iced tea next to me is real. This internet is real... I'd say life's pretty fuckin' real.
20. Do you seek shelter in crowds, a more comfortable place?
I actually am quite fond of being by myself... err, well, with Sev lol
21. Do you Feel happy when you hear talk of Christ?
Lol bible thumpers piss me off. I don't mind him, but don't flaunt him to somebody who doesn't give a shit.
22. Have you asked people if you could bite them for attention/attraction purposes?
You know how filthy some people are?
23. Do you often have vivid dreams?
Every night.
24. Does blood arouse your sexual senses?
This is true.
25. Do you attend Church regularly?
Nooo never willingly.
26. Do you believe you can read others minds?
No, but me and Sev think alike ALL the time.
27. Do you believe in Vampires?
.... Nope I fuckin' hate em... can you feel it? The burn of sarcasm.
28. Do you ever feel somewhat drained after not being around people for an extended period of time?
I did after just a day, before I moved in with Sev.
29. Do you ever experience flight?
Uhhh I'm going to be on a plane in a couple weeks? lol
30. Do you enjoy the taste of blood?
Eh, on occasions.
What is your name? MY profile says all.
How old are you?: 19
When is your Birthday?: 7/10/92
What is your zodiac sign?: Cancer
Where were you born?: Las Vegas
Where do you live now?: Buffalo NY
What color eyes do you have?: Gray
What color hair do you have?: Red
How tall are you?: 5'7"
How much do you weigh? I'm thick, curvy, and still sort of relatively slim... fuck your weight lol
What is your race?: Irish, German, Bulgarian, Armenian
What is your worst fear?: Loosing my hubby
Do you smoke?: Used to
Do you drink?: Used to like a fish. Now on occasions
Do you cuss?: OOOH yeah
Do you use drugs?: Used to
Have you ever or will you ever steal?: used to
Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?: Always
Do you play in a band or play an instrument?: no
Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?: 3 tats 8 peircings
If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be?: Jeffery Dommer? lol Or Manson
Do you suffer from depression disorder?: No
If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be?: With Sev in his arms
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?: Nope never will.
Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?: Nahhh
What subculture do you belong too?: Fuck subcultures
Are you evil?: Not at all, I have a good heart.
Do you believe that you can be possessed?: Nope
Are you a paranoid person?: Nope
Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?: No never get jealous
Are you obsessive and/or compulsive?: No
Are you a violent person?: Very very very rarely
Do you take your anger out on other people?: Never
Do you blame other people for your mistakes?: No, any wrong done to me is karmatic debt.
What is your favorite game?: Sims, Fable
What is your favorite movie?: Party Monster
Who is your favorite band?: Don't have one
What is your favorite song?: Don't have one
What kind of books and/or magazines do you read?: Informational on vampirism & magic
What is your favorite color?: Black/Red
What is your favorite food?: Don't have one
What is your favorite drink?: Sangria
Do you own a pair of converse?: no
Do you own a pair of dickies?: no
Would you ever kill yourself or someone else?: I was pretty close to killing my mother a couple times. Had fantasies about it... but no.
Are you kinky?: some times
Do you like biting?: It's okay.
Do you masturbate?: Hahahha haven't missed a day in 5 years
Do you watch pornography?: used to
Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?: had pink hair for 2 years
Have you ever shaved your head in a socially unacceptable way?: lol no
Are you hyper active person?: no, very chill
Are you religious?: no
Do you have any self inflicted scars?: from back when I cut for blood
Does pain turn you on?: Depends how much pain
Do you stand for originality and creativity?: who doesn't?
Do you like meeting new people?: Eh, I could do without
What do you like most about life?: Sev :)
What do you dislike most about life?: Humans lol
Do you believe in love at first fright?: ... fright?
Have you ever pierced a body part yourself?: my lip 4 times
Have you ever had to beg for dinner money?: No
Do you own a car?: no
Have you been to jail, yet?: lol yet... no
Are your clothes held together with safety pins?: No
Do you have actual scars from punk rock shows?: No
Have you ever vomit while making out?: ew no
Have you held a job for less than a day?: only 1 job and I've been there for years.
Do you own more than two pair of jeans?: Just one, grew out of the rest.
Have you ever had to fuck stuff up for no good reason?: Had to? no
Have you ever been kicked out of your parents house?: No I left that bitch lol
Have you ever been fired from your job because of your attitude?: nope
Does the world piss you off?: yeh
COMMENTS
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Severus
10:23 Jul 21 2011
When the one person you are truly meant to be with, your true love walks threw the door you know it; and when that one person walks out the door you feel it.
I know that I truly love you because you never have to lift a finger, your lips never have to move in order to make me feel like a man.
In fact the only time I ever feel flawed or weak is when you're not there... you are my greatest strength and my only weakness. You are the one thing that make me, me.
I love you Shyla