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New year and a new start just around the corner.



Im so looking forward to 2014 new beginnings and every opportunities to be grasped. Wishing all the best for others with equal chances of taking what it is for us without being selfish.

You know i will do a lot for my friends but i will say this right now both on and off of VR. Push my friendship and watch my ass walk and our friendship end!

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xXxPaynexXx
21:57 Dec 30 2013

-hugs you and hands you free boots-



I got ya and ya know it!!!

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LadyXblackXRose
22:39 Dec 30 2013

Thanks. Sometimes i just ask why me. Then i remember thats because im viewed the easy picking who will tolerate it. Wrong!

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Last few days have been a big build up for my youngest with his Autism. He has coped really well and enjoyed his Christmas Turkey. That was the main bit he had been talking about for the last few days.



He is now of course onto his next repetitive topic conversation which is returning back to school next year. A conversation my head is counting down to silently and will look forward to it coming soon.



A good day indeed as long as no one performs those stealth attacks of cuddles i should be fine for the morning.

For an asshole of Vr not bad but please stay out of my personal music collection thank you.

Squeamish parenting moment.

When sitting and eating diner nothing worse than child placing a bloody tooth on your plate.

To add to the element of surprise he had a tooth come out on Saturday so was not expecting a second one this evening.

So the cold weather has crept in today again. But whilst briskly hobbling in the town arms loaded with bags of presents i managed to break out into a sweat of sorts and heart rate went up when i nearly knocked over some escapee toddler who was screaming her nut off in the direction of Santa's grotto. I would have heard her had it not been for the iPod blocking out the horrible Christmas tunes that the shops have had on reruns since mid bloody October!!!!!!!

Got home and have been freezing cold for most of the afternoon. It is also my last week of freedom before the kids break on holiday this Friday. But i am more or less all set. Just got an extra bit of food shopping to do and find three presents. Also have to post one as well but need to find a box of sorts to send down my little niece her present. Went very traditional with a scotty dog and tartan bows. Am sure her mother will approve it lol



Now just need to keep an Autistic teen calm till it is all over with and returns back in the new year.



Fortunately i have a bottle of Tequila for those cold stressful days to have a wee dram at night :)

So the cold weather has crept in today again. But whilst briskly hobbling in the town arms loaded with bags of presents i managed to break out into a sweat of sorts and heart rate went up when i nearly knocked over some escapee toddler who was screaming her nut off in the direction of Santa's grotto. I would have heard her had it not been for the iPod blocking out the horrible Christmas tunes that the shops have had on reruns since mid bloody October!!!!!!!

Got home and have been freezing cold for most of the afternoon. It is also my last week of freedom before the kids break on holiday this Friday. But i am more or less all set. Just got an extra bit of food shopping to do and find three presents. Also have to post one as well but need to find a box of sorts to send down my little niece her present. Went very traditional with a scotty dog and tartan bows. Am sure her mother will approve it lol



Now just need to keep an Autistic teen calm till it is all over with and returns back in the new year.



Fortunately i have a bottle of Tequila for those cold stressful days to have a wee dram at night :)

Ok bitching and grumble time. You know when you get that email that says from a so called family member "Dont contact me or my husband ever again?" No wait you never had one before. Well i did back in June 2011 from my eldest sister. Yep she went nuts and had a full out blown Facebook war with me so i did as was requested and stopped messaging her. I left her to get on with her life. I removed all forms of contacts with her and didnt even bother to tell her my new facebook account name. Well last year i was minding own dam business when the postman delivered my morning mail. In there was a christmas card. Yep a gold star for guessing who it was from. My oldest sister and her husband. I did the sensible thing and gave it to the neighbors and moved on. Not contacting her or anything of the sort. kept myself to myself and stayed out of her way. Well guess what the postman bought me today. Yep you guys are earning those gold stars today. Yet another christmas card wishing me all the best for 2014. Seriously sometimes there is just to much shit to open up the door and welcome people back in with open arms. When i do move i will be grateful that all contact has stopped and will no longer be possible. Time to move on sister by your own choice!

I hate Friday 13th's. It is truly the one day of the year i much prefer to stay under the duvet and just let the world go by. Unfortunately i shall still have to get kids up and out the door for school and i know i shall have to venture outside.

Saturday will be unpleasant as i tackle the lights for the tree. I place them carefully away and during that year it is like they have had an on mass party game of Twister. Sometimes it is even naked Twister as the dam bulbs blow a fuse or two.

Then there is the tinsel i have learnt to hoover the room after all the tinsel is up and not before but it is just the whole bit of climbing up the dam ladder or furniture to get the dam stuff up.

A drink or two shall be a must me thinks after i have tinseled all out.

So my eldest asked me the same question i get around this time of year..................Ma wat ya wanting fur christmas?





My reply has pretty much been the same as it has been since he has known that Santa doesnt exist that im all good. Before when both he and his brother were much younger i would reply that Santa has only enough room on his sleigh for the good boys and girls presents. He was alright with those answers for a few years. But now he is gaining that independence in wanting to give me a little gift. Its sweet but in truth i dont have desires or wants for presents. I spend money that is on myself as and when is required and needed through out the year. I make sure the kids get for certain and the bills are paid. What more could i possibly desire or want. We do great as it is for the most.



If i was to ask for one thing it would be an early present for next year that everything goes according to plan for once and not to many hurdles to jump over.



That would be a good present :)

Oh my goodness its all happening tonight.

It has taken 4 police officers to tackle a very angry woman to the ground and cuff her. Thats got to be cold for here given it is now winter. Still at least she gets a warm roof over head and breakfast in bed and an unwanted room mate to greet her first thing in the morning when she is sober lmao.

What really does annoy me is when a person who i have known for years walks in and out of my life the way she does.



I dont hear from this person for months. I do the polite thing on Facebook if she posts something sure i will make a comment if its appropriate. She to does it vice a verse.

However over the last week or so she has stepped it up a notch by actually texting me. The last time she done that was when her so called mate was going batshit crazy on the friendship and she was messaging me a lot. But then she went quiet and her batshit crazy friend is her best bud.

Great not got a problem with it at all.

But like i had written she has now been messaging me. Asking how i was and such so i answered that i was due for an operation next year. So she has been chatty and all concerned that was till she messaged me today about struggling to get a bank loan. Seriously we have not messaged for a good while and then up you pop. I dont need a crystal ball to see were this is heading but i shall play along with it for now.

Lets see if you really are a friend or not shall we.............

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xXxPaynexXx
17:11 Dec 10 2013

-hugs you-



I have new blades...



Just Sayin'.



-looks innocent-

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LadyXblackXRose
17:20 Dec 10 2013

Lusty booby lady looking innocent? ~smirks~

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xXxPaynexXx
17:30 Dec 10 2013

Hey! I can have goals too,damnit!!!



-cracks up-

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LadyXblackXRose
17:54 Dec 10 2013

Goals are good Payne lol You keep aiming for that one whilst i aim for just behaving for one day and being normal lol

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xXxPaynexXx
18:31 Dec 10 2013

Great...ROFL...We are both screwed!

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LadyXblackXRose
19:47 Dec 10 2013

God if only LMAO ;)

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So the winds have calmed down but it is still just as cold today as it was yesterday. Frost on the ground made it slightly difficult for my trip into town but i survived. I am now all wrapped up in a duvet. Only my hands that are freezing. Am intending on staying in over the weekend if i can unless i really have to go out. But if i am lucky a lazy weekend with the kids is what is planned.

After i had come back from my shopping this morning i went in to let the neighbours dogs outside and keep them company as they had asked me to look after the dogs for a few hours. It was enjoyable although their cat was not at all impressed with being left alone with me. The last time i had been left alone with him i had given him a bath as he had a skin condition due to an allergy with a product change in the litter tray. It had blistered him badly so the only way to help him was to wash him thanks to the vets advice. Anyhow the cat was giving me death glares but we have made up now and he came and sat next to me for a short while. Been a good afternoon all in all.

Last night the winds were howling through the streets of Scotland for sure. I could hear the rain battering off of the windows and i did my fair share of trips to the bathroom. Somehow both my sons slept through it all and i had to wake both of them up. Usually one or the other is wide awake but not this morning. So anyhow the lights flickered and i was concerned that the power might blow a fuse or something but it has survived the day however some rural areas have not been so lucky with the electricity been cut.

Managed to get to the bus stop with out being blown down the road and the bus eventually arrived to take me into town. For some reason the older generation were out on day release and doing their best to run me over with the mobility scooters or trolley carts. One was even kind enough to on more than one occasion dunt my hip whilst queuing at the check out.

Made it home safely and got shopping away in time just before my youngest arrived home from his half days. School is still not taking him full time which is annoying to say the least and i had a meeting yesterday. I dont particularly want to acknowledge that meeting at this time and moment as it was just a pointless meeting of covering over the same old grounds really.

Anyhow just i was getting my youngest into the house the hail stones started to pelt off of the windows and then by the time we were both up the stairs white flurry of snowflakes were sticking to the windows outside.

It looked pretty to start off with but then the wind picked up and for a good 10-15 mins or so it was a blizzard. Not much of it settled fortunately but it was a fair bit. So we got cozy under a blanket and sat watching.

I think my youngest might have yet another cold coming on which is of no surprise at all and am prepared with tissues and meds.

Time to get some food cooked now as it is really getting cold. Think i might listen to some fleetwood mac...........

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BLOODLIFE
01:35 Dec 06 2013

We have a severe weather warning in London and Fleetwood Mac would go well with any weather condition ;-)

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LadyXblackXRose
16:11 Dec 06 2013

I agree with you but my sons would most likely disagree.

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Yesterday was an anniversary i prefer not to remember but am constantly reminded each year.



My mother back in 2006 walked out and disappeared on the 3rd of December. She has not had any contact with either myself or my siblings since then. It is difficult to at times have an event or an achievement with family and not have her by my side to celebrate. She chose to cut herself off from us all and then by the beginning of 2007 was attempting to take her own life. I had even at one point had a call from the hospital to let me know that she was alive and well and was having her stomach pumped after yet another failed attempt. I had by then decided to change my phone number knowing that it would change a lot of things. But i couldnt take it any longer. A few years later one of my closest friends from high school lost her mother who had been battling bowel cancer for the second time. She past away on the exact same date. It has been four years since her mother past away and she still feels the same pain as she did the day her mother past away.

I sometimes wonder if i will feel the same pain as she does or if i will be numb. I wonder also if anyone will be there at her funeral if anyone is notified within the family. It is hard sometimes being the son or daughter to a parent who possibly just does not even realize the amount of pain they put an offspring through.

Seeing what my friend goes through each year at times has me envious of the closeness they once had and the closeness i should still have. I hate that feeling inside for why should i feel envious. It is possibly unjustified but yet it sits there.