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Wow, I'm barely on here, don't write anything for months, and now suddenly what I write is interesting enough for 22 people to come check out? I'm really not all that interesting, am I? lol

Maybe I should have kept my premium membership, just so I could see how many asshats were looking for tidbits.. nahhh, they'd just check it out when they're not signed in.

I wonder what I should write next?

Sometimes I wonder why I still visit vr.... The people in my house rock, and it's still fun there, but the reasons I came here continue to haunt me. The person that introduced me to vr has lied to me, about me and done many things to make my life a living hell. Hell, vr was used against me in an attempt to make me out to be a person I really am not.

I actually fear coming on here, worried that my presence will trigger another wave of resentment for me still living and breathing.

Many friends I made on here are no longer here for their own reasons, many others I'm no longer in communication with; many reasons to just leave.

At the same time leaving feels like I'm letting 'the other' win. Letting myself get beaten in a game I didn't start, don't want to be a part of, yet am thanks to meddling where meddling should never have occured. It's just not the same here, for the above and many other reasons.

So, now what? I sit here pondering my vr existence and wondering if being here really is worth all the drama that is caused by so few (well, one actually, but there are minions who blindly follow where led)....

Maybe I'll be here, maybe I'll be gone... I just don't know yet. So I continue pondering...... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

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faeriemoon
20:58 Aug 05 2008

I think we would understand if you go but, it would be a loss. Your presence in the house is always fun and I know I enjoy your company. What ever your decision it is your own. Just know you still have friends here and the possibility to make many more.

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