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Been meditating on eternity and fate. To my under-standing everything that happens from conception in the womb till death is the product of ones DNA and every experience imprinted in their memory determining behavior; Freewill is pure bullshit that stems from naivety and or ignorance to this fact.

As a HLV I can conceive via my human mind capable of abstract thought that concepts like eternity are understood. Beyond that as an occultist I have experience with subtle energies to add an empirical dynamic to such abstract ideas.

I have found this state of mind is a lot like opening Pandora's box or unlocking the Hellraiser puzzle box. I have developed an intimate and constant relationship with an elemental being that permeates every aspect of the omnipresent and eternal cosmos relative to the limited brain cells that I can assign definition to. I don't think I'm a masochist but I do seem to suffer the downside to anything I do. Just part of the cycle to be endured especially as a hypersensitive. It is understanding that allows me to cope. Kind of makes it hard for me to relate to most with this frame of mind where others don't have the spiritual dynamic I have after years of empirical experiences.