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-Todays word of the day is bias-prejudice in favor of or against one thing, person, or group compared with another, usually in a way considered to be unfair. Throughout my life I've had the...opportunity to see things from different vantages. I have lived in areas that had minorities as the majority. The corruption still plays out the same when the minority gains majority because it puts them in a position of strength. Which they will exploit simply because they can and little can be done about it. I favor individualism over group dynamics mainly because I'm an empath and need to keep separate to maintain my sanity and to perceive veracity. But mob mentality is one of the highest forms of a bias. The entire dynamic of a group of people changes it. As a vampire I just recognize different castes like Ramkht-Kitrah-Mradu that function together to manipulate subtle energy. I'm Ramkht to elemental nature.

I watched a video on YouTube today on Wikipedia being biased toward the left wing. I don't see it or enough that it is corrupt from being a viable source for knowledge and truth. The fact is it is a charity and has many academics authoring it so the mainstream media controlled by the wealthy elites aren't the controlling factor. I really don't think I'll be getting accurate accounts by Grokepedia controlled by AI. I support Wikipedia and you'll see many links in my writing referencing them as a source to define something.

Broke out my leather-crafting supplies today. The scent of it is just so intoxicating. I need to do some rearranging as my desk is cluttered with too many things making for little workspace. I recall This set-up I had in Fallout 4 house and my place is starting to resemble it. I favor convenience and functionality over aesthetics.

-Todays word of the day is Machismo (strong or aggressive masculine pride). Since I've leveled up Neowise2020 to where not posting in stream or society will drop it below sire I'm not going to spend as much time on it other than to post in society and earn favor points that I see as a duty. So have taken to putting more time on this one my main profile especially since I'm back in a society to earn favor though the blood price eats it everyday with so many dead profiles in it. Been posting in society and even pubic forum. This can actually be hard as an empath picking up all the shade members throw at me. Today I picked up on exactly that in public forum from a particular member. I summarize their attitude to machismo since they were obviously male. Then there have been others picking up on it trying to express the same. What's so fucking sad is though they may see themselves that way and some may actually feed their ego the reality is far from it. I am constantly humiliated by my own critical senses so when I'm presented with an ego that thinks they are the shit I simply laugh at their pathetic sense. They don't actually look at how much they lie to each other as well as themselves to maintain that ego. Still though I strive to keep myself centered and sanctified from returning such behavior back to them. I realize they aren't hypersensitive.

Well something has definitely shifted since that blood moon last week. I have been doing things I couldn't before. Not for lack of trying it just seemed anytime I started something I couldn't carry it out and suffered the humiliation of being incompetent. That has changed now and is great though I'm quite old now and limited. Got to make the best of it with what little life I have left.

Been working on the actual crafts for my graphics. The mark is the easiest and have started there so going to create a medicine bag out of leather-craft to hold my fangs in so I can just pop them in when the need arises. The image itself is one using sacred geometry that has great significance to me and will paint it on the bag as the medium. Going to use Musou black paint for the background which is the blackest paint on the market made in Japan. I got it to paint my drones and never got around to it so have plenty to use. I also have florescent color paints that glow well in black-light which is the lighting I'll use when digitizing it. Ill document different stages of this project then make a collage of it to share on my portfolio. Got lots of space on it to fill it out.

-This song plays in the anarch bar in the videogame. Kind of has this melancholy aspect to it that one has living as a vampire but even more so because I'm reminded of the first game that became a cult classic and how this game could have been so much more but turned out far below the bar after the management couldn't make things work. Same sadness of mood. Yeah its a vampire game and playable but I'm already bored with it where I can still play the first one and enjoy it even with the retro gameplay and graphics.

Well just rejoined this coven Wolves of Odin again. Last year I took a break from the site for a couple weeks and when I came back found the coven had joined the Adalwulf Alliance. I had once been in it but was kicked out. Prerogative of being a society master wrong or right you make decisions and are captain of your boat. To find my coven master had joined it I no longer felt obligated to stay connected. So left. She stayed in it awhile and I stayed to myself. Then she joined another alliance with another member I've had history with. I wasn't going to join that one either even though it was a great step up from the previous one because this one was ruled by kindred. This alliance fell apart recently so she went and joined another but this one was a fellow male ronin. Didn't really see myself serving well in that society but now she has left that one and am now back in not like Fynn though. I am working on creating my own coven but until then prefer earning favor points. Been keeping most of my activity to my other alternate profile Neowise2020 which only recently sired out of a prison coven. But after suffering some health issues and taking another break found it inducted again having sired it via the temporary Stream post bonus. That has been rectified. I suppose as long as I don't get too many blocks to take away from that profile's base score it will remain a sire. So now I'll be dividing my time in two coven's both ruled by women until I create my own...unless some other factor changes things-there's always exceptions.

I do have my own pet peeves because of abuse and or neglect that happened in my youth I can't stand being around individuals or institutions that need to "save face" because of their pride. Lived off the grid and as an outlaw for many years because of this. I made a compromise by coming out here in California to live. I believe in the constitution of the United States of America just think the latest amendments have allowed too much corruption in so makes it hard to tolerate. Once you take a post in the government you become a servant to the people. You have to cut ties with business as that's a conflict of interest otherwise you will take advantage of the system for self interests as we see playing out over and over again in such officials. The very reason communist government is wrong and subject to corruption is played out in our government by such officials. It's so disgraceful being a citizen here now seeing this shit play out but I'm too old now and can't do too much other than my vampire magick.