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What is true? What is right? You may think that's an obvious answer but is it really? Just because many people think something doesn't make it true or right. Take a good look at history and how the multitude of people thought of things in comparison to what we have today. So what really doesn't change from those times till now? What about sanity? Were there some who thought radically that went against the grain of what the majority thought and were branded heretics and lunatics for it? Do you think the same isn't true now? Were there people that abused their power to get what they wanted. Do you think people in power don't do the same things now? How about in the future will there be a civilization that looks back at us now and thinks we were foolish in what we thought as being true or right.

I am back to being alone in my coven again. There's both a pro and a con to that from my vantage. I don't think the reason behind it is public knowledge though it may seem from journal entries that's not the case. One of the cornerstones to this site is the principle of induction and status. You earn more status powers as you level up but the main goal is to sire to level 100 where you become free to choose what society to belong to or not or create your own. The cornerstone to mine is it is built on my referrals. I know I can bring people here merely by banner placement not unlike casting a line when fishing with a lure and a hook. Then I have to deal with the what I call the hard sell because I'm honest and that doesn't set the hook where others will just string people along in illusion to get what they can out of them. That really doesn't win me any contests when most are looking for an escape. When I first came to the site I was looking for something and never really found it after decades of being here. Now I'm in the place of creating it myself. There are some doors that are closed now because of my age or the dispensation of the environment around me. There's just some opportunities ten to 15 years ago that aren't present now. Just look at how AI content alone has changed things.

I do still have goals to accomplish on this site and will endeavor to accomplish them. It certainly takes me time to work on them though. Then I strive to follow the timing of my nature spirit.

-I haven't been sticking to my diet and exercise routine. I ate a lot of meat today. I haven't fallen far but still it is enough. Anyway I went ahead and got this new album from Nox Aracana.

...Later. My computer's automatic cooling sysem isn't working. I got one that can run games on it so it has a powerful cooling system to maintain the heat. A few weeks ago I put on my headphones and felt they were hot and wondered why then felt the top on my closed laptop and it was quite hot. I'm like okay why isn't the fan turning on then? I flip it open and turn it on manually to dissipate the heat. Now I have to manually do that and if I'm off the system a few days make sure to turn it off rather than leave it in sleep mode. I didn't think I was running that many proframs to warrent this heat. Makes me wonder if some other system ss using mine without my knowledge. It's like those that hack your WiFi and start using it under your dime. Shit I can barely run one device at a time on mine with ethernet cords so when I start seeing others on mine I'm like WTF??! Give them the boot right away.

I find the same thing aplies to narcissistic personalities that use empaths for their masks. You start supplying their energies they will continue to abuse and take advantage of you or use others to do it for them. I'm wary of this and see it play out often on this site in different forms. .

Had an eerie dream today during a blackout. I mean what's to do during a power outage. I could go on my phone but what if it lasted a while so best to save battery life. I just went to sleep and then had spooky dreams. Posted graphic above in Stream today by vertibirdo titled: "For The King". May not seem that scary to most but I think it has a certain scare factor to some. Haven't really been feeling the Stream too much lately. Really need to get more people here first as it stand now just the same ones gets old and don't feel much like posting for them. I can maintain venerable sire status without it.

-I can relate to Lady Morte's sentiments in this song: "...in the heart of the forest I wait...for your eternal embrace". As I gaze out into eternity from the past to future as well all around in real time there is one sense that permeates all forms of life that has a nervous system and that is the sense of touch. There seems to be a language to it. I've been striving to learn it.

In MUI theory it is the life forms that flourish through reproduction that survive and pass on their traits in evolution that creates perception of reality rather than an absolute. For me it is relativity that matters in judging anything so I consider these things as important.

How to proceed with my magickal will is the question. I have been getting the promptings to work locally with my community.

...Later. It is said that you can catch more flies with honey than vinegar. Thus being nice and sweet things are used to capture more. But isn't there this realm we enter where the pleasant fiction overtakes the boring or uncomfortable truth. The whole problem with recreational drugs is the escape from reality that inhibits or impairs a healthy or productive society; And if one wants to use it then to be able to tax it to make money off of people is the big problem for those in places of power. Its a double whammy if it inhibits productivity as well as taxation. I have to express that there's a lot of services out now especially in the entertainment industry that is there to do exactly what drugs do but it is a part of the system so there's plenty of people get their cut out of the deal so it is promoted. I'm not saying I'm exempt from it because I do like a good bit of fiction that pulls me out of the mundane world. Of late I've been watching a lot of Isekai and LITRPG type stories on You Tube. It's become an addiction. Then we have all the AI content that people are using now to do what they can't. Type in a few prompts you become an artist, musician, poet or business to capture an audience which inspires a sponsor.

I have found myself as a real vampire explaining it to people yet that just isn't exciting enough for those addicted to the fiction which is by far the majority. Its like I'm ruining their high-buzz kill. Not too popular am I. There's that term about reading a room and I see how it applies to this site. I'm a DIY kind of guy i.e. Do It Yourself-er. One of the chief things one must do as an occultist is know thyself and then you know exactly what you want. The pleasant fiction doesn't work for me and wooing other people with misdirection just isn't pleasing to me. I'd much rather serve by giving the boring truth than the hyped sensationalism. Yet I realize I have things in my life that others don't. Like this constant interaction with my nature spirit whose presence makes me burn in ethereal ecstasy. Others need the the sweet lies of fiction people sell them to make them feel good. Like the ego stroking that some feel proves something to their little minds. Oh there are certainly those who are exceptionally good at getting attention. As attention whores they are the high priced ones and make some serious bank turning their tricks. Being that I know myself so well I know what I need and what I must sacrifice to get it.

Well I'm rocking a .002 favor point for my society in the standings. I mean you have some that are in the millions then they have members that are rated high in ratio to number to how many they have in it as well as what level they attain and this is supposed to tell you who is in the lead. We obviously measure things by a different standard. I'm thinking of creating my own Iframe using J-A-V-A-S-C-R-I-P-T to measure my own scoring system to place in my society. Yeah there are socjeties' on this site that have been around back in its heyday when it was more active to earn all those scores but grandfathering them in now just doesn't seem right to me. Same thing for all that honor some have. I seriously doubt they are active members giving it to people even tit for tat that would be a lot. Now someone rocking a bot to do that work for them I can see. Appearances certainly matter but not at the cost of sincerity. Way too much misdirection in society for me. Looks like there has been a shifting of society members on this site too.