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V.R. Today [Public Entry]-Best viewed with black background.
22:54 Jun 08 2026 Times Read: 10
I am certainly no therapist but I am honest. There are many narcissists and empaths on this site. It's a literal clusterfuck because amidst the "persona" of being a vampire the narcissists use to manipulate the empaths there actually are some that via occult means actually are real vampires among a couple of those who are empaths. I developed a strong relationship with the occult hidden world and engage with people through it. I no longer have normal relationships with people as a result. I do look for those that I can likewise work with for that energy manipulation. They are very rare. Will be casting a wider net looking for such soon. Made a considerable sacrifice for it too.
Someone edited my comments from their journal today. I don't actually post comments in too many journals. Being an empath I pick up quite a bit and its quite taxing to every interaction I have. So perhaps there is quite a bit more depth to it than others may not recognize. I strive to respect the boundaries people set so just let them be if that's what they want. I don't live their life and can't tell them how to feel I can only express my opinion if it is acknowledged its up to them. I don't have power over them. Well actually I do as a vampire through the occult "hidden forces" but that is only for those who likewise perceive that dynamic.
Today been working on my main thesis on my mentorship. I know my banner campaign will go into effect soon so will need more content available for them if they need it.
V.R. Today [Public Entry]-Best viewed with black background.
15:19 Jun 03 2026 Times Read: 120
-Yesterday I had a bit of a late dinner at 5pm. It has thrown off my schedule now. Important thing is getting my exercise in around the 14 hour window into my 16 hour fast between meals as insulin is at it's lowest then to burn visceral fat. I'm at thirteen now so creating this entry at a different time then usual. Last night I updated my featured profile music to this album from Council of Nine. I've really been wanting to update my profile. Some things have changed and it doesn't quite capture who I am accurately enough. I know I have this habit of adding TMI (Too Much Information) that may seem over the top to normal readers. But I'd rather go into depth and detail about things to explain them clearly than be ambiguous that many do because it allows many to misinterpret things and gives them wider range to draw from. There is a time and place for that I can't deny especially for time constraints and limited space.
Last night I also bought the image above by a favorite graphic artist of mine: Darth Neph and just added it to my premium file storage rather than posting in the Stream. I still got about 30 megabytes left on it. I'm trying to reserve that for things that are not clearly gothic in theme or have a background fitting the color scheme like the metallic gold on this profile or the metallic silver on Neowise2020 but I still need to use to demonstrate something more clearly. Anyway since I'll be putting more effort into my banner campaign I need to update my profile and put more work into my mentorship. I plan to write my own thesis on a couple subjects in the custom pages. I'm still a bit peeved about the database problems as this is something I had hoped to use and Cancer would get around to fixing. There's obviously something wrong in that department not only on this site but his other site Way Universe which hasn't had any fresh work for a couple years now. Well I've committed myself to the site like a vampire creates metaphysical bonds with people so just got to work with what I can. Perhaps I can motivate him to pull his head out of his ass and get to work. Contrary to many myths about vampires being frozen in time this is just an illusion by superstitious mundane people that don't understand reality and make up bullshit that explains it to their limited brain capacity. Makes me think of those torch and pitchfork wielding mobs that get all uppity against monsters in gothic stories.
I also bought Underworld: Blood Wars and started watching it last night. Great series to me but I have found that a lot of things that were cathartic to me in the past concerning the vampire are not as satisfying so keep getting pulled into meditation to commune with occult forces. Perhaps I'll be able to finish it today. Well its in my collection in the cloud now. Lets hope it doesn't go tits up like Google Play did when they consolidated to You Tube Music while I'm alive. I'm still salty about that. See I went the distance to include an image link to the database. I remember a time when I first joined this site back in 2010 and Cancer would make these site wide announcements like: "I am not pleased". I feel the dude as I assure you I too sit on a throne and can honesty say I am not pleased. Many don't see it in the mundane world though they act like they do but as Morpheus says in the movie -The Matrix: "there is a difference between knowing the path and walking the path", so too there is such on this site. I get it. Perhaps within the void you just don't think it applies to your sphere of influence. I think you are in for a rude awakening in the afterlife when you find out what it takes to get things...again. lol
20 years ago or thereabouts, I watched Underworld, the first movie at home, on a Saturday afternoon with a couple of male friends before we headed into our nearby city where a club we were members of, a vampire-themed club had its monthly, I don't know what you'd call it, dance party, S&M dungeon, swingers club, had a bit of everything and watching the film before we went in, enhanced the mood of the event in some ways for us. It made things feel even more subversive and added another level to our nights.
Quite a few of my friends loved the lore of the film, at the time, the style, and got really into the look, the leather, the latex and, yeah, it was a lot of fun.
My wife's sister was heavily into her latex, although in bizarre colors that were a bit grating on the eye. Think fluorescent yellows and pink.
I had such a good time, even back then I was writing blogs, my friends were too and enjoyed typing up the activities of the nights the following Sundays. Not quite suitable to repost here though. Sex and dungeons may not so good here.
It's not something I do anymore, that kind of club life, but I do always have a soft spot for those early Underworld films by association.
Never too late to get back into all that, the clubs are still running, but I lost the excitement of going and never was able to relight it.
The memories are nice yet kind of painful due to the loss of the spark to continue going if that makes sense.
I guess we all change over time, even if we don't want to.
Yeah there's quite a few gothic and BDSM clubs around here too though with the economy the way it is now they don't have the same number they used to. There are certainly those with fetishes about vampires but being a real one doesn't necessarily mean you are a part of that scene. It's more an element of utilizing occultism that may include one's sexuality but isn't needed. Visiting the club scene with people that are more into the sex doesn't really appeal to me. Plus I don't actually drink alcohol and very rarely consume cannabis which most do in those places. Its actually those looking for an alternative spirituality that "mainstream" religions just can't cover that I strive to network with.
The times were so good I wish you could get inside my brain and see my memories visually — It's so hard to describe really, just, I got nothing. I have all the visuals in my head, the times, places I can't get them to you in words.
Icy blue clarity, locked inside me, seeping out through words on screen.
Vampire culture, we had the clubs, the memberships, we had all the shit you'd see in a Blade film and ten levels below they'd never stick in film. Nothing illegal — it always seems a disclaimer is needed on this website.
Well this site is open to 13+ teens so have to consider what you express. Though I don't think too many teenagers come to it. From what I sense its just your average people that range from eccentric to crazy. Most have their issues after dealing with what life threw at them just some are better at hiding it than others.
After Vampire Freaks closed it's social network aspect this is the only one that I've found on the internet specifically for the vampire community. Other sites and organizations deal with their own blend of it not the whole community itself or other social networks that use groups to differentiate subculture communities. But when I reach out with my psychic senses there are very few actual vampires on the site especially in the higher places where you'd think they'd be. This kind of threw me for a loop but just determined it is like a wilderness preserve created and managed by people interested in it. If there is any exploitation of us well that is easy for us to deal with who have occult power. I've determined this site is for those without the resources to create their own organization weather it's a tech savy or wealth and charisma. Unfortunately we have to deal with a lot of posers seeking attention. But if you have and exercise those psychic senses you can find the hidden reality.
There's plenty of 'crazy' on this site, but aren't we all in some way? Most of the people I know in real life I'd happily label batshit, including myself. I can't think of a single sane person I know. Perhaps that is the standard. Works for me.
VR certainly has its attractiveness. I love it. I'm a member of other places that I get bored with for everyone typing the same shit.
I got invites where you feel you have to join so you don't upset someone you know.
A bit like the covens here, not much going on in them but a slight obligation to contribute to them now and again.
Some places have less than 20 members, most of whom meet 'in real life' a few times a month and then go blog about it that evening. I do. Did. Sometimes still do. Just bored a bit really.
There's only so many times you can write it was great to meet such and such on the weekend when there's a 500 post thread about the same thing.
Yeah there is plenty of crazy on this site and the world as a whole but its the uppity ones that are the biggest problems that abuse their authority over others. I am now moving into this realm of authority as a mentor and vampire lord. In the past I was constantly overwhelmed as a hypersensitive so it caused problems and couldn't function well in leadership roles. This has changed and because I constantly burn in ecstasy all over my body because of that sublime presence from my nature spirit companion I can now respond better and more quickly.
I have been in many mentorships and societies on this site over the years and wasn't happy with any of them. Even ones that were led by kindred seemed to spread themselves too thin. I conversely intend to concentrate first to those I'm responsible for in mentorship then society when I create one. Should take care of other aspects of the site as inspiring activity takes care of favor points for societies and advertising for the website as a whole. That keeps the engine running for good performance.
One of the biggest obstacles for me is I need psychic confirmation from occult sources before I move on things. I've been wanting to do things for a long time now and didn't have the go ahead from them and had to suffer humiliation until then. That has been changing and my vampyre magick can start manifesting. Exclusivity and arcane esoteric circles when it comes to energy manipulation in vampyre communities I think can be quite rerwarding if they are managed well. I prefer powerful deep small circles. Not big ones for those august egos out there. K.I.S.S.- keep it simple stupid. ;)
V.R. Today [Public Entry]-Best viewed with black background.
07:51 Jun 02 2026 Times Read: 169
-I've been consumed with meditation of late. It has been hard spending a few moments here with forces pulling me back there. When I'm at a state of rest it is when I can follow the ebb and flow of occult forces I sense. Been striving to attune my senses to it. Today I posted the image above in the stream by Insomnia-Art-Designs. Been wanting to illustrate something gothic in detailing to work in the contrast between performance and finishing detail in an area of a core book in my mentorship. Having a background in restoring vehicles n my past demonstrates that well to me. It's great having some eye catching detail work like mural on the car but it matters little if the performance of the car isn't up to par at least. I seem to be still working on that. Plan to work on Banner campaign more this month. I created a website last year that didn't work well so will try another approach and got the go ahead from my elemental friend.
I see I'm getting close to leveling up again in base score. It hardly matters to me now as I was mainly pushing to get this and my back-up profiles sired to be free of other fucktards and pretenders on this site and be free to create my own thing. But leveling the base score of this profile is hard now with 25,000 page views and 100 hours of time spent needed for each bracket now. I need less than 5,000 now on one and less than 20 hours on the other. I'm more focused on performance as mentioning above now. Hence all the occult work. Before siring I focused on leveling now I focus on vampyre magick but take notice when I do reach a precipice to leveling up. Still want to create a society here but prefer it be with someone I know personally. This online only stuff just doesn't work for me. Though I don't mind creating a mentorship for such which is want I'm working on now for those I bring from internet sources.
I don't think I got much going on at all relative to others but I do know that's in the eye of the beholder. I do appreciate your participation in journals with comments.
I like to leave you a comment just as a hello, mainly when I'm passing by, even if I don't have much to say sometimes. Kind of like an IRL wave that makes sense.
Sure it makes sense to me when I pass by people IRL I almost always look them in the eyes and at the very least greet them unless they ignore me being in their own world which is usually in their phones. Every once in a great while I'll sense a bit more and act accordingly. I often get asked for directions. I wonder why that is...
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