"I Rest In His Cherished Shadow Forever"
I rest in his shadow, forever adorned by fake smiles
Bitter to the bone, sour to the taste, weak to the soul
Inside me resides something amorphous and cold
That flirts with me and then leaves me to shiver
Alone in my wandering thoughts that lead nowhere
Yet I remain in the shadow of this now distant stranger
Who will always haunt me with his charming smile
His endearing words and sweet, loving personality
There used to be hatred and sweet words of revenge
But now there is indifference and an eerie calm
My heart sees no sense in claiming my confession
The truth has been too bitter for many to swallow
So they have spit the spoiled fruit in complete fury
As I watch them drift away from me in silence
The ashes have already dissipated into the air
I no longer need to mourn in overwhelming solitude
I know I will always fade when it comes to him
"The Worm In My Heart"
The parasite taunts me with its sweet poison of hate
Squirming inside of me like larva ready to hatch
The worm yearns for blood and the foul decay of flesh
That can only be provided by its vulnerable host
For I will be the one who fulfills its selfish thirst
I fear that there is nothing left in store for me
This infection has blackened my soul and mind
I have desired the most unfathomable sins
I dream of corpses washing ashore at night
Bodies bloated and disfigured by the fierce waves
I'm haunted by visions of tall flames in open fields
As I throw the dead into the scorching embers
Enjoying the sound of their flesh crackling slowly
I have come close to succumbing to the damn worm
This parasite has pushed me to my fucking limit
Hissing in agony, I grab hold of the butcher knife
It trembles in my hand, but it doesn't miss its target
The knife plunges into the heart that I no longer own
Forcing a gasp to escape my lips as I fall on the floor
I ignore the obnoxious howling deep inside my mind
A mind that belongs to the now defeated worm
The only blood that it will taste shall be of my own
For the plague is now over and I can finally sleep
Without the threat of decay and rotting blood
That has haunted my every waking moment alive
COMMENTS
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DeadHeir
22:40 Mar 05 2009
my god, you're an absolutely amazing writer sweetheart...
this is outstanding stuff, all of it.
the images you create with your words are so amazing, so beautiful...each and every time, in their own, sometimes dark and twisted way...