Sil: What do you think you are doing?
KO: Taking a cookie.
Sil: Why did you put those cookies in that container in the first place? They where not supposed to go in there and now several are broken.
Ko: I was helping.
Sil: You could have asked if there was some place specific I wanted them to go into.
Ko: True
Sil: Why didn’t you take the kiss that was on the cookie?
KO: Because this one represents my current state of being?
Sil: What do you mean?
KO: This cookie has no kiss much like myself, no kisses.
Sil {after a short pause}: That was smooth.
KO {after eating half the cookie and getting his kisses}: Yes I thought so myself.
I knew that our words would save us they had too.
You saw things upon reflection that helped you through this. I did too.
There where no apologies as we both stood our ground, but there where compromises and alternative ideas given.
It was all mutual and loving.
You took my hand in yours and sat before me, head bowed and said your precious words. Then you looked up at me.
I accepted your words for the truth of them and offered my own.
We talked, we listened and most of all we loved.
That is what our words have done for us, they have started to heal the wounds that where digging into us.
I know the coming time is hard on you because of what we will face in a months time.
It will not be easy for me either.
I never get used to you being gone and I know the feeling is mutual for you we simply must endure.
I knew what I was getting into when we started all of this so many years ago.
I knew the risks and the demands and the changes, I was ready for them now and still am.
I support you in all that you do and you support me, you told me so and I believe you.
I have found cherished warmth within your arms and words and seek shelter within your strength.
You say my words are poetic they are not to me. They simply are how I express the things I need to say.
There is no rhyme or reason, there is only the want to please you and be with you.
There will be times that I will not like you very much, that is only natural, but never doubt my love for you.
You are my soldier and I love you.
We have been fighting for hours.
I am chilled to the bone.
The tomb of the van echoes the silence within and the passing traffic outside.
Not even the falling rain comforts me right now.
Upon walking into our home you placed a gift upon my chair.
I asked why and you gave some excuse, I didn't bite.
I asked again and you joked it off that I knew what it was anyways, that you felt I thought you had not gotten it.
I know what is in it yes; I can feel the shape of it through the wrappings.
Yes it is exactly what I asked for I know this without asking.
What I want to know is why? Why now?
I asked again and you stated simply, that you felt I didn't like you anymore and you want me to like you.
Those words tormented me for about an hour until I could formulate a response.
Your words twisted within me more brutally then a knife.
I do not want your gifts of bribery for my affections.
I will not accept them.
We have fought and argued and used our words.
Feelings where hurt as truths where told on both sides.
We both felt the lashing out of the emotional whip.
Do not placate me with your gifts.
Words got us to this point and our words have to save us.
Save the gift for its true intent.
Share your words with me now, that is what I ask and what I need.
I told you honestly and plainly, if we can't talk through these times and moments, then there is nothing here for us.
I will not let our relationship be shadowed by bribes.
I will not go there, no, I refuse I cant...No.
We will work this out together; there will not be substitutes.
I love you too much to cheapen our marriage like that and I wont let you bring us to that level.
I am cold and I do not know where to turn for warmth anymore.
COMMENTS
Wow.. that's really deep..I almost started crying :[
I wish I had known you before. I feel so sad for you right now but I feel I cannot do anything. I am sorry you hurt. *hugs*
While these words are the words of hurt, I see the hope that your want/demand will create. The strength that it took to say them, and the peace that after they have been met that you both will feel.
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sahahria
14:21 Dec 31 2008
Heh :D
LadyChordewa
04:02 Jan 03 2009
Joli
22:43 Jan 05 2009
*stands and applauds* That was well played!