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This song was dedicated to me by Khornesone. : hugs him tightly:







Something More by Ryan Malcolm



I don't think that I can tell you what this means to me

But here I am so hard to believe

That I am standing here that I've come this far

But you always said have faith in who you are



I want to take this time to thank you for the love you gave

And from this moment you've got to know.

I never wanted something more and I never felt so sure

Cause now I've got this chance to be everything you saw in me.

And even more then I ever dreamed before

As long as you are here with me

I know that I can be something more.



Looking back now it's so clear to me

That you where sent to shape my destiny

There where times when I was ready to walk away

But you gave me strength to face another day



I want to take this time to thank you for the love you gave

And from this moment you've got to know

I never wanted something more and I never felt so sure

Cause now I've got this chance to be everything you saw in me

And even more then I ever dreamed before

As long as you are here with me

I know that I can be something more.



I'm reaching for the sky,

Won't let this chance to go by.

I've waited all my life for something more.

Now's the time your going to see

From this moment you're going to know



I never wanted something more and I never felt so sure

Cause now I've got this chance to be

Everything you saw in me.

And even more then I ever dreamed before

As long as you are here with me

I know that I can be something more.



You make me want to be something more..

You make me want to be something more.







Special thanks to Chordewa for the youtube video.

So here is a funny story for you.



Ok so..Alexis, my 14 year old 8th grader, turns to her brother causaly and says.. "Remind me what a verb is."



Iaelan, my 11 year old adhd 5th grader, says to her "A verb is an action word. "



Stupid.. says to her brother.. "Can you give me an example?"



So he scoots his computer chair back and faces her, brings his knee to his chest and ball kicks her chair almost out from under her. All the while saying.. " I am kicking your chair."



There was a fight. I had to break it up... AFTER I quit laughing.



I thought she was going to tear his headoff.



I told her "You did ask for an example." She shouted at me that he could have "TOLD" her one.



He responded before I could.. "Actions speak louder then words."



I was so proud of him.

After many years of contemplation, and discussion, it has been decided.

I am going to put together a book of my writings.

This has been a long time coming and I have Khornesone's support on it. He thinks that it is actually a good idea. Go figure. :)



After the two most recent pieces that I have done, that are not posted here on VR. I felt that it is time.



I do not know how long this book will be, or the page count. But I have the title and the theme and that is often times the hardest part about writing a book. Or should I say, compiling a book together.



I have been published a few times already, nothing major really, so that does not worry me. People will either read or not read it as they see fit, I am not worried about any of that. I simply want to do it so that I can say I did and it was good in my eyes. J



Wish me luck.

To sleep, I tried that once.



Once there was warmth within the cold that is my room, warmth that was you.



Once there was a feeling of peacefulness and shelter, in a chamber that feels like a cave in the dead of winter.



Your warmth is so greatly missed that it reduces me to tears, they drop, they fall and they tumble from weary eyes to barely warm flesh.



Sleep this thing eludes me at best.



I read and I write and I paint, I loose myself into the hours long after the children slumber within their beds.



Sleep I long for and when found, its grasp upon me is like a barely escapable prison.



My only shelter is my dreams of you, of your warmth, your touch and your voice.



Calling to me from within dreams and sheltering me, protecting me, giving unto me the peace that I need.



Tossing and turning, covers discarded a bed in disarray.



Sleep eludes me, ever tempting me in the hours of the day but when I reach for it I am left abandoned and helpless.



Reminded of the things that must be done and accomplished.



Things can be done and taken to bring a peaceful slumber unto my soul, but they are not what I want.



Sleep, this thing of rest and relaxation, allowing my body to refresh.



I will try again to attain this thing that is needed.



Struggle with it I will, until you are home and once more your warmth lulls me into the depths of slumber at peace.



Once more I will seek sleep this night for I know that it is just as hard upon you.



I will see you in our dreams, which is all that I can do.

A conversation I had recently reminded me of this and so I am posting it here to be remembered. Not just by me but shared with others as well. It is deffinatly something to think on.







We have such a great capacity within us for some truly great things, some truly horrible things as well. What we do with our lives helps us fill that capacity to overflowing. When you are gone what will others say of you? How will you fill that void within? I choose to be filled with great things for after all, we are only given as much as we can handle in this life, and not a single drop more.

A time too short

By Denise Davio



Fingers touch and a smile lights up your face.

Skin caressed and you turn towards me.

Eyes of hazel fire closed so that you will not see them reduced to liquid tears.

You’re touch upon my cheek, a treasured moment not soon forgotten.

Sound is drowned out, as all I hear is your voice.

The sweet sounds of your masculine tones as you sing softly to me.

Oh how I wish this were a dream that I would not wake from any time soon.

Head bowed as the soft patter of tears fall upon your shirt.

Lost in this moment and then brought harshly back to the reality of it.

The noise crashes in upon me, waking me to the place that I am in.

Standing at your side as you prepare to go through airport security.

Fingers unwilling to release your hand.

Instinctively I have clutched it within my own.

Please do not go, stay with me…words that die upon my lips.

I know that they are unfair; you did not choose this.

This is one of the many things that we endure.

Thank you for coming home, even if only for 30 days.

It has done my heart good to see you.

The children needed this as well.

We miss you already and long for your return…

Home to your family…

5 years ago today I said the following things to you.. they are still just as true.. 5 years and many, many more to come my Love...



I Denise Ray Walton join you Matthew Alan Davio not as one man and one woman in bonds of holy matrimony, but as two hearts’ that have loved each other through many trials and tribulations good and bad.

You told me that my vows are to be a promise about the things that I will do during our lives together from this moment on. I told you that all the promises I have to make to you, you already know and have known for years. But I will say them again gladly in front of witnesses.

Many times I have told you that I see the Great Man you are and will always be, I will be there to stand with you and to see you through the time's when you need me.

I will be the for sure thing that you can count on always, with out hesitation or second thought.

I wont turn my back on you or your wants and need's.

I will be there when you need a shoulder to cry on or to lean on.

I will be there when all you need is a silent friend to share a room with and listen to you.

I will hold your hand in the dark.

I will light the way for you when you are lost.

I will nurture your faith and trust in all that you hold dear.

At the end of the day I will be there, I will offer you my hand and my love unconditionally and I will be the one that holds you when you fall asleep at night every chance that I get.

I think that vows should not be only about the things that I promise to do for you as our lives grow together from this moment on, but also about the thing's I will do as your wife. The things that I will do because I am blessed with you.

I will rely upon you as my friend, confidant, my companion, lover, Vana'She and most of all my Husband.

I will turn to you when I am in need and I will not block you out of my life.

You will be the one that I run to, find shelter in and your shoulder's will be soaked with my tear's if there is a need.

I will nurture myself in your guidance and seek that which makes me whole.... You.

When I am lost I will look for you. My Guiding Light.

When I am alone I will be comforted by your presence in my heart and soul as well as my mind. I see you around every corner and feel you with me always.. You surround me.. and I am comforted by you.

Along I will never be perfect but with you I will be as close as I can ever be.

Year's ago you made a commitment to Me and I accepted with out hesitation or second thought as well as devoted myself to you. Today I take your name as year's ago you took my heart. Fair is fair you know.

I look back on the year's we have had together already and I wonder many things, many "What if's?" many "Is there more too's?" But it all comes down to one thing, the only "More to" anything in my life is with you.

You asked for promises, I have given them. You long for devotion and commitment, they are yours.

Matthew in all the thing's I can say and do and promise, I say this...

I will be a good wife, I will try always and most importantly of all I will obey, honor and love you for all the time that I am allowed in this life.