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The flow has ebbed. I should show more restraint around the full moon, as she holds so much sway over me.



I would damn you but I cherish you too much to say that. I don't even mean it. Just please be a little more kind to me dear? I am only human you know...

You are right.



This is all my fault. I don't deserve to complain. I'm a pathetic excuse of a human and only deserve to suffer because I have fear.



Everything, it's all my fault. If I didn't have fear then it would all be better and happy. But since I am a lowly worm then I deserve to be driven mad by my own mind. I completely deserve the way I am treated by those around me, those that I strive to escape.



What the hell am I complaining for? I should be thankful that these people care about me so much as to make me want to take that knife to my throat. It's selfish of me to want to escape this pain I deserve so well.



So fuck the future. Fuck my dreams. Fuck the people I love that actually care about me. I have fear, so I don't deserve them. I don't even deserve this hell I am in now. Because it's all my fault.

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lostallhopetolive
07:50 Aug 30 2010

Dear child with out fear there is nothing fear drives us to do thing we would not normally do. Trust this if nothing else from fear you become brave and with bravery there is nothing in this world that can not be done.

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Words on a dimly lit screen, speaking as a voice in your head as you read my words. This is so boring and so dull. My intensity is lost on you because my words lack the true emphasis of my real voice.



Oh so now I must try and give my voice the color it needs to be a true human being. But pray tell me, what sort of words does black speak? Or purple? Or silver?



What words do I use to paint myself in the colors of my voice?

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foxglove
14:21 Aug 25 2010

You are very good. I see the color in your words so you have no need to add it.

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