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I've known about sleep paralysis for many years and recognized I have a mild case of it for the last 5-6 years or so.



The very first time it happened was the absolute worst and most frightening. I woke up around 7-8 AM and couldn't move, couldn't consciously breath (if I thought 'breath' I couldn't), felt a presence pushing down on my body and at times even saw red eyes. I don't know how long the episode lasted but it was for several minutes and occurred multiple times before I was free of it.



So, I collected myself and did some research. Now, many people will have a similar episode at least once in their lives but after the first I started having them many times.



Usually now, since I'm aware of what's going on, I try to allow my self to go back to sleep and then it resolves itself and very rarely do I feel or see any kind of "creature". Mostly I simply can't move and it's hard to breath by will but the natural breathing cycle continues so I know that I'm not actually going to suffocate (which can be very scary).



It tends to happen if I fall asleep lying flat on my back and that also tends to be a common factor for others. But sometimes it happens on my side, usually the fear associated with it is lessened.



Anyway, I was doing a bit of reading on it today and came across a condition known as cataplexy.



Cataplexy is basically a loss of muscle tone that happens suddenly (sudden on set, gets worse over a period of time) and is transiant..it goes away.

Cataplexy is usually associated with narcolepsy and it tends to involve muscles all over the body (hands, arms, legs).



Well, there was a period when I was a child that I have never been able to diagnose or really understand and it somewhat resembles cataplexy although not entirely.



When I was 12-14ish, usually at night, I would be walking or running around, even just short distances, and suddenly my upper thighs would begin to tighten up and walking became more and more difficult up to the point where I literally could not move my legs.



I'm not sure why it didn't really scare me but as a kids we don't always worry about things we might need to. Anyway, the episode would last a few seconds to 5-10 minutes and it got to the point where I was able to learn how to cope and hide it. After the episode had past my legs felt tight and tired but workable and soon after there were no negative sensations at all.



The condition began suddenly and after a while (not sure if it was months or years, can't pin down the exact time) it stopped. However, there are rare times when I feel an "attack" coming on, thankfully it never reaches its full extent and goes away rather quickly.



I would love to know exactly what was going on back then because as I said I've never been able to fully figure it out. I've also wondered if it was some sign of the future neurological difficulties I would end up developing.

It s incredibly difficult to wrap your mind around and then attempt to write something meaningful on morality and ethics.



*sigh*

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PAGAN
22:08 May 30 2012

it is.



That is your mission, should you choose to accept it. LOL

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Pics of the flooding today:

Here is the hail, small but went on for ages.





This our little porch area being flooded.





Here's the porch right after the rain ended. The water came in through the wall, it was several inches high outside and several more in total from the drainage ditch to where the porch level is.





This is the area right outside our front door. All the water from the apts in front of us poured right in to our spot.





You can see where the water came up to from the dirt and mulch traces. It never came in the door (close though) but through the wall itself.

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Oceanne
13:43 May 20 2012

O.o OOps

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Bloody hell! It's been storming for some 45 minutes and now there's water INSIDE the apt, in the living room and second bedroom/office.



I've got pics of the outside flooding itself and I'll put em up later.

Believe it or not I use and take part in editing Wiki.



I've been a member for 4 years and usually make simple edits.



Well the past few months I've been trying to increase the number of edits I make month over month and I try to do this without actively looking for problems or search tons of articles for issues.



Here is my edit count starting this year:

1/12 - 2

2/12 - 5

3/12 - 8

4/12 - 13

5/12 - 36 (so far)



My highest edit count for a month is 45 and that was back in 2010 so I'm pretty sure I'll beat it this month. My only worry is that by attempting to increase the number of edits each month one day very soon I'll hit a wall. I highly doubt I could ever make more than 200 meaningful edits in a month.



So that's that :)

I very rarely endorse artists but Rene Capone is one such artist I feel has a real gift.



His art shows that gays are more than just stereotypes and that we have a deep underlying emotion to us all.



Check him out at http://www.facebook.com/pages/Rene-Capone/166701226703475



or

www.renecapone.com

I made this map to show which countries I have in my bank note collection.



The countries in grey I have, white don't, red are either dependencies or don't issue their own currency.







If you have some from a nation I don't and want to make some money, I'll buy :) Heck if you have any period from anywhere I may buy them lol

I wonder if I could become the first gay president?

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imagesinwords
10:31 May 13 2012

Did you read this article about Ron Pauls' son- comments made while endorsing his Dad:

Sen. Rand Paul mocked President Obama's recent support of gay marriage on Friday, saying he didn't think Obama's views "could get any gayer."

"The president recently weighed in on marriage and you know he said his views were evolving on marriage," the Kentucky Republican said at Iowa's Faith and Freedom Coalition meeting. "Call me cynical, but I wasn't sure his views on marriage could get any gayer."

The comments, which generated laughs, were made two days after Obama announced that he supported same-sex marriage, which he had previously opposed, while adding he thought the issue should be left up to the states to decide.

Paul was encouraging support for his father Ron Paul's long-shot presidential campaign when the conversation turned to the news of the week.

"He said the biblical golden rule caused him to be for gay marriage," Paul said. "I'm like what version of the Bible is he reading?"

Paul went on to say that he's not preaching hateful dogma against people, but added that he didn't believe people should give up on their traditions.

"Six thousand years of tradition" combined with "anthropological" evidence shows "there's stability in the family unit," he said.

"The family is really important and we shouldn't just give up on it," he said.

Paul spoke against abortion as well as same-sex marriage.

"I think we're in a spiritual crisis as a country," Paul said, "and I think you're going to need leaders beyond your political leaders."

Paul had been advertised as the coalition's "special guest" for its 12th annual meeting of the Faith and Freedom Coalition, a socially conservative group led by former Christian Coalition leader Ralph Reed.

http://news.yahoo.com/rand-paul-says-didnt-think-obamas-views-could-235037656--abc-news-politics.html

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Xzavier
19:38 May 13 2012

Yeah I read about it. Personally I don't care. Rand Paul is nowhere close to being what Ron Paul his and they've both said they disagree about many things. Sadly it looks like Mr. Rand forgot the meaning of "liberty" and the fact religion isn't law in America.



Oh, and "family unit" is the foundation of any society so he was right. A mom and dad, grandparents, foster parents, 2 moms, 2 dads, etc. Sounds good to me. lol

This reminds me of a post I made a while back about a study that showed same-sex parents were as good and in some cases better than heterosexual parents.

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I hate what Obama stands for with every fibre of my being yet I can't help but feel that on the issue of equality for gays he's our only chance for a long time.



Obama is no champion of civil liberties and has time and again ran over them and the Constitution with great vigor, however, at this moment I am a second class citizen and no one else but Ron Paul seems to care much.



When it comes to most issues I oppose both Obama and Romney because they lack a fundamental understanding on the nature of liberty and law. Sadly, it seems they will be my only choice once Nov arrives.



What to do?

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chrysanthemia
21:17 May 09 2012

Fuck him, run yourself.

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I'm watching "War Horse" and the setting and characters keep changing every 10 minutes which makes it far less enjoyable. Plus they tried way too hard to make things look "perfect". They've made actual buildings, locations look fake.

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LadyDarkRayne
22:32 May 05 2012

We saw that not too long ago. I enjoyed it.

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Oceanne
22:13 May 13 2012

It is one I have been wanting to see,because of the hrse of course..

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