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I've officially hit the point where I can't consider myself young anymore. I am pretty certain I had my first hot flash today while at the store, and man, I'm not ready for this. I guess I shouldn't be too surprised, my mom started going through menopause when she was 35, she had a lot of hormonal issues, so much so that she was going to have a hysterectomy before she changed jobs and lost her insurance. I seem to have those same hormonal issues, as I need to be on birth control to keep my body in check. So, here we are, at 38 years old, dealing with perimenopause. I mean, I didn't want kids, but this is, like, super final on that front. And I just don't know if I'm fully ready for it.
Well, you have my moral support.... all I can say is... me too... meeee tooooo.... and I can't take any sort of hormones to help with it!
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Very little is helping me get through this week, but music helps. Music always helps. And this one... This is a song I tend to listen to a lot when someone I love leaves this world. So, here I am again, playing this one on repeat and trying to think of my Aunt Sue dancing they way she loved to when she was whole and healthy.
Well, look at that. My 20 year batty. It's a day early by my time, but that's okay.
I've spent more than half my life as a member of VR, which is honestly pretty crazy. But here we are 20 years later, and I'm still haunting these pages. I think back to that first day, when I got a random instant message saying I'd probably like this site. I can't for the life of me remember who sent me that message or where, but whoever they were, I do thank them. VR has been a huge part of my life for so long. I've met some of the most amazing people I've ever known here, a few I've even met out there in the real world. It's always been a testament to what VR really is. It's more than the stupid drama, the dumb games, it's a place that has brought so many like-minded souls together, given them a place of their own. That's the beauty I've found here. And that's what continues to draw me back, day after day, year after year.
So, here's to 20 years of VR, and to however many more VR can give us.
May you hold the future decades close to you, may they cherish you, may you feel every single moment held within them in happiness and love, and when the day comes that they must leave you, may they have given your heart its deepest conviction of knowing it was loved, as the time you have spoken of here, from before.
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I'm going to say this only once, in case anyone needs a reminder.
Unless you are an admin, you don't get to police what people write in their own journals. If you don't like what someone writes in their journal, don't read the journal.
The end
In other news, tomorrow is opening day for Faire, and it's so insanely weird for me not to be working it. I was telling this to Logan last night after I got to his house, how weird it felt. It's nice, of course, as it's supposed to be in the high 80's/low 90's this weekend, so I'm glad I don't have to be out there in a wooden box. I miss it, but I'm also kinda glad not to be working it. At least now, I get to enjoy Easter with my family, Mother's Day, and I can go to any parties they might have for Lucas's birthday this year. It's always been rough missing all these moments with my family. And as we're moving to Texas later this year, I don't know if I'll get these moments again.
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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
19:04 Apr 28 2026
Well, you have my moral support.... all I can say is... me too... meeee tooooo.... and I can't take any sort of hormones to help with it!