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22:13 Apr 10 2026
Times Read: 41




Very little is helping me get through this week, but music helps. Music always helps. And this one... This is a song I tend to listen to a lot when someone I love leaves this world. So, here I am again, playing this one on repeat and trying to think of my Aunt Sue dancing they way she loved to when she was whole and healthy.

01:35 Apr 09 2026
Times Read: 94

It's just been one of those days. I thought I'd be okay when we finally got news of my Aunt Sue's passing, we've been expecting it for a while as she hasn't been doing well, but you can never fully prepare for it. I feel so empty right now. My aunt so and I were so close, I spent most summer and spring breaks at her house when I was growing up, my brother and I went on vacation with her, my uncle, and my cousins. She taught me ballet, back when she was well and owned her own dance studio. She was always a constant for me, always there to welcome me with open arms. And now she's gone. And I'm left here, a void in my heart. I feel most bad for my Uncle Kerry, I really don't know how he's going to handle this my aunt was his everything. And then there's the four boys... It's just a lot and I feel very ill-equipped to handle it. I'm not looking forward to the viewing, if it's anything like my Nana'a was. I'm not looking forward to carrying on, like a huge part of me isn't just gone with her. I just don't know what to do. I never know what to do when faced with death. I don't fear my own, if anything I'll welcome it, but I fear for all those I love. I'm not ready to continue living without her here.

21:13 Apr 08 2026
Times Read: 130

My Aunt Sue passed away last night. I just don't... I feel so fucking empty right now. I knew this was coming, we've all known it was coming, but it still hits like a tonne of bricks.

04:38 Apr 08 2026
Times Read: 195

Well, look at that. My 20 year batty. It's a day early by my time, but that's okay.

I've spent more than half my life as a member of VR, which is honestly pretty crazy. But here we are 20 years later, and I'm still haunting these pages. I think back to that first day, when I got a random instant message saying I'd probably like this site. I can't for the life of me remember who sent me that message or where, but whoever they were, I do thank them. VR has been a huge part of my life for so long. I've met some of the most amazing people I've ever known here, a few I've even met out there in the real world. It's always been a testament to what VR really is. It's more than the stupid drama, the dumb games, it's a place that has brought so many like-minded souls together, given them a place of their own. That's the beauty I've found here. And that's what continues to draw me back, day after day, year after year.

So, here's to 20 years of VR, and to however many more VR can give us.

05:26 Apr 07 2026
Times Read: 232

Tomorrow is the big day, the day the Hidden Hills house is finally getting appraised. Everything in the last year has lead up to this appraisal. The house itself... It's going to have to be sold as is. It's not in the best of shape, but it's definitely not the worst. And after all the cleanup of the last year, and especially after the deep clean over this past weekend, it looks better than I've ever seen it. So, here's to hoping things go well and it gets a good appraisal. The plot is at the top of a hill, with a near private driveway up said hill, and pretty great views. The problem is the demand for multi-million dollar homes. Hidden Hills will always be a desirable place to live for a lot of people, but there's quite a few of the houses already saturating the market. And the house needs to be sold before February of next year before the stupid taxes hit, taxes on 40 cents of every dollar... I love California, but these fucking taxes are some of the major drawbacks and one of the main reasons we're moving out of state. But yeah... I really hope things go well.

18:20 Apr 06 2026
Times Read: 265

I don't know what it is about people walking along the 210 freeway, but it beginning to become an issue. On Thursday evening, as I was heading to Logan's, around the Upland area, there was a man walking along the shoulder. This morning, as I'm driving home from Logan's, closer to San Dimas this time, there's a man walking along the median. A few weeks ago, again as I was driving to Logan's, two motorcycles were going the wrong way along the shoulder. It's getting out of hand. And it's not because of stopped cars, they are never near a stopped car. It's so weird.

23:47 Apr 05 2026
Times Read: 292

Logan and I went and had a nice Easter brunch with my mom, Liz, and the kids this morning. It wasn't anything fancy, but it was really nice to get together. I haven't seen the kids in a few weeks, and Logan hadn't seen them for about a year, since we didn't do Thanksgiving or Christmas with my family. But yeah, I love these special moments I get with everyone. It would have been nice to have my brother there as well since he isn't working right now, but he went up to Origan last week to get away from things. One of his fellow Sheriff Deputies died last weekend during an event, and he had been his coworker at the San Dimas station, and his neighbor. So he's taking that pretty hard. But, yeah, even if it was without Kevin, it was nice. Lucas is apparently really into space and stuff now, so I had fun talking about things like the Artimis II mission with him. And, we know exactly what we're getting him for his birthday next month. I looked at some good beginner friendly telescopes, and they aren't that expensive, so that'll be mine and Logan's gift for him. He's having his party at some place that's like a laser tag place, but they do it with Nerf guns instead. So, it should be fun. But, yeah, I'm really going to start encouraging that sciencey part for Lucas. He wants to be an engeneer when he grows up, and I love that. So, he'll be getting lots of fun science kits from me going forward. Gwen is pretty much the same, so that's good. Liz seems to be doing really good as well. She's gotten really involved in her church, and started volunteering at a donation center, so that's helped her get her mind off Kevin and the divorce and her being fired from her job last year. I'm really glad to see her doing as well as she is. It was a little dicey there for a bit after Kevin's accident. All-in-all, it was a nice time with my family. It's the second Easter I've gotten with them in the last five years, so I'm not complaining. And it'll probably be the last Easter I get with them for the foreseeable future. I can't imagine us coming out to California just for Easter from Texas.

02:28 Apr 04 2026
Times Read: 359

I'm going to say this only once, in case anyone needs a reminder.

Unless you are an admin, you don't get to police what people write in their own journals. If you don't like what someone writes in their journal, don't read the journal.

The end


In other news, tomorrow is opening day for Faire, and it's so insanely weird for me not to be working it. I was telling this to Logan last night after I got to his house, how weird it felt. It's nice, of course, as it's supposed to be in the high 80's/low 90's this weekend, so I'm glad I don't have to be out there in a wooden box. I miss it, but I'm also kinda glad not to be working it. At least now, I get to enjoy Easter with my family, Mother's Day, and I can go to any parties they might have for Lucas's birthday this year. It's always been rough missing all these moments with my family. And as we're moving to Texas later this year, I don't know if I'll get these moments again.

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23:25 Apr 03 2026
Times Read: 391


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03:18 Apr 02 2026
Times Read: 471

Playing witness to unhinged people becoming further unhinged is just sad. It's rather depressing. Like, this is what you want to spend your time doing? Whining on the internet? Fucking pathetic. People need to learn to just log off. It's just like real life, you need to learn when to walk away. It's becoming too common place these days, unfortunately.

When Logan and I move, I think I'm going to get rid of all my social media, Facebook and Instagram and the like. The people I love have my number and alternate ways of reaching me, social media is just not healthy anymore. It's something I've been considering for a while now, especially with things concerning my family, and I think it would probably be the best course of action. I don't need to be disappointed and disgusted by people, especially those I care about, and unfortunately that's all social media is these days. Disappointing and disgusting.