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I'm reading a book series The Wheel of Time.. In the second book The Great Hunt they had an alternate world.. a world of "Ifs" if you can call it that.. decisions we didn't make but could of.. sometimes I feel like that's what's going on in my life.. decisions I made, made me stumble into this alternate life.. a life without my son.. it still feels unreal.. like it couldn't of happened to me.. that my boy should still be here walking through my doors rather loudly singing Hollywood Undead .. saying " what's up Madre".. I don't like this new world Im in.. I want my old life back