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I'd just gotten out of the shower and was drying off when I happened to look to my left at the mirror. I looked just in time to see a big black spider sliding down a strand of web right for the top of my head. Needless to say, that made me jump. My reaction? I drenched the fucker in Cinch. I'm normally fairly tolerant of spiders, but there are limits to that tolerance. Mainly, they have to stay out of certain areas (such as my bed), and they can't get within a certain distance from me (that I notice anyway). If those rules are followed, they get to live. If they're not followed... I think the outcome is obvious. When one attempts to land on my head, it will suffer.

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SinginGhost88
22:57 Oct 31 2010

Baby!



OH and by the way u can use that clit toy on ur perenium and testicals when "tickling the pickle" just FYI :)



We sell clit toys that can be used on dudes as well.

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placidchaos
01:35 Nov 01 2010

Ha ha Baby? Pshh. I'm far more tolerant of spiders than most people. As long as they don't get within about 1-1.5 feet of me, they're usually safe. I don't feel afraid of them, but they tend to evoke this irrational desire to kill when they get too close.

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I fully intend to post something in here to fully detail my acid trip, but I'm not doin' it right now. I've got a start on it. There's way too much for me to type it all up tonight.

When a slutty, nympho ex sends him nude pics and talks about how much she wants to fuck him, leave it to the guy trippin on acid while listening to Restless by Within temptation to be reasonable and philosophical.

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MrSickle
04:22 Oct 30 2010

Why not fair?

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placidchaos
06:27 Oct 30 2010

It's not fair that the guy fucked up on drugs has to be the voice of reason.

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I took a hit of acid about 45 minutes ago, and I'm starting to feel it.

I'm a little annoyed with Adam&Eve. I ordered some stuff from them and qualified for a free gift. They decided to send me a clit kisser for that gift though. I don't really have a clit, so that's not really of any use to me. It might make foreplay more interesting if I had someone to fool around with, but I don't. So what am I supposed to do with it?

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birra
22:53 Oct 29 2010

This thing?
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Hmmm... trying to think of how you could use it to make humorous pictures or something...



...in a NON sexual way.

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placidchaos
00:59 Oct 30 2010

Nope, but similar. They apparently don't actually sell the item anymore that they sent me.

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AudreyMathildaTruin
22:14 Sep 12 2011

Save it for later? Regift?

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aqiang9292
07:18 Feb 03 2021

You can use it later or give it to a close friend
https://acmejoy.com/ sent me very nice toys. Extremely fun

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I had the best afternoon. I didn't get even half of what I wanted to do accomplished though. Oh well. I have two days off this weekend. I'm planning to get really fucked up Friday night.

Having two computers running near each other can be confusing if you accidentally grab the wrong mouse and/or keyboard.

I was talking my neighbor about the landlords coming in and taking the air conditioners. She said she was home, and they just walked in without knocking or anything. To make it worse, she was having sex with her boyfriend when they did! She said this isn't the first time something like this has happened. Over the summer, she'd just gotten out of the shower one day and was only wearing a towel when they walked in. That shit's just not cool. I told her that I didn't know they were coming and had my weed and shit sitting out. Her friend heard that and said that we need to hang out sometime. I wouldn't mind if that kind of good came out of this. I don't want it to happen again though.

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KattrinaK
22:21 Oct 29 2010

that's illegal, they are to give 24 hour notice.

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Sometimes it seems that the only time I wake up from this nightmare is when I sleep.

I am so freakin' lonely. It feels like I'm breaking.

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aqiang9292
07:11 Feb 03 2021

Can we make friends

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I've been shopping for a winter coat. The problem is that I'm picky. I want a black full trench coat/duster. Those actually aren't hard to find. It is hard to find one in my size though. I have 48" shoulders. So far, the most have been 46" or smaller. I found one by Dead Threads on eBay for $101. It's cool lookin' and all, but I don't really want a bunch of chains and what not on my coat. A couple of studs or small chains wouldn't be too bad, but not a lot. There's another one by Tripp that I might go for, but I can't tell if the shoulders will be the right size without buying it. *sigh* It's not like I really NEED this I have a couple of jackets that will work, but they are a little worse for wear.

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TheDarkWolfman
21:15 Oct 25 2010

Try here

http://www.amazon.com/gp/search/ref=sr_tref_p_n_size_browse-vebin_0?rh=n:1045830,p_n_size_browse-vebin:2343349011,k:mens+trench+coats&keywords=mens+trench+coats&ie=UTF8&qid=1288037667&rnid=2343347011

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placidchaos
02:40 Oct 26 2010

I did, but they don't have anything that's my style and my price range. Thanks for the tip though.

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aqiang9292
07:13 Feb 03 2021

You can also try [url=http://www.amazon.com/]here[/url]

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Now I'm a little cranky. When other people are necessary for something I need to do, it doesn't matter how much I can get done nor how fast I can do it. I've missed half of my second class for today because I had to chase down the freakin' cop on duty today, the sheriff, to get the fix-it ticket taken care of. I went to the police station, but it was empty and locked up. So then I went to City Hall. Luckily, they were there. Then they tell me I have to have the ticket with me, and I have to have the back filled out. He told me he was going to be going back to the station, and that's where I should go with it. So I went home and got the ticket. I looked at the back of it to see what I was supposed to have filled out. It was verification from the mechanic that fixed it that the problem got fixed. There's just one problem with that, I fixed it myself. So I took the ticket back to the station, but it was still empty and locked. I went straight to City Hall from there, and sure enough, he was there. I went in, talked to him about it, filled it out, and showed him my proof of insurance. *sigh* That's taken care of. Unfortunately, it wasn't finished before my second class started. I would just go late, but I'd still get counted absent anyway. If you're not there when she passes around the sign in sheet, you are considered absent.

Proof that I am awesome:



. In the last 2 hours I have gotten an insurance quote, bought insurance from a different provider, went to the MSC and printed off a copy of my insurance cards, bought and replaced a headlight on my car, spoke to the instructor who organizes the local poetry slams, found out about a class I want to take next fall, bought some groceries, and ate lunch. I did all that in a little less than 2 hours actually. I have 2 full hours left before my next class. I wonder what miracles I might perform during that time? >;)



I still have to go down to the police station to show proof of insurance and proof that my headlight is fixed

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PAGAN
19:57 Oct 25 2010

lol awesome

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I'm a little worried. My landlords came over and took out my air conditioner today. I knew nothing about his until afterward though. They came in to where I work to get something to eat and told me while they were there. I didn't know anybody was going to be in my place while I was at work. There were certain things in sight that I would have put away had I known. Such as my bong. I'm hoping I'm lucky enough that they didn't notice. They didn't say anything to me about it, but that doesn't mean anything. I'm most worried about the fact that this is a small town, and they love to gossip here.

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ladySnowStrixx
02:51 Oct 25 2010

Well technically its illegal for them to enter your home as long as the rent is paid up unless they have informed you of this before hand and ask for your permission , you might want to talk to a law enforcement officer for your state.

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placidchaos
02:57 Oct 25 2010

Unfortunagtely, short of pressing charges formally or suing them, there's not much to be done. I don't really want to do either of those because it would just make things less pleasant for me.

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I am glad to be home! It wasn't a bad day at work, but there are certain things that annoy me and stress me out a little. For example, the manger keeps telling various things need to be done certain ways, but I'm the ONLY one she's telling! I get tired of having to tell people, "Pam has said we're supposed to do it X way now." It's not my job to be making sure everyone knows those things. It also tends to annoy my coworkers. Not so much the change as that I'm not willing to do it their way.

I can sometimes be a very sexual person. Not meaning I sleep around, but I do have a somewhat pervy sense of humor sometimes and am very open about those topics. That's just my nature. I know this makes some people uncomfortable, and I respect that. So if somebody tells me that, I will avoid that type of thing around them. However, if they know that side of my personality and reciprocate it, I don't mind it being out there. I find it ridiculous when someone who has acted the same way suddenly acts super offended and prudish. If you didn't like it in the first place you should have said something, much less not acted the same way.



I said something to someone tonight that they didn't like. Considering the person and the things that have been said and done between us, I wasn't out of line. Rather than telling me that it wasn't cool so I could apologize and we could move on, they decide to get bent out of shape and act all "holier-than-thou" at me. Not cool.

The problem with so much of my time being spent on school and work is that I have too much to do on my days off. I mean, it's not too much to be accomplished within reason. It is too much to be accomplished within reason and go in for extra hours if they need me. It's just not doable.

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aqiang9292
07:15 Feb 03 2021

Just make reasonable [url="https://www.aavcc.com/"]arrangements[/url]

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I've realized that my ultimate goal is to be able to look back on my life when I'm at the end and feel no regrets. That's why I'm willing to do some things now that I'm curious about. I think I will regret wondering more than knowing.

Last night was odd. I dozed off on my couch around 10:30, which is kind of early for me. Then I woke up at 2:47. That was kind of cool. It was storming outside, and I stood at my door and watched it for a bit. I went to bed at about 3 and laid there awake for a while. I don't know how long it took me to go to sleep again, but I woke up at about 8:30 feeling good and rested.

I was thinking about another road trip this weekend, but I don't think it's happening. I was hoping to go up and hang with my brother for a bit, but he isn't answering his cell. It usually means he's working or asleep if he doesn't answer. I'm going to try again here in a little bit, but the outlook isn't good.

I just took a career assessment. It asked me questions about my interests, and it makes suggestions based on that. The top 10 it sugests for me are in order as follows:



Dancer



Actor



Singer



Illustrator



Translator



Artist



Musician



Cartoonist/Comic Illustrator



Special Effects Technician



Animator





I can't say taht I'd really be interested in being a dancer or a translator, but the rest of them sound interesting.

In my ongoing search for a girlfriend, I modified one of those "applications to be my..." to fit me. *sigh* If it works, it's worth it. I posted it on a different site. I'm going to paste it in below here. Why? I don't know, but it seems like the thing to do.





Name:



Age:



Height:



Sign:



Religion:



Are you ok expressing your emotions?



What type of music do you like?



What movies?



Do you read books?



If so, do you like The Dresden Files, or at least heard of them?



Do you do or are at least ok with 420?



What kind of a relationship do you want?



Would you come to a metal show or rock concert with me if i asked?



Would you ever make love in a cemetery and/or in a forest?



Do you like anime?



Are you ok with p.d.a.?



Do you like rocker/geek/gamers?



Do you like tats and/or piercings?



Do you like video games?



If so, what systems/games/genres?



Do you like the night?



Do you like the rain?



Do you like pizza?

I see this most on AFF, but I also see it here and other sites as well. Why do people create a profile and then never log on again? Or create a profile and then quit logging on after a couple of days? If they're not going to stay active on it at all, why not simply delete the profile?

Once again, my brother is cool. He helped me out with something that's very important to me: the ladies. heh heh Nothing bad, I swear. I'm just not good at making the initial approach with girls, but he and I talked about it and he gave me some advice.

Current playlist:



Theatre of Pain by Siva Noir



When Darkness Falls by Siva Noir



Phonix by L'Ame Immortelle



5 Jahre by L'Ame Immortelle



Moongate by Samael



Le Disko by Shiny Toy Guns



Make Me Wanna Die by The Pretty Reckless



Spellbound by Lacuna Coil



Not Enough by Lacuna Coil



Bury Me Alive by We Are The Fallen



Going Under by Evanescence



Behemoth by Static-X



Vermillion Pt 2 by Slipknot



Behind the Mask by Anarchy Club



Spin Me 'Round by Dope



Bombshell by Powerman 5000



Supernova by Powerman 5000



Eyesore by Janus

I was once nothing, and because I was nothing, I could have vanished without notice. Now that I'm no longer nothing, I've bound myself to my current existence.



I was just doing some thinking. I was thinking about how it used to be that I could have died or just taken off without anyone noticing for a while. I had figured out that it would take a minimum of a month for it to be truly noticed, three months max. It was a fact I found both depressing and reassuring. It was depressing because it meant I had nothing and noone really. It was reassuring because it meant I had nothing to tie me down, and I was free. Now, my absence could go unnoticed for maybe 2 days. Unless it happened over the weekend, then 1-4. I find this both reassuring and frustrating. It's reassuring because it means that I'm no longer completely alone. It's frustrating because it means I can't just take off if I want to.

I was bored and looking through the classified ads on VF. While there I came across an ad from a guy in the women seeking men category. This is something that happens from time to time. So I just had to say something.





"Just a thought... If you're a man who's looking for a woman, it probably won't get you very far to post in the section for women seeking men."

If you wanted to ask someone out but were pretty sure they'd turn you down, would you do it anyway?

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BluSpirit
03:24 Oct 18 2010

Personally - yep. If they say no, you still don't have a date, and are no longer left wondering - so still a slight, albeit painful, benefit.



And, if they say yes - HAPPY DANCE!

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chrysanthemia
03:55 Oct 18 2010

Yupp. I'd regret not asking, more than asking and getting a no.



I realise that most of the time when I think someone will say no, it's my own projection of low self esteem. Last time I asked someone out, I was sure he'd say no. In reality, he was all for it.

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birra
03:56 Oct 18 2010

Have done it many times with mixed results.



Always worth the try.

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Priss
06:00 Oct 18 2010

Yup...I would...the possibilities are endless on the results...and you never know what the next great ride looks like at the start...right...;)

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everstarven
08:52 Oct 19 2010

Absolutely! As the saying goes "Nothing ventured, nothing gained"

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I'm trying to figure out what the deal is. Normally I have a never ending appetite and an unbelievable capacity to eat. This last week has been different though. I haven't felt as hungry, and I haven't been able to eat very much. I can't even eat one full serving in one sitting, or else I feel bloated. I also can't drink enough to feel properly hydrated. This is driving me nuts.

I've been trying to figure this out for a while now. What is it that draws me towards Buffalo, NY? It started when I made a short-lived attempt to move there a rew years ago to be close to the girl I was dating. For a while, I thought it was because I still wanted to be near her. I'm sure that's still part of it, but it's not even close to the whole picture. Then I thought it was simply because I'd tried and failed to move there, but I've crossed that possibility off the list. So what is it? Most of the time, when I get the desire to just up and go somewhere, Buffalo is at the top of the list of places. I just don't know why.

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birra
18:12 Oct 17 2010

Is it because the city often smells like baking Cheerios?



Possibly the mild winters, strong economic climate and our successful sports teams?



No, wait... we don't have any of those. But the city does honestly smell like Cheerios baking quite frequently.

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placidchaos
20:24 Oct 17 2010

Ha ha. I have noooooo clue. I just remember walking around town, and there's a strong desire to do it again.

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Wow, that was weird. I was thinking about something that was heart-breakingly sad. It was really bad. Then I suddenly couldn't remember what I was thinking about anymore. One second it was there with intense feeling, and the next it was gone and left behind only a vauge residue of the feeling. Very strange. Part of me wants to remember just to know what could have been so terrible, but I'm thinking it wouldn't really be a good idea to get that knowledge.

I decided to go up and see if I could shoot some pool. It was a wasted effort, all the tables were occupied. So I went for a walk instead. It was nice. The weather is perfect, and between that and my music, it was very relaxing.

I've been sort of depressed, pessimistic, and angry these last couple of days. I'm in an emotional phase where I just want to scream and destroy things. It's not really accurate to say that since I feel that way often, but this is different in a way that I can't explain. It's something I don't think really can be understood except by someone experiencing it, and there's nothing that can truly describe it accurately. This happens periodically.

It's freakin' ridiculous when a person can't even get the few people they know together just to have some simple fun. It's not like it was last minute notice. I'll give people a couple more days to make up their minds, but after that, I'm just going to say fuck it.

I'm so freakin' tired of being alone. I have one friend that I hang out with during the week, but the greater majority of my free time is spent completely alone. I am so tired of it. I'm so lonely.

On AFF, it has recently become common for women around my age and outside of my area to send me "flirts". These girls all have premium memberships. I've talked to a few interesting people on there, but they were all local-ish. I'm not sure what's up with this trend of women from all over contacting me, one of them is even from Australia.

What an awesome night. [/sarcasm] I'm sitting here, alone, and watching Southpark while stoned. I have no life. Other than work, the only social life I have is when my only friend outside of the net comes over, and then we usually just sit and watch anime while getting stoned. I want more, and I'm so freakin' tired of feelingly lonely.

I want to get out of the apartment. The problem is that the only thing to do is go shoot pool at Choices, but I don't really want to go by myself. I asked one of chics I work with if she'd go shoot a couple games with me, but she said she didn't know (which I'm translating as her way of saying no but trying not to hurt my feelings). I suppose I'm in for another exciting weekend of being a hermit. This sucks.

For my math class, we're supposed to clock a certain amount of time on the program that is the class. However, I haven't even spent half the time on there that I should have by now, and I'm still over half done. On top of that, if I continue at my current pace, the program projects that I'll finish the class without even putting in as much time as I'm supposed to have for the first half of the semester! lmao Is it bad that this is really fueling my ego?

I'm trying to put together a little gathering at my place. Have some family and friends come over for some food and fun. I'm thinkin' we could play some cards, watch something, maybe play Halo, and eat some good food. It's been a while since I've cooked for anyone, and there are a couple things I've been wanting to try. I'm thinking about making some terriuaky beef and s'mores treats. Other than that, it would probably all be fried stuff like mozz sticks and popcorn chicken. I'm thinking it will be fun. I need to remember to pick some stuff up before then.

Tonight was fairly slow business wise. We finished our closing stuff pretty quickly because of that. It was kind of a nice change.



My car started knocking really bad when I started it. So I checked the oil and found it was low. I put some oil in, but it didn't fix the problem. That means that one of the rods is probably going bad.

Today has been mostly good but extremely frustrating. I went to psych class this morning, and, like usual, I sat next to the girl that I'm crushing on big time. Of course, she's not single. Today she had a couple of really obvious hickeys on her neck that her make up just wasn't hiding. I felt so jealous. I was going to write more about other things, but I don't feel like it now. Maybe I'll journal more after work tonight.

Why are most of the unbelievably hot goth chics in the Netherlands? Is that the hotty goth breeding ground or something?

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birra
20:45 Oct 11 2010

They're not... but in America, the hot ones are popular enough to not need to be online...

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placidchaos
21:10 Oct 11 2010

Ah, that would explain it. I just couldn't figure out why there are so many drop-dead gorgeous girls online that are all from that area.

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Hmmm... I might need to seek a patent. For my psych assignment, I'm supposed to invent something. I came up with an idea and looked it up, but it seems that there's nothing like this out there. The U.S. Patent Office has something that's almost similar listed, but it's really not anywhere close to being the same and is for a totally different purpose.

My neighbors are actually kind of cool. I was coming in from the laundromat, and the wife of the couple living next to me was coming back from the store. I chatted with her a bit as we walked up towrad the porch (we share the porch). As she was going in she asked if I'd eaten dinner yet. I had and said so. Then she told me they were just getting ready to fix something, and she was going to invite me over. That actually made me feel pretty good.

I just saw the BEST breast cancer awareness thing. This chic on POF has a picture and written on it is: Save the boobies! Don't let cancer steal second base.

I walked up to Choices just a bit ago. The last couple times I went were at 10:30. That's when Graceland says they're open. I was just informed they don't open until 11. It's not a big deal. It still really pisses me off though. I was hoping to relax and shoot some pool before it started getting crowded and noisy, but that's not happening now. Tell me again, why is it that I want to have a life outside my apartment?

Today was great. My friend Rachel and I went for a road trip up to Des Moines. We stopped at a store where I got a new Tarot deck and some stones to make some pendants. After that, I tried to take her to another store that I love but found out it closed. Then we went to the mall. We wandered about Spencer's, FYE, HotTopic, and a couple others. I got a couple new rings for my lip, and she got some perfume. It was fun.

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SinginGhost88
22:48 Oct 09 2010

If there were a 'like' button for this, I'd click it :)

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placidchaos
01:30 Oct 10 2010

^_^ Thanks!

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So.... It would seem that I'm awesome. I mean, I've been saying this for quite some time, but I always say it in a joking way with just a dash of ego. Now somebody else said it and meant it. I was pulling in to the drive way last night after work. My windows were down, and my neighbor was just getting out of her car with a friend. As I pulled in, I heard her say to her friend, "Watch out for my neighbor, he's awesome." At first I wasn't sure I'd heard that right, but her friend obliged me by asking her to repeat it. This time she said, "That's my neighbor, he's awesome." I'm pretty sure she had no clue I could hear her.

I did something I didn't really want to do. Yesterday I went back to the psychiatrist. He gave me some pills, but I don't really want to be on medication. Want and need are two different things though. I'm going to try them and see if they help. If they do help, I'll stay on them for the time that I'm in school. The good thing about them is that they apparently suppress appetite. They'll also help me sleep without making me sleepy. The bad thing is that they cause kidney stones in 4% of people.

I'm feeling really lonely right now, and it's depressing. This always seems to correspond with my sex drice going through the roof. I don't know which is the cause. I get desperate when I'm like this. I'd literally sleep with just about anything. The worst part is that there's nothing in that realm for me down here (though, that might be a good thing really). I can't even find a one night stand.

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chrysanthemia
15:46 Oct 04 2010

Dating site? I'm sure there's one or two devoted to the one-night-stand situation. . . .

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placidchaos
14:32 Oct 08 2010

Well, that's not really what I want, but it's better than nothing sometimes. Nah, I went a different route.

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Crap! I fell asleep while I was working on my homework last night. It's due this morning though. Now I have a choice of working on it and being late, possibly even missing, my first class (the one the assignment's for) or going to calss empty handed.

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SinginGhost88
15:37 Oct 01 2010

Can't you just e-mail it to the teacher by Midnight tonight before getting any marks deducted????

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