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The Manifesta – Rebekah Faith

I have always inherently believed in the limitless potential of every human being. If you are a reasonably able bodied and able minded individual, I believe that there is nothing you cannot accomplish. Sure, we all have our obstacles, we all have our own demons to fight, our own battles to wage, and we are all given our own set of handicaps, and this is part of what gives us our own flavor, our own depth, and our own individualized wealth of knowledge and experience. I have always believed that obstacles are placed in our paths to create our specialized array of experiences; and any obstacle that one truly desires to overcome, can still be and always will be surmountable.



The case of the injured athlete learning to walk again is no stranger to our medical journals, however sad that it may be that it is no longer considered newsworthy. The body has a single job; and that is to maintain itself. I believe that the body can even heal itself better than most medicines or doctors can and the only thing that can get in the way of the body doing its job without the slightest flaw, is the mind.



I believe that each of us has within ourselves limitless potential. We all have within ourselves the ability to cure cancer, the ability to solve the energy crisis, the ability to win a marathon, or the ability to sing an opera. What we lack is the desire, the focus, the inspiration, the guidance, or the discipline.



Therefore, I believe it is our responsibility to be on the lookout for people with whom we share common interests so that we may work together with them, and they with us to provide the catalyst, or the inspiration, or even the pieces of the puzzle that we lack and vice-versa. Every human that you meet will influence you in some way, therefore I believe it is crucial to surround yourself with individuals that you believe will influence you in the way in which you wish to create yourself.



Yes, I said, “Create yourself.” You did not think that you were a static being, did you? Every day that we live, every second that we breathe, every thought that we think, and every person with which we share experiences are actually all forces which contribute the active building material and solidifying plaster of our growing, malleable essence. Our soul is, as it always will be, a work in progress. Just as you are always re-working your webpage to show a current accurate picture of the person you believe yourself to be, every day that you live, every thought that you think, every thing that you do, every experience that you have is actively creating the person that will one day be you.



(Work in Progress - To Be Continued)

-Rebekah Faith

Self esteem - the relationship you have with yourself when no one else is watching.



Do you keep your promises to yourself? When you tell yourself that you will excercise today, that you will not smoke, that you will not drink, that you will not eat that extra piece of cake, or that you will spend 30 minutes researching your latest business idea, do you make it a priority to keep these promises? Do you always follow through with your intentions, or do you allow yourself those sinful little lapses.



Do you keep your promises to others, or are you the type to make frequent promises to others merely a distraction to keep you from being reminded that you need to keep your promises to yourself? Do you put your promises to others before your promises to yourself?



When you make a promise to yourself, no matter how big or how small, and you do not keep your promises, you are telling yourself that you are not important enough to give yourself priority. You are telling yourself that you don't care enough to make sure that what is important to you comes first in your life. You are telling your brain, and your soul, your internal guide, that you don't love yourself enough to do what you know you should do.



Every time you do this, every time you break a promise to yourself you begin to feel worse and worse, and your self-esteem begins to suffer. You may start to get angry, you may start to get upset, you may start to get depressed, and you may have no idea why. It could just be that you are angry at yourself for treating yourself so badly.



On the contrary, every time you keep a promise to yourself, you know that you have followed through on something you wanted to do for yourself, and you begin to feel better and better. Your self-esteem begins to rise.



I've said this before. Not a single one of us is a static, constant being. Every day we are being molded. Every day we are becoming a product of our choices, our environment, our feelings and our thoughts. We can either make choices that hurt our future selves, or we can make choices that heal our future selves.



What promises do you want to make?

What choices do you want to make?



How do you want to mold yourself today?



-Rebekah Faith

YOU ARE NOT ALONE:

You know it too well. The darkness that wants so badly to control you. The feelings that make you want to let the blood run free. The sense of despair that comes from feeling like you are trapped in the bottom of a dark, earthen pit and the only way out are tangled vines covered in crude oil.



The feelings that are so overpowering that you don't even know if you are capable of living a "normal life." You don't even know if you are capable of walking around every day without hurting yourself, or someone else. The estrangement that you feel when you look at other people, the uselessness you feel when you try to think about going to work. The inability to rise and face a new day. The feeling that you are living a lie.



You are not alone.



See that woman over there? She is a single mom with three children and is living on welfare; but you wouldn't know it to look at her. The despair she feels is cleverly masked with an aura of hope.



The cashier in your grocery store who is always smiling, you know the one. She was in and out of foster homes her whole life. She never truly felt like she was loved, she never feels like she belongs anywhere.



That lady in line wearing the garishly large diamond ring, the one who’s Mercedes is illegally parked in the fire lane? Yes, she feels the demon of despair just as deeply as you do.



Who of these are not "worth" your sympathy? Can you truly stand here as a fellow human being, having felt the deepness of depression yourself, and say that one human's feelings are "worse" or "better" or more "deserving" than another's?



No. We all, every single one of us, struggle daily to keep these demons at bay. We all falter sometimes and find that this demon has gained control for a while.



We all understand what you are going through.



You are not alone



-Rebekah Faith