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It starts as a slow dull ache, moving its way from my feet upwards and my throat, downwards. As it nears the other, it increases in intensity and power. It is almost too much to bear that I wonder if I am going to die or if it would be better to just go ahead and kill myself now and get it over with. But then it hits me, sends me to the floor, my head spinning and my body cunvulsing, I can feel my very soul being wretched from my body as if something is trying to remove it. I think I AM going to die, but I dont. It wretches me back and forth, like daggers being driven deep into my heart.....The pain stays and lets me live, lets me remain so that on the coming of the next wave I get to relive all of it over again.........I miss her.

For the most part people here have been nothing short of hospitable. I have felt welcome every time I come here. Yet, there is still something more, something I long for that I dont know what. I have run into my share of prolems, form as far as understanding the layout of the site, which I am finally getting. LOL. All the way to trying to get my portfolio up and running. Its a lot more difficult when my editing program got lost on my other computer. Guess its time o buy a new one...

When asked about the question of mortality and why does a human body have to decay away. I think back to when I was younger and had not the brains nor the competence to tackle such a problem. Even now, when many years have passe me by and many deaths have crossed my paths, I still know not the answer to this question. I do know however that with death comes life. When a mortal passes on fron this realm and enters another. Another story is set, another play is staged. No one really dies, we all just move on to the next Phase in our existence. So I have assured myself that death is nothing to be afraid of, more something to look forward too once I have completed my fate in this realm. Maybe I shall meet all of you on the shores of fate and we can boldly cross them together. Problem is, I aint going to die. Someone has to rule the world. LOL