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My status has been upped to caitiff. I went and read the definition for caitiff, I'm not a despicable coward and a wreched person... ::pout:: That hurts... Sort of



My newest problem with people (pull up a seat this may take awhile): I write... I don't wanna call it porn because it's really not... It's just sometimes in the stories I write I get bored of focusing on the plot and really zero in on the character's sex lives in a rather in depth way. I do have boundaries though and while I push at them I don't waltz up and beat them down with a baseball bat... Go me!... I think. Anyway. I write this. Sometimes it's slash sometimes it's het. Sometimes there's a plot attached to it. Random people as well as my two best friends read and review it. I seem to be doing a pretty good job.



Have any of you seen the newest Harry Potter movie? Well one of my not so good frineds physically dragged me to the threatre. The only reason I didn't completely konk out in the first two minutes was because the whole thing was just dripping with innuendo and sexaul tension. I loved it. I went home and wrote fanfiction about it. I posted said fanfction. Got a pretty good response, so on and so forth.



So on New Years Eve I went online and one of my not so good obligatory, "if I had a choice I wouldn't talk to you friends" was online and bored. So I gave her the link to my Harry Potter story (because she doesn't watch anime that's the only one she would comprehend). She read it and seemed to think that I was mad at the characters and punishing them by giving them a sex life! Come on! (residual anger) That is fuckig ridiculous! At that point if I could have strangled her over the internet, I would have.



It just never occured to me that she wouldn't be able to grasp this. That's my fault I guess but, once again come on!



I see her constantly in the halls and what not. I've walked right next to her and yet I have not said a word to her for over three weeks... I don't know what to say. I'm sure as fuck not going to apologize to her. And I'm probably not going to murder her in cold blood because that would be overracting but... I just don't know.



I don't know what I should do to fix this. Or I should even try. Eventually we're going to be put in some situation or another where no talking isn't gonna be an option...



I am so fucked.