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19:15 Feb 28 2020
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17:50 Feb 25 2020
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There was a Tarot float in the Krewe of Rex today here for Mardi Gras!

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Morrigon
Morrigon
18:10 Feb 25 2020

I love it!





Dakotah
Dakotah
18:20 Feb 25 2020

Oh, wow that is amazing! One day I have on my list things to do in America, top of list, Mardi Gras. That float is Le Art! Thanks for sharing those pics.





 

22:07 Feb 24 2020
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We got a Morrigon's Mardi Gras mask in the mail for Cristo today :) He is all about it. It looks amazing.

My nephew came out of his coma, off life support, breathing on his own, and freaking discharged tomorrow. What an insanely awesome recovery he's had!

A good weekend to say the LEAST.


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MysticalDarkness
MysticalDarkness
22:37 Feb 24 2020

Thats great news I am glad he is okay





Morrigon
Morrigon
23:14 Feb 24 2020

That's amazing!





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
23:39 Feb 24 2020





 

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18:22 Feb 23 2020
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01:58 Feb 22 2020
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Wise words from Maleficent...

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ZombieMLegendre
ZombieMLegendre
02:01 Feb 22 2020

Ok, wait a minute.

If someone were to say "Cartomancer" five times, while looking into a mirror??? >:O





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
02:17 Feb 22 2020

😂 Let them so as they must...





ZombieMLegendre
ZombieMLegendre
02:34 Feb 22 2020

I got to four times. OH HELL NO! >:D





Dakotah
Dakotah
02:49 Feb 22 2020

Since Mogy is busy with the Kiddo's I will post a gif for him...

Mogy chanting CartoMancer 3x in the mirror...





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
02:50 Feb 22 2020

Typo up there from me- let them *do* as they must.





Dakotah
Dakotah
03:24 Feb 22 2020

Oddly enough I read the *do* in the sentence. VR has taught me to read fluent typonesse.





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
19:39 Feb 22 2020


@Dakotah



LOL!



I'll be returning to VR for more fun hopefully by this Sunday.

Until then...

Stay Positive

Laugh

and

Live Your Beliefs

Live Your Best Life...




 

21:05 Feb 21 2020
Times Read: 750


It’s the biggest weekend of the Mardi Gras season upon us. My son will be marching with the Krewe of Rex, so we will be out there for that one at least. Just one parade is plenty :) I love Mardi Gras, but no one loves not being able to find a bathroom, heh.


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06:10 Feb 19 2020
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I have a nephew on life support in a medically-induced coma right now. It’s hard to believe this is happening. I’m praying over the next days some huge improvements come about.


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MysticalDarkness
MysticalDarkness
06:18 Feb 19 2020

I am terribly sorry I hope the condition improves





IvysxHaven
IvysxHaven
06:59 Feb 19 2020

I pray your Nephew pulls out of his trama soon and make a full recovery,





xxxPoisonIvyxxx
xxxPoisonIvyxxx
07:58 Feb 19 2020

*hugs* and good juju sent your way!





 

20:17 Feb 18 2020
Times Read: 876


There is no good excuse for being an intentional horrible person. As Morrigon said, we all go through tough things. I’m going to write a lot here that has a bunch of TMI, not meant to use our lives as a competition of who had it worse, but an example of what you can choose for yourself as an adult no matter what you go through as a child (and why I won't put up with this an an excuse to be a shit here on VR). And instead of just giving you a bunch of lipservice, I’m actually going to provide proof of everything. I don’t care who sees these names and has official documentation of the things that I have gone through, because they are not my mistakes. People who know me already know these things. These are not things I have done, but things that I have experienced - and I have come out on top. I may not have a good bank account- but I am ALIVE and devoting my life to helping others. Some of you are going to think I’m on crack for sharing such official paperwork here, but I’m telling you…I don’t care who knows. I live my life on the up and up, completely different than what I have gone through. My community knows who I am.

*****

I’m not going to give you every detail of my life, but I’ll tell you after a very rocky road as a small child, my biological mother dumped my brother and I with strangers. We were abandoned. My brother remembered a phone number that those strangers called who were able to get in touch with my father who came to get us after a while.

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My dad was a good guy, but he was an alcoholic and had really bad judgement with women. As if my mother wasn’t bad enough, my new stepmother beat the crap out of me constantly. I was seven and eight years old, and I had to endure a lot of her wild mood swings that would end in me being constantly hurt physically. I would be asleep in bed and she ripped me out onto the floor and kicked me all the way into the kitchen. She’d pull out every dish, pot, pan, item of silverware… And tell me to wash it all. Because she was mentally unstable, she eventually committed suicide. We had to step over her body to get out of the house. I was eight years old and I saw her lying on the floor with a gun in her hand, eyes wide open with blood that had cashed out of her nose and mouth. 8. Years. Old.... stepping over her dead body to exit the home.

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My father’s next wife was even more of a horrible person. I continued to be abused over the next many years by this lady, and I had to escape when I was 14. She was always involved in major drug deals (among other things), and there was a time that I had to take a nose dive into the pavement because someone was trying to shoot me over crap she was involved in. luckily I missed the bullets, but I watched other people be shot. Later she would leave my father dying because he had lung disease and was no fun anymore. She taunted him with her new boyfriend and would come to the house to steal from him. He was dying and on machines to breathe and he slept with a gun under his bed because he was so scared. In his later days she would come to the hospital to visit him with her boyfriend and they would stand there and laugh at him, he wrote that to us on a paper because he couldn’t speak anymore hooked up to oxygen machines.

Four years after my father‘s death, my stepmother set it in motion for that boyfriend to go and murder my sister and grandmother. and be did. It was a long horrific trial, and it has been a long horrific road dealing and reconciling with what life has been like.

Murder details.

As an adult, I joined the Marine Corps and served eight years. I’ve had a child of my own and I’ve made a strong passionate effort to ensure that he grew up happy and had what he needed. I am his strongest support, and our relationship is solid. I would never do anything to hurt him or humiliate him. He and I could have a big fight, but our relationship is sacred and I would never do anything to cause him any kind of harm. He graduated high school valedictorian, joined the Louisiana National Guard, and got a full scholarship to Loyola University in New Orleans. He will graduate with two bachelors degrees in just two more years. I broke that cycle like the bitch that it is.

I am a Court Appointed Special Advocate for Children. This is a volunteer position where I take on cases of foster children- make home visits, call each week, interview doctors, teachers, school counselors… And show up at all their court dates to advocate on their behalf and ensure the best thing happens for them. I’ve been involved in family reunification and adoptions through these cases. I know what it feels like to grow up in a horrible situation, and I’m gonna do everything I can to help kids for going through the same things.

As a person in general, I have pretty good intuition. I don’t take out any of my hardships on other people. I’ve gone through a lot, but I judge each person on their own merit. I do the right thing because it’s *right*.

When you go through a lot of crap, you know how bad it is, and you’re not interested in continually putting that back out into the world. You want things to be better. And to think, I have left a *LOT* out here of things that I experienced when I was a child.

*****

All that being said, you can say whatever you want about what you’ve gone through in your life in your Vampire Rave journal, and it’s never going to be a good excuse to come here and be the biggest asshole you can be.

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Morrigon
Morrigon
22:19 Feb 18 2020

Your story is something I cannot even imagine. I've seen glimpses of your son growing up the past 15 years (FIFTEEN YEARS?!?!) and everyone who has seen your dynamic knows this kid is so lucky to have a mom as enthusiastic as you. You're so proud of him and you have every reason to be. You're a light in the dark and not just a candlelight or a soft glow, you're usually soft spoken but anyone who knows you, even just a little, knows that the light is a blazing fire within you.
I've come to you multiple times, once not too long ago, because I needed someone to set me straight, and you did in your usual gentle way.

It kills me to know the pain you've gone through because for well over a decade now I've seen how you conduct yourself and you do SO MUCH to give to people. You give without needing anything in return. You do the right thing just because you want too.

Thank you





XWillowRoseX
XWillowRoseX
22:23 Feb 18 2020

I just hope I can raise my daughter right and give her all she deserves. You are a very strong woman and a brave one at that. You have proven that no matter what happens to you in life you are in charge how you make it good or bad when you grow up and move on with life. You have the choice and no one can make it for you to get up and dust yourself off and keep going. I have you and hold you in high regards and very much respect.





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
22:35 Feb 18 2020

As adults, we are all in control of what we do. To put it out there that it’s impossible to be anything different than our circumstances is the largest line of shit ever laid out. I am in charge and in control of what I do. I may not have control over my nightmares, but when I’m awake… My life is mine. There are countless people all of the world that are doing the same thing. Making sure their lives are lived differently because they know what the other side of the fence is all about- and they wouldn’t want to perpetuate it.





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
22:42 Feb 18 2020





Crowscat
Crowscat
01:48 Feb 19 2020

Thank you Heidi♡ You inspire in ways you don't even realize. You are simply Amazing!





 

Who are you in this bunch?...

19:25 Feb 15 2020
Times Read: 923


“Some people make things happen. Some people watch things happen. And then there are those who wonder, 'What the hell just happened?” -Carroll Bryant

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Crowscat
Crowscat
20:05 Feb 15 2020

☆☆☆☆☆

Yup. It's that good LOL





ZombieMLegendre
ZombieMLegendre
20:35 Feb 15 2020

I think I can safely say that I'm in all three categories. I suppose it depends on what things are happening.





 

04:04 Feb 15 2020
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If you’re a walker, consider loading the “Achievement” app on your phone. It connects to Fitbit, Apple Watch, and other devices that track your steps so you can earn points with them that eventually mean cash. Very little money and takes a shitload of time- but still worth it to me. I was just able to buy myself a cheap tarot deck I wanted with it. When I say little money- took me 8 months to get $10. So with a small balance on PayPal and a $5 thrown in from my husband, I got the deck. It’s the John Bauer Tarot- one I’ve wanted for a bit now.

Happy Valentine’s Day!


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Morrigon
Morrigon
04:11 Feb 15 2020

How do you cope with leg pain? I love walking but I put myself out of function for two weeks after my knee blew out. Feh...





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
04:19 Feb 15 2020

Well, I’m a complete idiot on that front so I can’t give any advice.

I dont listen to my pain because I don’t always know what is Fibromyalgia related or something else. Over the summer I’m pretty sure I had a stress fracture that I kept pushing through on a 20 mile day. Then... I had to use a cane for several weeks. Right now I am just doing 2-3K steps, coming back inside and resting a while, then going back out. I try to break my steps up over 3 trips outside currently. Gives me time to be sure I’m good. Then I get more steps inside just by going up and down our stairs doing stuff around the house.





Morrigon
Morrigon
04:28 Feb 15 2020

I'm having such a hard time fitting working out into my schedule. I know that is a cop out, I miss it.. I'm getting MAYBE 3,000 a day. It's bad.





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
04:30 Feb 15 2020

You have to be still to work on those masks. And you’re working a LOT.





Earthgrinder
Earthgrinder
04:48 Feb 15 2020

A Harvard study was done a while back for optimal steps. It came out to 6500 which is about 2.7 miles. Which for me is consistently doable and takes about a n hour. I founund these days 8 miles is my outer limit any more than that and my ankles don't work well. It is all a matter of making time or breaking up the time also a very good form of meditation.





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
05:22 Feb 15 2020

I have always heard it to be 10K steps. So that’s my daily goal. I currently average about 15K though.





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
17:01 Feb 15 2020



I read 'Walker'....Thought of Z Nation...



Hey, don't judge me.

I'm someone's GrandFather!





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
20:50 Feb 18 2020

That’s me!





 

04:26 Feb 14 2020
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“She absolved you of your sins- then encouraged you to commit them again.”


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21:48 Feb 13 2020
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I started binge-watching Mayans MC on Hulu... wanted to catch up with the show before season 3 starts (whenever that happens), but damn it- Hulu doesn't have season 2 :( Need to find some sketchy place online to watch the second season.


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LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
22:00 Feb 13 2020



"Need to find some sketchy place online to watch the second season"?





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
04:27 Feb 14 2020

That’s right!





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
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03:48 Feb 11 2020
Times Read: 1,050


Got a new foster case today. Fourth one since becoming a CASA. Time is flying... I only hope this one can end as good as our last 3.

*****

I wish I had Key Lime Pie right now.


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A quote I shared recently on Facebook that I can't stop loving...

03:33 Feb 10 2020
Times Read: 1,087


"I'd rather shoot for the moon and miss than aim for the gutter and make it." -Danny Trejo

That's right, Danny!


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LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
06:43 Feb 10 2020





rav3nb1rd
rav3nb1rd
09:37 Aug 02 2022

I had to look up who Danny Trejo was. My family just calls him Machete





 

03:01 Feb 10 2020
Times Read: 1,098


We were all over the place today doing stuff, to the degree I rounded up 5 miles on my Fitbit without going to exercise specifically. I think a good day is being able to do that if you can "on accident", heh.


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SedeDeSangue
SedeDeSangue
03:05 Feb 10 2020

I have done that already. Didn’t realize how “active” I really was until I got mine.





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
03:12 Feb 10 2020





Morrigon
Morrigon
03:20 Feb 10 2020

Nice! I've been slacking :(





 

03:15 Feb 04 2020
Times Read: 1,131


On Saturday, my husband, son, and I were initiated into the Independent Order of Odd Fellows. Talk about exciting! This falls in perfect line with our strong need for to be involved in our community in all the ways that we can. You don’t need money (okay, there are membership dues here- but I’m talking about volunteering in general), all you need is some time (and we all have it rather we think so or not).

The initiation? I wish I could share, but that's just part of the 'secret society' stuff. It was very cool and full of esoteric symbology.


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Earthgrinder
Earthgrinder
03:51 Feb 04 2020

A Big Congratualtions.





Cartomancer
Cartomancer
15:13 Feb 04 2020

Thanks :)





LORDMOGY
LORDMOGY
06:46 Feb 10 2020








Cartomancer
Cartomancer
03:50 Feb 11 2020

Another Marine and Odd Fellow pitched the idea for us to join, but I told him we had to watch our budget or we would. The dude paid for both my husband and I through the first year :) My son just used some of his drill pay for his. I’m like... well, nothing to say no to then at this point!








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