I sometimes wonder what happened to me growing up and where I left my roots behind at. Today I see them poking from the ground, which would probably really creep people out. lol. If you don't know me, you will have no clue what the heck I'm talkin' bout, but if you do know me you'll be in shock for a moment.....
Perhaps I should let loose more often and allow myself to stretch the roots and not leave them buried so deeply. I think I kinda miss that part of me.
It is so great to finally be happy again. I had totally forgotten this feeling, but now that I remember it, all I can say is I hope it doesn't go away. It's great to love and BE loved again. I have a natural high that I have had for around 2 straight months now, and in 2 days, he and I will have been together for 2 months. :) It's difficult being away from one another so much, but I know with no doubts that at the end of the day, when all is said and done.... everything is going to work out for us in the long run. :) Alexis and Chris have become my world now, and I like living in this world. :) It is a happy place to be. I LOVE being able to be myself and not be judged or ridiculed for it. It's great to be able to love myself for myself and not want to change for someone else because I don't have to. I love having new friends because of him and I love that I can be me around them as well and they like me for me as well.
I feel as if most everyone here has grown up and left me behind, but that's life. I have the Peter Pan complex... I don't want to grow up... I think that as long as one can be responsible when need be, there is no need to be so serious about everything that happens in life. Life is really to short and we should treasure every second we have with those we love. :)
If you read this Chris, I love you very much! xxx
Yeh its a random entry.... so what.... if ya don't like it dont read it! :)
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