I cant do this anymore..you're not real and with my luck, you will never be
Thursday, May 5th I came so close to ending my life.I have to totally shut down at work I cant joke I cant laugh all I want to do is cry
the thoughts that ran through my brain were" JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP, NO ONE NEEDS TO HEAR YOUR MOUTH, WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE, NO ONE WANTS YOU AROUND, YOU ARE A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME SPACE AND ENERGY...GOD IF ONLY MY DAD WORE A CONDOM I WOULD BE HERE." then I started thinking of ways to get the job done
I don't own a gun... I have no access to any lethal drugs ..It's alright iI would just fuck that up too and be a vegetable until the state pulled the plug
Hey....please be strong alright. If you need someone to talk to and listen I can do that.
I need you to breathe, the thoughts will pass hun.
sending you hugs
Come on you are stronger than depression, remember that after every rain sun will shine ok!