Acts of kindness!08:00 Sep 18 2019
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Hey lovies, let me start by saying a smile can go a long way!
I am a person who always has and always will be against bullying, I have been bullied before and I could sit here and tell you my story till I am blue in the face. The situations I was put through led to some pretty bad consequences, multiple trips to the hospital, many psych-ward stays, on and off different meds to treat the severe depression it caused and many stitches and bandages. Twas not just the bullying that landed me these many hospital visits but I will stick to this one topic at hand.
I had girls pretend to apologize to me and tricked me into playing with them at recess just to hit on me and call me names, I fell for it every time. It got so bad to the point where I started to skip school and hide in the woods until school was over or I would explore the underground tunnels and stuff like that. Until one day my mom told me that the school was going to make her go to court for the many times I had skipped school. I was scared because I loved my mom more than anything in this world and she will always be my hero, even though she has passed, it will never change!
I started going back to school and doing my best as I was a straight A+ student, that gave the girls something else to bully me about, calling me a teachers pet, pushing me into the wall, throwing my notebooks in the garbage ect.. All because I always did my work and got good grades because I was scared they would take my mom away from me. I didn't want to tell my mom because I knew she would worry so much and she was already not in the best of health so I kept it all in and I would hide in my room and self harm to make the emotional pain go away, then I would cry myself to sleep with my radio on so my mom wouldn't hear me.
There is a reason I am telling this and I will get to it in a moment but this all goes together, you will see. Also, I am not looking for sympathy, attention or anything along them lines as I have no need for any kind of attention.Think of this as more of an awareness kind of thing.
Anyway, the bullying got so bad to the point where it mixed with everything else I was dealing with at home (which was more worse than the bullying, but it adds up)! I ended up in a hospital for a little over a month. A lot more has happened with in the time frame from then to when I finally hit 18 but I wouldn't want to bore anyone.
So from all this I learned that if you see someone as you are out and about, just know a smile goes a long way. Maybe they will return it, maybe it lets them know "hey, that person noticed me, maybe i'm not invisible after all"! Maybe a small hello or lend a listening ear, or engage in a small conversation, or what have you. Let people know that there are people out there that do care despite the fact that you don't know each other and that they are not alone. It will show that there are still kind people in the world. I mean, we don't know what someone is going through in life. They could be going through something traumatic or difficult life situations. Who knows they could also end up being your closet friend, we never know.
I also say this because I wish this would have happened to me, just that one person would have made a world of a difference. I am sorry if this is long, I got lost in the memories of the past as I was writing this. I will say it did make me stronger, although I do relapse from time to time but I am doing better than I was then. Still a work in progress.
If you made it this far thank you, I really mean that and please to anyone, no negativity. I don't disrespect you nor anyone else nor will I and I just ask for the same respect in return.
XOXOXOXO
Maddie
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Doru
02:53 Oct 16 2019
“It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
― Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy