Playing Halo: Reach with Slain, and all I have to say is that I hate the controls. Oh my god, so vastly different from what I am pretty used to in 4. But, the game is fun, and I enjoy playing with Slain. And at least today he didn't run me over with a Warthog, so yay for that.
And, it's past when we said we'd talk, and you're nowhere to be found. It doesn't even surprise me anymore, what with that fact that it happens all the time. I'm just not going to try anymore. If you want me, you make the fucking effort to reach me.
Now, I'm not saying what I did was better, but... I'm not all that impressed.
Well, yesterday was a success. I miss having gatherings where all my mom's family is together. Granted, not everyone was there yesterday, but it was close enough. We haven't had a chance for all of us to be together since Alex's baby shower for Joseph, over two years ago. But, yesterday was fun and so tiring. It's been a long time since I have had to deal with a house full of little kids running around. I am just glad they could all come over and that they enjoyed themselves.
Today I need to set the house back in order, take down the remaining Christmas decorations, since I tore the tree down yesterday in a fit of absolute aggravation.
I am so done with entertaining this year, and no one has even shown up yet. I am tired and I just want to play Halo on the box of X.
Man, I finally get my headset, get a year Xbox LIVE Gold membership, and I am geared up to finally play Halo with another person. And no one is one to play with. I need friends.
I won twenty bucks on the lotto scratcher my cousin's ladyfingers gave me for Christmas. Plus my mom is giving me her ticket which she won a free scratcher on, so maybe I will pick up some more cash. Either way, I am getting my headset for my Xbox. So, yay for all that.
Getting Acolyte back on this account. Man, that will feel nice. It's so awkward to have the position for as long as I have, and then to not have it for a real length of time.
I hate this. My mom's family is all coming over on Sunday. All. Of. Them. Even the one my aunt Stacy adopted who isn't actually a part of our family. And her son. I was hoping it would just be my aunt Sue and my uncle Kerry, but no. It's them, my cousin Andrew, his two kids and his fiancee, my little cousin Timmy, the crazy bitch Alex and her two kids, my cousin Brenna, her son, and her boyfriend, Candice and her son, and my aunt Stacy. Fuck this. I thought we were done with this after Christmas. It's gonna suck.
*Hugs you tight* Deep breaths. Try to remain calm. You'll get through it. :)
I so know that feeling.
I actually almost hid in the tub, during my own gathering, to take a nap.
But Emerson followed me saying "Mommy, Whatcha doing?" Ha. Little snitch. ;)
Xbox LIVE is driving me nuts, I swear. I finally downloaded my original profile onto my Xbox, the SheilaTankLady one. So, I think I am going to use that one instead of the one I had created the other day. The only issue is that all the achievements I have since earned are on that other account. So, I guess it's off to play some Halo 4 so I can rack that shit up again.
SheilaTankLady, let's add each other, yeah!? I can never have too many friends. :]
I had been stressing it since Thanksgiving, when Liz sprung it on us that she wanted to do Christmas here. But, yesterday was really nice. And all the work was totally worth it. Today will be spent cleaning up, doing the dishes we were to tired to do last night after every one left, giving the floor a good sweeping, putting some of the decorations away. We have so much food left over. And I swear, all that is in one of the refrigerators is soda and wine. So much wine. You would think we were a house filled with alcoholics.
I forgot to mention this in my last journal entry where I talked about presents and whatnot. But, Kevin and Liz got us a new HD flat-screen tv to replace the old box we have had for ten years. So, we will be moving that tv upstairs, that will be fun since it weighs like, fifty pounds, tearing down the entertainment center we used for it, and setting up the new TV on Kevin and Liz's entertainment center which they also gave us. It will be nice to be able to play Halo on a HD tv set.
So, I am LIVE, bitches! It's nice to be able to play Xbox online, like it was meant to be. The sad thing is is that I had to change my original account. So, I am now TankLadySheila instead of SheilaTankLady. Not a big change, but a change none the less.
Let's add each other, yeah? :]
I am happy. I got my wireless network adaptor for my Xbox and Halo: Reach and Combat Evolved Anniversary. All I need now is my headset and I will be set for online playing. I can get some of those online achievements for Halo 4 that I wasn't able to get before. All I really need now is Halo 2 and 3, then I will have all the games, since Cheshire is giving me ODST.
I want to go to sleep.
It's finally Christmas! Everything is done, all that is left to do is finish cooking the ham and the side dishes. But, the house is all ready for the people. The only issue is that it is a good 80 degrees out here, so, it's really warm. But, it's alright. All that's left is for our guests to arrive. I think I am gonna watch White Christmas until people start showing up.
I was anoning in cams, like I sometimes do. Observing, people watching. And, I noticed a lot of people claim to be something else. They refer to people as "mundanes" or "human" or "mortal" or some other stupid terms to make themselves seem different. Well, I hate to break it to ya, sunshine, but you're nothing special. You're not a wolf, or an immortal vampire, or some god/dess, or whatever the hell else you wish you were. You're just a stupid kid who found a vampire themed social network and decided to go for broke in the supernatural department. No one is buying it.
What a bunch of muggles.
We were going to go over to my aunt Sue's house for Christmas Eve, like we used to every year before they moved to Arizona. But, she's not feeling so well, so we're not heading over. She needs to spend the day with her kids and grandkids. We will probably have her over later this week before she heads back to Yuma, should she be feeling up to it. Have a nice dinner, catch up.
I finally got to see Forward Unto Dawn. It was hiding in my recommendations on Netflix and I guess I just failed to notice it. It was really good, really helps give you a better understanding of things in Halo 4. Man, have I ever said that I love John (117, Master Chief)? Because I do. I really, really do. And the beginning, it hits you in the feels because, Cortana. Poor, rampant Cortana.
I wish I hadn't returned the copy I had gotten Matthew the other day after I found out he already owned it. I could have kept it for myself and just given him my copy of Serenity. Well, that just means I will have to pick it up sometime soon. It's like, ten bucks at Target.
Watching my favorite holiday movie, The Muppet Christmas Carol. It makes me feel like a kid again, we used to watch this ever Christmas Eve, before we went to bed. I will never be too old for this movie.
That movie is awesome in so many ways. Our Christmas tradition usually involves that movie from the eighties A Christmas Story. But yeah, Muppet Christmas Carol will always have a special place in my heart. :D
We would watch A Christmas Story on Christmas day. I love that one, too.
I can scratch one thing off my to-do list for tomorrow. I finished wrapping all the presents tonight. They are pretty and ready to go under the tree, but because of the cats we can't put them there, so instead they are piled up on the dining room table. They'll go under the tree on Wednesday, all set up nicely and pretty looking.
I'm tired. So freaking tired. And my back hurts. I need a nap.
The bad thing about cleaning so many days before people are coming over, is that just from everyday use, of say the kitchen and the dining room and living room, all that work you did is rendered moot. I have to clean just about everything all over again. I am not happy about this. Tomorrow is going to be hell. Mopping, sweeping, vacuuming, scrubbing down the counters and the stove top and the microwave needs to be cleaned. Again. Ugh. And then Wednesday we have to set everything up so so many people can fit in this place. Liz wants to put the couches out on the patio, and, they are hers so she can do whatever she wants with them, but that means I also have to clean and scrub down the patio. And I have to find a place for the barbecue and the chairs and the table out there. There is just too much to do.
There is so much to do around here before Wednesday. I don't know how a place this small can become such a mess. I think I will be cleaning up until Wednesday morning. I tackled the kitchen this morning, just finished with it now. I still have to hit the powder room downstairs, the dining room (which is just an absolute disaster area, decorations, gifts, and other crap is all on the table and chairs and stuffed under the bar), and the living room and entry way. Then upstairs we have to do the bathroom and the hallway and the stairs themselves. We may even have to hit the garage and clean up the mess in there so we can put more stuff in there. We need a damn storage unit, I swear. There is just too much stuff for this tiny apartment. So much to do, so little time left to get it all done.
And to add to all of that, I still have to wrap all the gifts, and we may have to go out and get more things if we wind up going to my aunt Sue's house for Christmas Eve.
Damn, am I ever tired. I never knew looking for one movie would be such an adventure. I went to five different stores looking for Serenity, finally, at Barnes and Noble, they called and had another location save it for me, so, really, I went to six different stores looking for that film. It just amazes me that Target and Best Buy and Walmart didn't carry it in store. I mean, it's not like it's not a popular movie, a lot of people like Serenity and Firefly. But yeah... My whole night was just running around from store to store, totally not fun. I am just absolutely worn out. I'm at the point where I never want to buy another Christmas present for anyone ever again. I spent a good chunk of my day shopping, and a good majority of my night shopping. I am shopped out.
I have been out shopping all day. And there is still a number of places I have to go. I have to tackle BevMo for some wine for Christmas, which will actually be fun, as I enjoy shopping for liquor. Then I have to hit the grocery store for the crap I need to make for dinner on the 25th, I have to hit Coldstone Creamery for some gift cards, then the hell that is Walmart, since Target doesn't seem to have any copy of Serenity stocked in store. It's that last one I am really dreading. I dislike Walmart in general, but it is going to be made so much worse because it is only a few days until Christmas. I am just ready to crash right now, I swear. I am already over Christmas, let's just jump to new years, okay?
That was a good talk last night. The whole three minutes of it. Good talk. I am glad I waited for that...
It's become that waiting game again, hasn't it? I don't think I can do this all over again. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Always waiting.
Note to self: Too much "friendly fire" will get you killed by your own people in Halo... Lol.
You kill three people on your own team in the hanger and then it's like your the bad guy and they just open fire on you. Well, two people and a fellow Spartan.
Especially if they're from the same clan, dear god, do not upset an entire clan.
Friendly fire gets you killed in all halo games. Gotta be careful. :p
Sometimes, I just want to see the world burn. Watch the flames consume everything, everyone I have ever loved or cared about. Everyone I never knew. Just watch it all turn to ash.
And then, would I welcome death or suffer with the knowledge that I was the only one left?
Fuck tonight. I am just gonna go lay down and forget everything exists.
Reading over all the message, and I can't help but smile. Despite everything, I saved them all. I never could bring myself to delete a single one.
I would be lying if I said I didn't miss you. I did. More than I care to admit. The last ten months were rather difficult, and it wasn't helped by not knowing what had happened to you, but talking to you again, really talking to you, seeing your face, that smile, hearing your laugh, that was eenough to make me forget that uncertainty. If nothing else, it's good to know I have my friend back.
Don't go disappearing on me again, okay? I couldn't handle that.
There I go, cutting open the old wounds. Daring to hope. That just died with a quick stab to the heart. I cannot say just how much those few words hurt.
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I had a dream of a world, a beautiful world of snow capped mountains; a world wreathed in flame and darkness and death. The images keep popping into my head. Two girls, two young girls, one me and one her. And I loved her. She was blind, so she didn't know, couldn't see that world. But I could. And it was beautiful and horrible at the same time. Those beautiful mountains, pristine white of the snow, on fire. The horizon, in three directions, a mass of flame, a wall of dancing red and orange and blue. And, I remember, I wanted to make her see, give her my eyes. It was hauntingly beautiful. I don't think I will ever forget.
Stuck watching the Army/Navy football game. My dad usually takes the day off and makes a big deal out of the game, but he couldn't today. He's a Navy fan, because he's a former Marine. It's sunk deep down into him, that distaste for the Army. But, to be fair, the Army never wins, so it's the safer bet to go for Navy.
So, The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug was amazing. All that I expected and so much more. I know people are harping on the fact that the book should not have been broken up into three separate movies, however, I don't mind. I rather like the fact that Peter Jackson made it a trilogy, like The Lord if the Rings. It allows for more to be put into the films as opposed to all that could have been left out due to time constraints. And unlike so many, I don't have the attention span of a gnat, and I rather enjoy three hour films, so long as the keep me captivated, and The Desolation of Smaug does just that. All-in-all, I loved the movie. It's not quite on par with An Unexpected Journey, and I am sure it won't be quite on par with There and Back Again, but you have to remember that this was the middle of the book, you can't expect absolute awesomeness from the middle of the story. It's getting you ready with the build up to the climax. For someone who has been waiting nearly their entire life for a well done Hobbit film, I have nothing negative to say about any of it. It has surpassed my expectations. I can't wait for next December when There and Back Again comes out.
Ugh it was Brilliant!
I'm so happy it was cut into three movies we get to see SO much more and really get into the characters. It totally surpassed my (high) expectations and I am already itching for the last one!
I'm going to need to see it at least 2 more times in theaters. There is so much to look at I know I didn't take everything in.
Did you see it in the high frame rate 3D or 3D at all?
No, I didn't get to see it in 3D this time, but I am hoping to fix that soon. I went with my mother, and she only has one good eye, so forking out nearly twenty bucks for a movie ticket to see it in 3D is a waste. But, the next time I see it will be on an IMAX screen in 3D.
Ugh, it costs $20 STANDARD here, let alone 3D. I want to see it but it's so freakin' expensive. Ugh.
Lol, that lasted all of five minutes. So much for change, right?
Going to see The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug tonight! So freaking excited. You have no idea. I am counting down the hours until ten.
Sarcastic bitch seems to be the only setting I have these days when it comes to certain people and the feeble attempts at conversation.
I am pretty sure I am getting all the Halo games for Christmas. And my headset. I mean, my Matthew is getting me ODST and Portal 2, and aside from Gears of War, Bioshock Infinite, Dishonored, and Skyrim (I need my Skyrim back so freaking bad!) Halo is all I really asked for. I really want to play Reach and Halo 3. And ODST, of course, because it's harder and I like a challenge. It's mostly the relationship between John and Cortana that I want to explore. I got the end of it in 4, but I want to see it from the beginning.
Do forgive me while I have an absolute girly moment here.
I was putting on my Chucks, and I moved too quickly where I broke my nails on three fingers. My thumb, my index and my middle finger on my left hand. They broke down to the quick. It is just... Devastating. So, I had to cut my nails back so that they were uniform on both hands. This is the shortest my nails have been in years since I stopped bitting them. Ugh, and I was going to paint them all pretty for Christmas, now I can't.
Okay, girl moment over. I know, it's silly to complain about some broken nails, but I really like having them long. I bit my nails for years and years, I finally broke the habit about two years ago, and since then I have had long nails, I like to paint them and girly stuff like that. And now they just look horrible. My thumb looks the worst, I couldn't file it down or anything, since it broke so close to the quick. Ugh.
Matthew, be my Peeta. I mean, you're already my Cheshire, my Dan, my Vincent, my Bill. Be my Peeta as well. It fits you.
I finished Mockingjay. I didn't expect the series to hit me as hard as it did. Getting through Mockingjay was difficult, the last few chapters were the hardest. It was just... It was a good series. Definitely worth the read.
I cried like a little baby during the last few chapters, it was almost as bad as Harry Potter with some of the deaths, I mean, honestly... It was just sad.
Finished Catching Fire. I started it last night, stayed up until nearly four reading it, then finished the last six chapters this morning after I got home. After seeing the movie Sunday, I knew what to expect, but again, things happened somewhat differently in the book. I am really into the story, and I plan on starting the last book after a nap. Less than three hours of sleep is not the way to go.
I hate the days where I don't get to talk to you.
I went and saw The Hunger Games: Catching Fire and Thor: The Dark World today with my mom. The Hunger Games was really, really good. I can't wait to get my hands on the last two books tomorrow. And Thor was... Thor. I wasn't all that impressed with it.
I am fairly certain I fell asleep on the phone with him last night. But even so, it was nice, just like the old days. I missed those conversations we used to have on the phone for hours and hours. I missed my Cheshire more than I can really say.
In the end I have come to understand one fact. One single fact that rings truth the way nothing else does.
Well, I managed to get all the achievements I could in Halo 4 that don't involve online play or me beating the damn game on Heroic or Legendary. I am working towards that, but it's going to take me some time to get good enough to finish the campaign on those two difficulty levels. I cannot wait until I can get my hands on ODST, my Matthew said he was gonna get it for me and I am so excited!
I really missed talking with you like we did tonight. I missed it so much.
In other news, I finished The Hunger Games, well the first book in the series. It was actually really good, and I don't know why I was so insistent on not reading them before. I noticed how much was different in the book and in the movie. And, of course, you expect that. Book adaptations usually go that way. And, really, I am glad they changed the way the games actually ended in the movie, reading it was pretty bad. I get the other two books tomorrow, they are on hold for me at the library. I am eager to see what happens next, since I have yet to see the second film.
Playing Halo 4, earning all the achievements I am able to while not being online, which is a surprising number. The only ones I really have left to get are the ones involving Legendary. Because, fuck that noise. I'm having issues getting far on just Heroic.
But yeah, it's fun just earning the achievements. Every time I see the thing pop up on my screen, I have a Red vs. Blue moment.
Bleep bloop. I have so many achievables!
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23:42 Dec 31 2013
I guess I wasn't too shabby for not having played anything in months. Don't get too comfy though, I might team kill you again. lol
And I won't be playing for too long. hmm hmm. But it's been fun for sure.