Well, seems my dad being here is good for one thing, I get a jump on everyone else when it comes to getting the Covid vaccine. Because he works for the government, his family is eligible to get the vaccine. So, that means in the next few months, I'll be able to get it. I was hoping to sign up for a chance to get it through my county, but they only have 400 slots, split over two days, and I'm not eligible even though I am considered an essential worker. So, I'm thankful for this.
Well, moving to Washington seems to be back on, and it seems to be a pretty sure thing at this point. Kevin and Liz are going up there next month so he can do the polygraph and they can look at houses. They'll probably move to Vancouver, like before. Battle Ground is more of an affluent community and they'll get a little more bang for their buck in the home department in Vancouver. So... I don't know where this leaves me. Of course I want to go, be near my family. My mom will be moving up there with them, if not immediately, then a few months down the line. But... I have someone who I kinda want to stay here for. It's stupid, to chance it all on a boy, but my Kylo is something else. And I'm actually happy. If I don't go, though, it would mean being here with just my father, and I don't know if I could do that. It's a lot to think about.
I've reached the point where I am legitimately ready to say "fuck this, I'm out" to my current job. There are a multitude of reasons why, but after days like yesterday and today, I'm just beyond caring anymore. It's not worth the amount of stress, the amount of dread I have every day I work.
So, I suppose it's time to start looking elsewhere. The only issue is that jobs that aren't the food service or grocery stores or Amazon, are hard to come by here right now, since California is still insanely restrictive on what can and cannot be open due to Covid.
As long as you're happy. You're an idiot, but it's your life to fuck up, your mistakes to make, your lessons to learn from. So, as long as you're happy with the choices you've made, who am I to say anything about it? I wish you all the best, because despite it all, I do still very much love you. It would be impossible to wash away those feelings completely after so long.
I realize, as I've been doing more of it, that I don't like working from home. Don't get me wrong, what I'm doing is far easier and much safer than my actual job, but it's also insanely boring. It's just calling to check the status of records, setting up appointments for copying and pickups, and dealing with a lot of automated answering services. I hated this when I had to do it for the roofing company, calling for permits and the like. I would much rather be out in the field, listening to my music, driving. This is safe, being home and not dealing with the public at hospitals/doctor's offices/clinics, but it's just so dull. Thankfully this is only one or two days a week for me.
Well now, that's certainly an interesting development.
You would think people would learn, but clearly idiots will always be idiots.
I got my new Adidas delivered yesterday. I haven't worn a pair of Adidas since middle school when I tried to fit in and be like my peers. Adidas, Etnies, Vans, all the Roxy shit. Man, you'd think I wanted to be a skater kid or something. After middle school I leaped head first into goth and just wore my buckle boots every single day for 6 years. Then Chucks, because comfort and ease. Anyway, my new kicks... They are Vader themed! And they'll go with my Stormtroopers ones I have from another company.
What the hell do I have to do to catch the plague? My mother and father have had it, and now Kevin tested positive. I'm the one with the weak immune system, I'm the one who's always sick, and I can't catch Covid? Even when in a house with someone who has it.
Look, I am not trying to make light of the illness, I know there are very real problems that can come about from having Covid, but I'd appriciate that brief immunity given my job.
I bought myself a new Loungefly backpack and wallet set to go with my floral Darth Vader set. This one is an episode IX Kylo Ren set, and I love it. I showed it to my Kylo, because I was really on the fence about buying since it was marked up quite a bit, but he's a bad influence and said it looked awesome and I should get it. So I did. I must say, I don't regret the purchase, and I can't wait to get it. I'll post pictures when I do.
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