I'm trying to think of a new gamertag, because ever since I changed from SheilaTankLady, I just haven't been able to find anything that fits me. Then he threw out Salient Inferno. Inferno, because I wanted something to do with fire, and salient because I'm important to him. Granted, the words don't work together, but, I like the meaning behind it.
I really have to stop picking names because some guy suggests that it fits me. SheilaTankLady was something Slain had suggested, and now Salient Inferno is being considered because he suggested it. Maybe I should just stick with Solus and put up with all the bad Dragon Age: Inquisition jokes my group throws at me because of the character, Solas. Bah, picking a gamertag shouldn't be so hard.
Oh those new Halo 5: Guardians trailers look so pretty. So freaking pretty. I can't wait for October.
It's going to get better one day, just be patient.
I wonder how many times I have to tell that to myself before I actually start believing it.
That moment when someone actually convinces you that hey, maybe weed isn't that bad. No, I have no desire to go toke up myself, but I suppose I better understand why a lot of people do. I'm not a fan of drugs, legal or illegal, so this doesn't really affect me personally, as I said, I have no desire to go smoke a blunt, just like I have no desire to go buy a pack and light up a cigarette. I don't drink, I'm not on any prescription pills. My only real vice is caffeine; tea, soda, and the like. But, I can see why so many people choose to smoke or ingest marijuana. Hey, if it works for you and doesn't turn you into some face eating psycho, who am I to judge what you do to your body?
some people I know have glaucoma and other problems with health, some with pressure in their eyes and a friend of mine with pain extreme to the point of almost passing out, so they smoke sometimes, their eyes if they don't and the pressure gets to high they can go blind in a really short time, and one its like each time the eye sight changes even lighty has to go the er and get it check cause she can go blind instantly, like in minutes, so these people have to relief pressure or pain by smoking once in a while, I mean I got nothing against medical use, only thing is for those who smoke so much they do nothing, like not working or anything cause they're to stone or worst go to work stoned, operating heavy machinery etch
Things started off so well today, then everything just went to shit when I fucked up the passenger's side mirror on the Ford. Since then it's all been downhill. The only positive in this... Only the actual mirror is broken. At least I didn't pull the entire thing off the door like my mom did that one time. But... That is a very miniscule positive in this whole mess.
I just want to punch you in the face. With a brick. Over and over again. Because that's how you make me feel. Like I'm the one getting blows to the face.
I had a dream about you last night. You were happy, you had found someone new, and she was lovely. You deserved that happiness. And, true to form, I come along and attempt to ruin your happiness. That's been on my mind all day. And while it was just a dream, I do want that for you. You to find your happiness, to find where you belong.
That moment when you've said the wrong thing, when you've pushed someone beyond the breaking point so they just simply walk away.
I wish I could take it back, that I could just make them understand that what's said is said because I'm hurting.
I take one step forward, then ten steps back... I'll never get out of this if this is the way I handle things. Falling right back into old patterns.
I went and saw the new "Cinderella" today. I wasn't expecting to like it much, as I have never been a fan of the original cartoon Disney made 50 years ago, but I was pleasantly surprised. It was actually quite good. They kept to the source material rather well, yet they also fleshed out the characters far more than the animated film did. It was sweet and romantic and full of innocence. Be kind and courageous, great lessons to teach any child. I really love that Disney is making these live action films of their amazing animated features. And that they allow you a different point of view, as with "Maleficent," another film I greatly enjoyed. It's making these awesome stories more relatable to this day and age. Granted, we don't have fairy godmothers and a prince is not likely to become smitten with us after they see us riding a horse through a forest, but even so, they are enjoyable and can still teach us lessons.
I was planning to watch the movie next weekend ... now I am all excited :D
So, a PlayStation 4 may be in my immediate future. It's something to think about.
I'm thinking about trading my Xbox in for a PS4. I need a new group of people to game with, since mine has...well, since I can't really play with most of them anymore. I may just stop by GameStop when I get home on Tuesday, talk to the guy who's always there and see if I can't do that.
The only downside is no Halo on the PlayStation. But, I still have my 360 and all the Halo games for that. I'll lose Master Chief, but, eh, honestly that game wasn't really worth it. I don't need the pretty graphics all that much. I will have to start over on Destiny, though. And I'd have to rebuy all the DLC and shit, but, meh. It might be worth it.
Maybe this time you won't try fucking or dating someone on your gaming team lulz ;)~
Don't have to Wiggle the joystick of every player you meet. Waka waka waka lulz
I haven't dated anyone on my "gaming team." My last relationship, I introduced him to everyone I played with. He was not part of my group before that. Plus, I met him out in the real world, away from Xbox LIVE. But, hey, good try. A for effort, friend.
Just need some T to go with that A then finish it off with a bottle of vodka and call it a good night. lulz
Ha, nice one.
Sometimes all we need is a push. Just the slightest push can set so much in motion.
Changes are coming. Real, honest change. Things have been the way they are for far too long. It's a great feeling, getting this ball rolling again.
I've been feeling more like myself these last few days. Sure, I have those moments where everything seems bleak and dark and like it'll never get better, but with each new morning I'm working towards a better me. It's not all okay, not yet, but I'm getting there. It will be alright soon.
It's the greatest feeling, being ignored by people you thought were your friends. Knowing that they choose someone else over you. I can't handle all of this rejection. I feel like I'm losing everything that matters to me. In my current state of mind, all of this is definitely not doing me any good.
If it helps to know that there's a sympathetic ear, I know how that feels. It is a feeling, if left to fester, would slowly consume you from within. I hope you feel better.
I know how you feel on that, it's hard to deal with alone. But I'm sure if you try to reach out to those people and try to let them know you feel this way then maybe they will try to include you more? I know it doesn't help much, and I know you don't know me, but if you need someone to listen I'm just a message away.
This is for the best. It's for the best. It hurts now, but it's for the best...
So, why don't I believe that?
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14:43 Mar 31 2015
pick something that you feel is you, that is within you that speaks to you, the is coming from inside you, a name that is one that when you say it, hear it, read it, makes you smile, makes you say : its me.
Don't matter if it don't fit with others, or if others hate it or like it, its your name, not theirs.
Just a suggestion :)