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To think that one day I wont know you anymore

Someone I treasured, someone I trusted

Would walk out the door without turning around,

Not a look, just an empty departure

I have had many that simply stopped trying

While I drive myself crazy trying to appease their standards

because advice helps, putting into practice took time

A patience that wasnt spared



I hold back to avoid so much

Arguements, loss, drama, hurt feelings

It is my choice

But it hardly ever feels like the right one

Especially when I know the right way to help someone

Means that sometimes you have to cut deep

So the lesson is a mark on the mind

Anger is constant, concern is forever

Loved ones will always come first

I’ll toss myself into hell

Before I let cherished ones fall to the dark



So why damn it, why....

Can’t I have that same determination shown to me

Is the message not clear enough

Do I have more hate then love?

Unbalanced in the worst of ways

Is the only way I can see how

I cant seem to get others to know that I would go to hell

Just to keep them safe

Maybe theres more animosity on my face

Then there is passion in my heart



But I do tear away

To avoid so much

To avoid, hurt, confusion, anger

Selfishly tucked away so I dont feel hated

So I dont feel worthless in the gaze of others

I dont want to feel

Not if this is all I get in return

Not when it hurts so much

To not know someone anymore

To not look back when you walk out the door...

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Demonslut
09:41 Jul 07 2012

:)

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Mimic
03:35 Oct 12 2018

How would you react now if this person came back knocking?

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