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light away your life.

puff away your faith.

fuck away your youth.

drink away your days.

barf away your pride.

smoke away your dreams.

too bad all this long term pain

is just a short release.

Your perfect little girl dropped a grade on her report card.

Your perfect little girl yelled at you last night.

Your perfect little girl talked back to you again.

Your perfect little girl painted her nails black.

Your perfect little girl has lied to you all her life.

Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep every night.

Your perfect little girl dated before she was sixteen.

Your perfect little girl was broken by a boy.

Your perfect little girl hates you.

Your perfect little girl has given up on life.

Your perfect little girl had a tantrum today.

Your perfect little girl wants to run away.

Your perfect little girl has no real friends.

Your perfect little girl won't let you dry her tears.

Your perfect little girl disobeys you.

Your perfect little girl hates the world.

Your perfect little girl is hated by the world.

Your perfect little girl is very unhappy.

Your perfect little girl has become a disgrace.

Your perfect little girl. . . well she's not so perfect anymore

growing up, i've heard

from so many people

so many different things

that i never knew

what to believe.



i wanted to hear everybody

when they said not all boys are like that.

but at the same time,

my inner pessimist knew that

there was no way that could be true.



they're all the same, some just show it more.



Why, for the first time, do

i not want to be right?

love is just a fairy tale,

and fairy tales are

supposed to be happy,

right?



not in this century.





you were one of those guys

that everybody knew.

you got along with everybody,

yet kept to yourself.

you hated drama,

yet you were the cause of it.

you contradicted yourself

in the same way i do.

but most importantly,

you were the king of mixed signals

and i was the queen of excuses.



No one should ever bow down to you.

Seven people, six remain

One will die tonight.





Broken glass, one slit throat

Two will die tonight.





A carving knife, a cutting blade

Three more will die tonight.









Bathed in blood, breathless screams





Six Lost Souls Tonight.

You held me once so tightly...

I was drowning in your lies.

Remember the person I thought you were?

No tears fall from these eyes.



I lost you once, I lost you twice

What was never mine to lose

Harnessing hate so hollow

I start to tie this noose



My broken heart unreachable,

And pain the only reminder

Footsteps undetectable

Yearning for the Binder



On path to the Shangri-la

Far from Torture’s grace

Thick rope now so inviting

Onward to my ace



Hecate with my soul’s domicile

Rendered rightful by the wrong

Forever bind me with the mead

Or regress to the cruel throng

I love you more than worlds can wield the matter.

Give me your soul so that I may save it.

You are pregnant and though it be not my child,

I love you and your blessed birth.

I'm here forever and always.

I am yours.

Always remember me my love.

For I could never leave you

i wish that I could stop.

i wish that I could

give this up for good.



but I can't.



the silver calls to me,

urging me to go deeper,

just a little deeper.



and deeper...

and deeper...



the shaking worsens

and i start to feel cold.

i can feel the blood

dripping down

ever so slowly...



i close my eyes,

but in the back of my mind

i know i haven't gone

deep enough.



i'll wake up tomorrow.

i'll hide my wounds from the world.

no one will ever know.









i'll try again tonight.

maybe, if i'm lucky,

i'll have the courage

to go that little deeper.



maybe, if i'm lucky,

i won't wake up tomorrow.