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Outcast Dishonored

09:30 May 30 2021
Times Read: 76





{{This is more what I would like to call a "hybrid" entry; both poem and personal. But in it, serves one sole purpose: To make an old point known, but in a new way. There are often more than one message in what I write fkr others to read. But the question is always "what message do you construe?" Hopefully, you receive the message intended.}}

*You saved me... but who are you?*
"No one... just a ghost. A shadow of who I once was... I'm a vampire now..."

Long have I been on the outside, looking in;
Watching as the world around me
Turns about, time and time again.
Wondering if I could ever be
More than what I have become...

I have no more to give for you,
I still have Hell to live through.
Stuck in the clutch of Fate again,
Lost to another darkened ring,
As My voice echoes, now reverberating,
The voice of shadows as eternal as an offering
Of the Soul now forever burning;

Outcast is My place in life,
Exiled into eternal strife!
Once again, alone I stand;
The air I breathe, ethereal sand!

The "man" so many thought they knew
Has for ages been gone and askew.
I began as a shadow, a ghost of a man,
Arisen by royalty, became something new.
Turned to an outcast and left to do
The only one thing I could, to stride upon the sand...

Ancient even to the depths of Hell,
As the marks upon My heart still swell,
What do I deserve, beyond this tell?
What I have become, more than a monster,
Less than a man, a twist of Fate collide.
Now no more than a memory
Is left of the man I had become, now see...

Solitary in My own world,
Shadows are My home world,
Distant as the light you seek,
Amassed as one for all to see!

Who can I be to you, but another one to fail,
When all that exists is just another day another way
To view through the cracks of a world
None are ever meant to survive or avail?

The destiny is clear, that another time has come,
Just another day of fear in the world now overcome,
So many have sacrificed a monotheist,
Devastation always overbalanced,
Now, there is a hole in the life you denounce.

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"Faith and Fallacy" (love or obsession (another minute piece of my past))

01:42 May 29 2021
Times Read: 96


What is this dissonance?
What is the reason
For the eternal distance,
The birth of this "treason"?

Something in your failed conviction
Tells Me you cannot stand alone,
Yet you burn and slash, pierce and proad;
Burning Me with your every thought.

Make your claims of "love" and "faith",
Not that you will ever gain your way;
You've cursed Me time and time again,
Now, I'm back and can only give up or ascend.

Your "faith" is your fallacy;
Your message is concise,
Your meaning is irrelevant,
Your "love" is non-existent!
You call it "faith and love", but it's descension!

Your "belief" is a discrepancy;
Your words are a cancerous "ice",
Explanation, Insignificant
You're insane, meaning is inane!
You claim you "love", but it's Obsession!

You found Me lost at your doors,
The day you lost what was Yours!
Now, you claim to 'pity' Me
For all you have done to be!
I don't want your pity, I want your destruction!

I've played this game too goddamn long,
I've lost My mind and for what, besides a song
To the heavens above and Hell in which I'm ever wrong?
What's the point of life if I cannot have one thing for which I've longed?

Your "faith" is your fallacy;
Your message is concise,
Your meaning is irrelevant,
Your "love" is non-existent!
You call it "faith and love", but it's descension!

Your "belief" is a discrepancy;
Your words are a cancerous "ice",
Explanation, Insignificant
You're insane, meaning is inane!
You claim you "love", but it's Obsession!


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Angel1208
Angel1208
08:25 Jun 01 2021

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09:21 May 27 2021
Times Read: 114


The damned "undivine" and damned "undead",
Living a lie for too long, lost in dread,
Lost in fear and denial, with no more sense of Self,
Two hearts are defiled, neither one left to tell
What was left was so broken and buried in Hell...

One took to vices, gone from their perch,
And became the cataclysmic;
One left to wander, forever in search,
Stepped back into darkness, turned nihilistic.

One came about to find the call of the tone,
Turned to the eyes as the voice had deceived,
One lived in Hell, feigned love was believed,
Despite the best that was given, wrought to the bone,
A single day was all it took to unleash the devil's own.

Now, a flip of the cards,
Seems that one side has called,
But how to tell is so hard,
Will it even be again like it was before their fall?

I don't know what to say, I wish I could tell you,
But whether it works is a mystery to me,
"If I could turn back the time and undo everything,
I would start with the day that I heard you sing".

Such a loss to the heart, and a pain still to see
The lost darkest soul wandering, wondering if he can or will believe...

As hopeful as can be, but for once afraid of the fall,
"I have to find you, this time 'round, and hope that you respond My call"...

The damned "undivine" and damned "undead",
Living a lie for too long, lost in dread,
Lost in fear and denial, with no more sense of Self,
Two hearts are defiled, neither one left to tell
What was left was so broken and buried in Hell...

Damned if it is and damned if it's not,
All seems damned, just like before;
Show me the one time that it ends like love begins.

~~~~~~*~~~~~~

{Part Two}

(No "messiah" is there for Me...
No "salvation" can rescue Me...
Whatever I have done to be...
This, My penance, help Me see... help Me see...)

DAMNED IF I DO AND DAMNED IF I DON'T!

From the gore stains of My battles
To the darkness of My mantles,
From the blood upon My hands
To the disasters of My life...
I must have sinned too greatly,
And broken My every pledge,
While trying to veer from My own edge,
To sacrifice My heart in safety...

Tell Me what I've done,
What did I become?
That I deserve this Hell,
Damned to life in My own "cell"?

So many say that I have changed
From the "hero I once was";
Cutting out the ones who caused
The greatest change in Me.
But if so, then why has this all turned
After all I did to keep it, still got burned?

Damned if I do or if I don't,
Every chance I take and fight to stay,
Never does it last the day;
Always taken from My hand,
A gift I am only allowed to envy,
As I watch it given to My enemy...

So many times I have been cheated;
Every time, they walk away,
Leaving Me to rot where I am seated,
And I fall even further than before.

Damned if I do and even if I don't,
I don't even know where to begin.
Played the same old game,
Been in the same old boat.
Gained only so much back,
Lose it all over again,
What the Hell has been My sin?

Each night, I am reminded
Of everything I've lost.
But never am I told what binded
Me to this ever-revolving cost.
I shed these acidic tears,
I cry Myself to sleep again.
I only wish I knew what I have done,
But never am I given a reason.

So now, I only find Myself
Crying out from My own Hell...
And wondering each and every day and night...
Is it even worth it to stand and fight?
I guess it is all just as well...

Damned if it is.


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