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I have black hair am 5'4" tall slim and quite attractive. I'm 30 years old but people say I look 21. I have a son called Carlo he is 6 and my pride and joy. I work as a bar supervisor and have few friends. I feel i'm different than most. I don't dress in dark clothes or wear dark make up and listen to dark or gothic music, I just feel different. I feel facinated by this life feel its pulling me into it. But what really does it mean?? Hopefully someone will read this and help me understand because I want to find myself and now I feel i'm looking in the right place.