I believe, that I, am both types of vampires. The one who craves blood, and the one who has a deep understanding of spiritual manipulation. I have a rage or fyre within me, that can never be quenched, I enjoy the morbid and the terrors of this world, and the life I have chosen. I know I have been this way since the age of 13 many people cannot handle this about me, I have been alone with this, and desire to be alone no more. I was raised in a very sickly bright and terrible atmosphere were differences weren't allowed, and as such I felt shame for who I am.
I am 32 now I am on my own, but my family has put me in exile, where my choices do not matter, I feel like I am in a prison of their rules, and that they will never understand who I truly am. I curse their name, I curse the name they chose for me at birth, I was Jennifer Marie Kubricht, but now I would like to be known as Bleu Fyre Von Holt. I write dark poetry, I listen to dark music, especially music involving death, which I do not fear death, I like movies that are dark and have a tone of deep thinking, I also enjoy art and would like to become a tattoo artist. I fear nothing, unless it is the unknown, I soak up knowledge even of the darkest kind with gladness.
I come here to learn, and do anything necessary to become, that which I know I already am. Once I find something that I enjoy I throw myself into the whole process to the end, I hold nothing back. I come here willingly and I come here with a purpose. I would also like to be free from the shackles of the state and of my parents who put me here in this prison of shame. I know this is a long stretch but if I need to be stolen away come get me, I will do whatever it is that I need to get out of this life of shame.
