I was born into a time and place that I despise on an uncomprehendable level. Nothing is real. People places feelings have lost all taste, and are only there for your false sense of security and purpose. Innaccurate assumptions are always made, rumors spread, lies told, and truths being covered over to make people feel better about themselves. Conformity is constant, because we all know striving to be "accepted" into today's social scene is what's most important. Everyone label's themselves with familiar label's of others to make their life go by easier, inaccuratly assuming that their fellow peers will be there for them when they need it. You know what. kill your fucking label. Be your own group. Follow no one. Trust yourself, and those whom you deem to be important in your life because when all is said and done, you're the only one who can save yourself. Be Unique!
Even if you're winning, Fight like you're losing, thorough, responsible, adaptable, and dependable. Usually interested in supporting and promoting traditions and establishments. Interested in how and why things work. Assertive and outspoken. Well organized and hard working. Highly value knowledge, competence and logic. Work steadily towards identified goals. Impatient with long explanations. Exceptionally capable and driven to turn theories into clear understandings. Rich inner world of observations about people. Usually puts the needs of others above my own. Very complicated in my desire. Can usually accomplish any task once I set my mind to it. I live for the moment. Call me a risk-taker!
For a time too long I've allowed myself to become so easily manipulated, strung up, like a marionette, moving about unwillingly, but forcefully. I've never done anything for myself to better by own situation. Its always been the people who congregate under the catagory of "friends" whom benefit from choices I make, only to have them deem our friendship useless, so to speak, after they've gotten whatever it is they wanted from me. In all honesty, its spread like a plague, a plague I didn't pray for, but came nonetheless. People have found it a neccesity to let social drama issues influence and manipulate their every day events and lives, and do things with no remorse for their own actions. They disregard how the outcome of what they do might effect some people and im sick of it. Im done with all of them alongside their fucked up morals. Its causes my stomach much distress, upon how it makes it lurch endlessly everytime I think about them. I want to find someone who will be content, happy, simply smile and disregard all the daily drama that occurs. I want to find someone whom has the ability to establish a situation as either a good or bad one, and remove themselves from it if it is only going to cause grief in the end. I really want to find someone who I can be with. A bestfriend, a love, a partner in crime. My kind of Bonnie and Clyde. Im starting new, on my own, with full intent to find that someone who will co-exhist with me in this massive, endless, conflicting drama cycle that we call the world.
