now eReading: Vampire Academy Book1
Set at 05:21 on March 23, 2011
Figlia della notte - Daughter of the Night
"Reserve your right to think, for even to think wrongly is better than not to think at all." Hypatia of Alexandria
I'm (almost) 30, a mother, a dreamer, searching, learning, curious. My partner Mordecai Steam joined Vampire Rave... but never really bothered to update his profile. Bad boyfriend, No Cookie!! *frowns*
I'm a late bloomer. I always have been, I tend to be about 5 years behind everyone else in the things that matter; like getting my drivers license and awakening.
I have Italian Heritage, but unfortunately because it was a *gasps* scandalous affair on my Great Grandmother's part I don't know a single thing about my Italian roots. :( It's a shame because I feel very drawn to Italy and it's mythology. I would have really loved to had the opportunity to know my Italian family. It was actually my partner who first suggested I had some kind of Ethnicity. As fair as I was concerned it was just the Kiwi/Aussie blood. It wasn't until i was about 22 that my Grandmother finally told me the secret that no one else in the family knew (including my own Father - her son), That her Mother had an affair some 70-odd years ago and so was born my Grandmother. Funnily enough, once I knew I could see it so plainly. I saw what my boyfriend saw.
I'll probably add to this, as well as take away from it and change it over the entire course of my being on this site... however long that will be.
I live in a country town, Bathurst, in the Central West of NSW. I'm sort of newish to town so I'll be spending some time seeking out like minded people, not too sure how I'll do in a town like this. I really have no idea how people make friends. I don't think I'm very good at it, although people in general always seem to like me.
I really, really, really hope Vampires are real. It would sure explain a lot. I'm too old to be doing stupid flights of fancy or indulging in a teenage-esque identity crisis. I'm simply trying to evolve into my full self. What that Full Self actually entails I'm not sure. I have a few theories but I seem to be rejecting them no matter how often they arise. My knowledge of what is logical and my knowledge of what is 'real' clash constantly.
So... I'm here to explore, connect, resonate. I'm here to find similarities that I can relate to. People that will not judge me, or ridicule (although I know those people will be here too, I'm pretty sure I can weed them out) but accept me, befriend me, encourage me in my search for TRUE self.
People always misjudge me based on my looks. My interests are stranger than most mundane people. Apparently I look to innocent and 'sweet' to have the interests I do. I find that offensive. LOL Quite honestly, I hate people knowing what I look like. I love the anonymity of the interwebs. I also prefer, although probably to my own detriment, for people to come to their own conclusions. My physical appearance is not the real me. I do actually have a photo, ONE photo in my portfolio.
I am an old-skool netizen. I prefer text chat to voice/cam. I will never, ever get on cam for anyone. I hate being watched, or looked at. It makes me uncomfortable. I prefer to go physically unnoticed. I prefer to be admired for my mind. Telling me I'm amazing to talk to is a way better compliment than telling me I'm pretty to look at. Apparently I'm 'cute' I fucking hate being cute, 30 year olds should not be cute. *sigh*
I am very friendly. Although I'm always really surprised when people like me. I am always liked, and always shocked by this. People seem to want to tell me things, it seems I'm very easy to talk to. I'm quiet, creative, empathic, impatient at times. I have a good sense of humour. I'm a conspiracy theorist, a feminist, a universalist. I have an intense love/hate relationship with religion, although I'm not personally religious I understand why others are.
Obviously I love all things Vampire. I love the movies, all of them (yes twilight included.) I even love those Twi-Haters, who cry and moan about 'sparkly vampires, zomg!!' You're right, real vampires don't sparkle, but nor do they wilt at the sight of a cross, disintegrate in the sun or have a meltdown in the presence of garlic - it's fiction, all of it is fiction. I love the B-grades! Next to Vampire movies, Zombie movies rate a really close second.
I love the books, (including those mills&boon-eat-your-heart-out-totally-unrealistic-paranormal-romances lol). Laurell K Hamilton, Keri Athur, Susan Sizemore, and Sherrilyn Kenyon are among my faves. I'm currently working my way through the Anita Blake Vampire Series from start to finish.
I love the TV series' (True Blood, Buffy, Vampire Diaries, Being Human). I love it all. I just adore the Vampire Diaries, it's like re-living twilight but with edge and 'reality' LOL I HATE horror movies. Seriously, I am a total wimp. I can watch scary movies, but it has to be in the middle of the day with all the lights on and lots of people around lol.
I love music and my tastes are quite eclectic. I love VNV Nation, and Sarah McLachlan - they are my faves. I also love Garbage, Train, BOND, Pearl Jam, Nirvana, Wumpscut etc. I can't play a musical instrument, unfortunately, although when I was 5 I could play the Australian National Anthem, among other pieces, on the piano. My parents told me that I taught myself to play by ear.
Music Playlist at MixPod.com
I used to write poetry. Really bad, emo poetry LOL
I really, really want to study the Paranormal and why/how people experience those phenomena on a psychological level. I want to research myth and legend regarding all things "make believe". I couldn't think of anything more amazing to study. I've always wanted to go into psychology of some kind. I looked into possibly going into Sexual Therapy and delving into the realms of BDSM (just to clarify, this was not to 'cure' people of their interests, but to explore them fully and to help those come to terms with their deviant side). I decided against it. It wasn't the psychology I was losing interest in, but the specialty. I've always held an interest in the occult and paranormal, right back when I was 6 years old and would run around my yard pretending to be a unicorn. When I was 8 I wanted to be a criminal psychologist, so the paranormal/psychology love was there from a young age. It's only been recently that it dawned on me to incorporate the two. I'm currently at TAFE (like college) to do a bridging course that will get me into Uni. From there I want to study either a Liberal Studies course through the local Uni, or do a whole lot of different units through Open Universities Australia that cater for what I want to get into.
I am always moved by extreme beauty. Sometimes I can be moved to tears, more often than not, by music. My instrument of choice is the cello although I personally cannot play I hope to learn how to in the future. If there is music featuring the cello I am sure to love it.
I am a wery proud member of the Coven of Forbidden Fruit:
Whose members are full of awesomeness and delight!
I'm also a proud member of the Transylvanian Dark Romanticism Mentorship
I suppose this is the bit where I tell you how you shouldn't mess with me, because I'm uber hardcore and scary. The fact is, I'm not. If you 'mess with me' I'll probably cry. TruFax! I'm not scary, or hardcore, or uber anything (except maybe uber-cook). I find it amusing, and kind of pathetic, that people feel the need to flex their e-peen on a social networking site. I guess that's the RPG-mentality. I am who I am.... shy, quiet, friendly, yearning to be loved, frightened, easily intimidated, not looking to start stuff with ANYONE EVER.
A note on ratings.
I do not expect auto-10's but if you want to give me one, that'd be ACE!!! I'll probably give you a 10 just for visiting my profile lol :)
I will rate you a 10 if you've put a semblance of effort into your profile. If you are new (or even not so new) and your profile is blank you will be down-rated. If you have "Under Construction" or something to that effect you will probably get an 8 or a 9.
If i see profiles that deserve 1/2/3/4 I wont rate you at all. 5 or 6 is the lowest I really go. Unless I'm feeling narky and your profile is exceptionally rude. This RARELY happens. If you're upset or unsure of why I rated you a less-than-10 shoot me an email. I'm actually really nice, and I will tell you exactly why I rated you so. If I rated you poorly for no apparent reason I will appologise and rate you better the 2nd time around.
You are The Lovers
Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.
The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.
Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.
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Oh, And One Last Thing
If you happen to add me to your friend list, stalk me, or add my journal - please let me know so that I may return the favour.
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