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This is not my first time on this site. I may come and go but I always find my way back. Every time I find my way back it feels like coming home. I learned about myself here, I have grown here and through some of the darkest times in my life this is where I found support. I have returned here the same way I found myself here the very first time. I'm broken. I'm jaded. I'm missing a few more pieces than I was the first time I came here, but I am home.

I like to learn. I believe when we stop learning, we become stagnant and we stop growing. I'm shy. I'm quiet and I am a bit introverted. I don't usually turn down conversation though. I enjoy reading. I love to craft and have many different crafts I enjoy, from fiber arts to stained glass.

I love music. It's how I experience the world around me. Often times I can communicate better with music than I can in other ways. I may not be able to name or describe what I am feeling but I can always give you a song that will tell you what I am feeling, even if it's not always upfront about how it correlates.

I tend to lean into the darkness. I have a dark dry sense of humor and I understand that can rub some people the wrong way. I seek comfort in the night because I can let the mask fall. In the night I don't have to pretend. I can feel what I need to feel. I can express my emotions freely. I can find peace and comfort. When morning comes and light is breaking through, that mask can go back in place. The painted on smile can return. The hollow responses of "I'm good." "I'm fine." may taste bitter on the tongue but I don't trust others with my emotions.