all the tears i've cried ... was because i was foolish enough to die inside
Please, come into my home and let me tell you a little about myself. I am a 26 year old, single mother of three. They are my life and soul. I have two boys age 6 months and 3 years. I also have my little princess, my 9 year old. I call her my savior, considering if I hadn’t had her at 17, I would have been involved in a lot of bad things. I was truly blessed with wonderful kids.
I have lived through horrors in my life, from being raped when I was 10, to being assaulted by an unknown assailant (possibly sent by my husband) which currently left me almost completely blind in one eye and totally deaf in that same ear. I have handled the troubles in my life several ways. Through cutting, drugs and alcohol and I was proud that I went to rehab three times and here it is, 6 years later and I am clean and sober. I hit my lowest of all lows but this time I came out upright on the other side, not broken. I know I am stronger, due to the trials in my life so far, which is why I wish to help any kids that are seemingly going down the same road.
I realize that I am never going to be the same person I was, but that is what life is about, growing and learning. So, I am looking for a new challenge, sailing off into new sunsets and I have currently started at college as of October.
I enjoy drawing. I have found it to be therapeutic in some aspects, as it can often get thoughts out that I can’t say out loud. In the same respect, writing does the same thing. I use it to express my terrors, my monsters, my life. I have an affinity for Angels and fairies. Here are some of my favorite pictures.
I have gone through some changes recently, reality jumped up and bite me in the ass. What I thought was mine forever, was taken away from me. Not only did it kill my soul, but it took away what ever little faith I had left in God . I have regressed back in to my thirteen year old self, cutting my self, taking pills, nothing is giving me what I want. I cant sit around and live like this but what do you do?
Once again my life has changed. Any one who knows me knows what I am talking about. i hit my lowest of all lows but this time i came out upright on the other side not broken . Due to receant events i am almost blind in one eye and totaily deaf in that ear but with the support of my wonderful family(my coven) i know i am stronge and being this way wont weaken me but make me stronger.
My current troubles with the physical attack on myself, has shown me what a loving and truly caring coven I have stepped into. I know with the support of my wonderful family (my coven), I know I am stronger and nothing will weaken me again, I will always be strong, due to their support. I am truly honored to be part of the Guardians of Darkness. THANKS BROTHERS AND SISTERS I LOVE YOU ALL!
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