On June 1st 2013, me, my uncle, my mother, and my father had to make the hardest decision in our life. It is one that neither of us try to think about due to it's condition.
A week prior my grandmother was fallen ill to fibermyalga of the lungs. The doctor had given her a choice to delay the passing of her life. In hopes that surgery may help. She never made it to that surgery. Beyond her wishes as well as her living will she was coaxed to be placed on a machine.
Her condition stayed steady for a couple days and the surgery was set, after that her health drastically dropped. She went from using 25% of the machines compacity, to nearly using 95%. And the question was asked. "Would you like to pull the plug?"
It is never easy to know that a family member is dyeing. It is even harder to be the one to have to make the decision. But the hardest thing to do. Is this; know that they are dyeing, to be asked that question and look at the other family members and unanomusly agree knowing well it was the best thing to do. And sit there even after an hour after the tone to see that family member pass. I bersonaly saw someone close die before. But this, this is perhaps the hardest thing I ever had to deal with in my entire life.
A year and twenty-six days later, yesterday mind you. My uncle was sorting through his voice mail box while on speaker. drowning out all the rest of his messages, one thing was clearly heard.
"One saved message." That one saved message was the last call my uncle received from his mom. My grandmother.
A devout christian, who unlike most christians today respected others and their ideals. Who never thumped the bible and demanded people to be saved. A woman who by several was perhaps the nicest person they knew.
Her voice alone on that old message send my uncle in tears, I myself well at the time was on the verge. Even now it's not easy thinking about it. All she was asking was for spreadsheets for church.
Acting like she didn't know it was her time, when at the time of her death we knew she knew, in fact she knew long before that day.
To explain this, in all my life I have only seen my uncle cry once. This made the second time, despite he tried to hide it. Since that day I never looked back, I never wanted too. Today I did.
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Ok I was hosting a cam, and my cat ran over my keyboard and attacked my fingers while typing. This is what came of it.
DarknessEvolved: I will check it out 7oce 6mya
xIllusionsx: it's an older story but yeah
DarknessEvolved: once my cat stops typing for me
xIllusionsx: guys always blame the pussy
xIllusionsx: I swear
xIllusionsx: My balls itch "pussy did it"
xIllusionsx: My head hurts "the pussy did it"
margareet: hahahahahaha
xIllusionsx: My back hurts "the pussy did it"
xIllusionsx: I have bad typos "the pussy did it"
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really..you had to do that? wow lmao...but it's true!!
And that is why I love cats...lol
LMFAO!! I love her ;)
Ok, so I don't typically write in a blog form. Though I have to say I am stoked. I had a few laughs at someone that's been thankfully contained in PM and how ignorant that one party was. Though to each their own, I won't mention names or bring any outside of things.
I was inducted into the coven of my choice, and had a few friends of mine and my friend looking out to make sure it happened. I will admit I am not new to this site, and honestly I am not the kind to be thrown around like some submissive play toy. So that worked out perfectly. I do want to thank those who did help with this as well. Without you guys it wouldn't of been possible and I would of probably procrastinated till I thought it was safe..
TO add too it I am sitting here and talking with the most beautiful soul I have ever ventured to know. Music alone is only adding to the euphoria of such.
I fear though if my inbox keeps getting hit with new people asking about their path and looking for guidance I may not have an inbox left to enjoy lol. Though in the long run that is a good thing right? To know people look up to an old soul such as myself and seek wisdom and understanding. That in itself is worth the time and patience that pays off at later dates.
We all say life sucks, though I have realized, it was just how I was living it. Granted I don't really work due to a doctor saying I have an infliction that prevents me from doing much of anything, especially operating machinery and the like due to risk of harm to others. I do happen to have a life worth living. Just wish I had a little money to play with right now. There's someone I want to help out, and let them come crash at my house or I visit them. Though they say patience is a virtue, and it's one I seem to have lots of.
Anyways, VK, Illusions, FeLiNa, and the others that may have been helping that I don't know about. Thank you so much, you all made my day. And in time I will return in kind.
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The things others do is something of their own doing, they tend to do things that seem right but yet they are not right. To many on this site seem to take things WAY to serious...and to be honest it's sicking..it really is. you can say hi to someone and someone will snap off at you.
I guess with how people are on here are how they are in person..and if that's the case then I don't want to meet them in person cause i would end p beating their ass or something...but yeah...I get what you say and all i have to say is....
Great minds think alike.
Agreed... I had one do that to me too.. Snapped when all I did was say Hi, I added you. hehe.. Thistle Rose was her name. Her kid is the same way. But you know what they say.. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree. I don't blame him.. Just his shitty example. People around here don't seem to understand that you get what you put in. It's that simple. If you are nasty to others, others will be nasty to you. It's not that hard to come at, feel me?
Also.. Life is what you make it and you are going to make it. No matter what it takes, take it!
You all may be wondering what DarknessEvolved represents as a meaning. Some may have an idea, and fewer may be right. Let's get down to the chase then shall we?
There are a few things that should be adressed first and formost, the top of the list is this. We all know what darkness means, and it holds various meanings in the end. Evolved, a context of evolution, meaning to advance, to become more, or simply become stronger then it's predesessor. WIth that said, the basic terminology is simple. A better, stronger, more sustainable darkness.
Now lets get to the more advanced understanding. Darkness alone within it's own glory holds great power, but to look beyond just darkness and manifest into other forms o it's being. To untap it's true potential and understand that darkness is neither good nor evil. There lies it's true potential.
Many see the ordeal that light is good, and darkness is evil, though it has been written that even those of light can conduct deeds of vileness, and dark beings can do deeds of good. There fore to explain this in more detail, neither is bound to one or the other. But to each other in the end. For one cannot live without the other.
Peace cannot be granted without chaos, thus goes to the very lines of their survivability. Knowing this is the first step of evolution. To adapt to this knowledge is the second. Lastly, to not focus upon mans labels of good or evil, but see the whole picture clearly.
When it comes down to it, its the matter of embracing not just darkness, but all things. To respect it's so called enemy. To see within, to know it's power and it's place.
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You are very wise and discerning grasshopper. True peace and freedom from the serfdom of systems such as VR covens can only come from embracing the chaos and joining VLADVAMPIRELORD's ARMY OF DARKNESS wherein ALL covens will be besieged and destroyed and the lickspittle ass munches who dwell therein freed and given over to the glorious servitude of said Dark Lord and Destroyer of Souls VLADVAMPIRELORD, blessed be he in damnation. To hasten such effect, a new organization, the Raging Partial Nipple Underground has been created as a splinter organization to sow discord with their hit and run guerilla attacks and "dirty" nipple bombs which have been placed of late to the great consternation of the VR hierarchy. All Hail! Deliverance is close at hand. Yeah, yeah darkness and the whole deal too.
Is this not what the prophet Orwell saw in the early 1930's. The slogans of the party, and the totalitarian rule of the 1% over the other 99%. One can only hope that as the bullet enters he back of your head, you will truly love the Darkness.
One can only hope that if I tickle your asshole enough times with my pinky finger you will regain the vestiges of what was once called a sense of humor...
Now bow down and hail the one true lord, VLADVAMPIRELORD.
Don`t mind Vlad. He is a naughty one. And when it is nobody pays him any attention at all.
Welcome to the site! The concept is quite interesting. Still darkness evolved goes closer to light, isn`t it?
I wouldn't say goes closer tot he light, but respects it and learns from it as well. The willingness to see the full picture and adapt to that.
To truly see the truth and not what man babbles on every day. The willingness to break the arrogant cycle and advance.
its one of the best explanations of darkness and light i ever heard so far!
very good, and so VERY true. :)
to me: there is no beauty of sun raise or sun set without both light and dark in equal strength.
Yep.. To defeat the enemy, you must understand them :) Very good and detailed description of your screen name.. Loved it.. Thank you :)
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Anaksha
16:44 Aug 02 2014
LOL!!! I clicked on it. :/