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Always smile16:18 Jul 27 2017
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One month and a half. Thats how long ago since the day the put me to sleep and operated me for the third time in my life. One month and a sliglty painful month since my body start to heal and acts as it used. But the price is to small when after a wile of the operation you go to see your surgeon and your ongologist to read the latest ct scan results. When they raise their head and after a wile they smile to you.
So acording to my last ct scan they places were the cancer spots were getting big again were cleaned well. There are still a few spots but are so tiny that they might not be even active but that will be once again watched over in almost three months. The only scary part the surgeon was troubled on the operation was that in one spot he was cleanng was close to an artery that was too easy to burst but I know one thing for sure. I could not thank them enough for saving me. For taking me in their hands and not looking at me as a patient but as their child and helped me get well. Positive and good mood thats what helped me. Thats what they told me. Being so positive and not giving helped me heal faster and helped them cure me.
Normaly I am not a person to sit and write about my health issues. Hence I wouldnt even say I have cancer but since the day I met this beautiful man in my life and he held my hand smiling to me helping me in every step in this hard dark road I know that many should see that cancer is nothing to be scared too. My beautiful Dakotah. Yes the path to get well is long and many times very hard and complicated but its WORTH FIGHTING. Life is too PRECIOUS for letting it slip from your fingers. I know I have sad it before but I wont stop saying it over and over again. LIFE IS PRECIOUS. sot STOP fighting over stupid things. Stop being negative. Stop wish you would be dead because your boyfriend of one month left you or because you didnt find job at the first try. Stop being so small in heart and mind. Open up your eyes and look. People fighting for their lifes and still they smile with warm hands and seek only for others to be well and try to bring hapiness. So I raise my head up to the sky. Let the sun touch my skin. I take a deep breath and I smile. Keep fighting and thinking positive.
Sean I cant tell you how much you helped me. How much strength you gave me. How you healed me by only talking to me. How precious you are to me. The words in my mouth are to small and little for what i have in my heart for you. You are my air my breath my heart and the reason of everything. You pushed me to my limits and helped me face my demons and fight for my health. You brought me back the smile that I though I lost for year. You made my heart beat in a crazy tempo and every day go wilder just only being with you. You are a fighter a warrior and amazing friend. I am proud of you in the fights you gave in your life and became a golden winner. I respect you of your true self you have in you and always be respectful unique. You are a sweet man and a loving boyfriend. You are the loving husband of my universe and heart with the purest heart and I love you every day deeper and more. You are the love of my life and no matter what I will always be by yoru side in every day that pass by in our life. I love you so much Sean
Your lily
Your flower
Your Irene forever
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Dakotah
16:32 Jul 27 2017
Then I can pat myself on the back and say 'Job well done'. Irene what makes us so great too is we built a friendship first. You became one of my best friends. And friends have each other back no matter what. And we did that. We had each other backs. And then lo and behold we fell in love. I am so proud of you for making this post. I am just giddy. When I met you, you were in this bubble how you did not want to tell anyone your struggles because you could not bare the thought of having someone that was a friend of yours worry about you. Talk about a selfless soul; you are the poster child for being selfless. You would even break down crying at the mere thought YOU made one of your friends worry about you. I began to explain to you that your friends had the right to know. How ever this cancer thing plays out in the long run your friends had the RIGHT to know and to worry and ride this crazy ride with you and how DARE you take that away from your friends. I told you what you were doing is taking away there experience in showing you there support, there love and being there for you and that you did NOT have the right to take that from them. So you started opening up to your friends and the people that love you.And look at you now! This post! I am so damn proud of you. And LOML don't think this is going to be the only one you make over the next year. Oh no way! This is just the start! Now I want all your friends that read your entry here tell you 'Irene Sean is right and thank you for telling us so we can show you we love you.' Matter a fact I am going to demand you make a post now in your journal at least every 2 weeks updating about your cancer and our life together. It helps others too Lily....Let them see that hey if this girl with cancer can face every day... well heck I can too and value every day and maybe my shit not that bad after all.... I love you! I am so proud of you! You get a treat today!
Liliancat
16:39 Jul 27 2017
Im so proud of you too. You have faced so many thing in yoru life and with yoru health too. Thinsg that were hard and you strungled but you made it and you said to life "No i am not giving up. I can do it" And you did it angel. You did it. This strength you hold you passed it to me too and its in us lice a cycle swirling from one other making us even stronger and even more bonded together. Thank you for being in my life. Thank you for beliving in me. Thank you for pushing me to be stronger. You are my cure and my medicine. You truly healed me. Thank you for loving me so strong. I love you more than the moon and more than the sea. Always
ZombiexCupcake
17:28 Jul 27 2017
You're an inspiration to us all that no matter what the world throws at you to move forward with a strong will, a brave soul, and a kind heart :3
Liliancat
18:59 Jul 27 2017
You are a sweet and kind woman cupcake and no matter what you always smile and are kind to others being positive. Never give up and keep this positivity in you. You are not alone!!
LORDMOGY
20:35 Jul 27 2017
Hugs both of you.
Asgardareid
20:47 Jul 27 2017
My beloved little sister, my warrior princess...
Im so proud of you, for all that you do and for how strong you are.
You bring so much love and light in this world....i wish more people would be like that...
S agapo...
StrangeWings
21:34 Jul 27 2017
Such wonderful news - your strength and positivity are truly remarkable! In these sad times when people are killing themselves, it is so good to see that some people still have the courage to fight for Life. I wish you both continued health and happiness in the days ahead!
LuciferianLullaby
01:13 Jul 28 2017
Hugs you tight....no matter what happens in the future Lilly I am here for you and Sean
Liliancat
09:25 Jul 28 2017
Hugs back at you dearbrother Mogy!! You are an awesome man and proud to call you brother!! Your words is always an insipartions to all and you are always next to Dakotah and I!!
Sis you gave me such strength too when we were talking trying to calm my fears. You are an amazing woman!! Strong and unique!! I admire you so much!! Ich liebe dich!!
Wings you are a truthful kind man!! Thank you for the words and sweet wishes!! I couldnt be happy for you and my sister!! You two are an amazing couple filled with love!! You remind me so much of Dakotah and I. No matter the distance love gets strong!!
Thank you dear Cat!! You are sweet and kind and as you said we never know what will happen in the future but having friends and being positive and keep dreaming all is good!!
xRobin3x
22:21 Jul 28 2017
hugs you, you make me smile always when your around. big hugs
LadyJigsaw
22:24 Jul 28 2017
*hugs Lily********************* proud of amazing you
Elizabethbathory33
19:38 Jul 29 2017
Congrats and hope that the worst is behind you so that you will have nothing less than the best in life you deserve it lily ^_^
xxxPoisonIvyxxx
04:34 Aug 01 2017
*hugs* Lily!!! You are an amazing woman and have such a beautiful soul. You are so brave and courageous and have a lot of people who love you and are here for you. Message me anytime!!!!
Euphoria
18:54 Aug 17 2017
she is an amazing woman with a good heart and a soul that never stop shining